I've lied to myself for quite sometime
Telling myself that I'm just fine
And I may be okay but I'm not feeling great
Since you left me with a heart like a chipped plate
I've got depression and anxiety
And my insomnia is back again
And I'm lonely at most times
Except when I'm with my friends
Laughing out loud but I'm breaking down
Breathing in deeply but I'm starting to drown
I've got a heart that's starting to mend
But the piece I left behind like a weight in my chest
Is trying to condense what love I have left
Like paper defeating rock it makes no sense
I have lots of love to give
But every gift has it's strings
And I have burdens few are willing to receive
So I keep them to myself
And lock them in my dreams
Wishing into the pillow that I could cry myself to sleep
But I know tomorrow I'll awake with a smile on my face
I'll finally have the energy to do what must be done
To move on without pretending that this never was
I lied to myself for quite sometime
I AM alright
I AM great
And NOBODY can take that confidence of mine with them when they leave
I believe in myself and so I fly free
Even though you're no longer here with me