There is something that will never come back even your tears turned into blood.
Dreamians
***
I don't care about the hairpin but if I lose it how can I give it to Huang people? I have to find it no matter what. My head is still dizzy and nausea makes me feel so discomfort but I can't accept the consequence from losing it. I don't understand since when I was tied by the Huang family but I feel something that I cannot explain.
"Young Master. Do you think that you are still the same Li Jun Jie?" Xiao Ran said to me while taking care of my wounds in my body. "Young Master, you can only accept it. Now done."
Xiao Ran raised his palm and the bucket of water and towel just disappeared in seconds like it never existed.
"Xiao Ran, what do you want implied with your words? Don't you see that I am a man! A man! I am not a woman! How could you make me like this!"
"I do nothing to Young Master."
"How can you say that?"
Xiao Ran took a deep breath and looked at me with an intense gaze. She looks so frustrated so do I. I am so exhausted and in pain but I don't want to tell what I feel.
"Young Master, I understand but you don't have a choice. To be honest from the start you belong to the Huang family."
"Why?! I am from the Li family, not from the Huang family."
"Young Master, there is Huang family blood in your veins. The blood will never lie."
"Xiao Ran, you make me confused. How come that can be happened?!"
Xiao Ran looked at me while taking a very long deep breath.
"Because you are not from the Li family."
"You must be lying to me, right?"
"I am not lying to you. Now I don't want to tell you anything before you make your mind clean because your heart is full of her. She will give you the pain and torment but you seem to embrace the pain that comes from her. Is it worth mourning for a woman like her?"
Xiao Ran makes me startled with her words. She never said something like this before. She makes me remember about Jia Ming Yue. My heart is full of agony and anger. How can I cope with everything? I feel like my strength is running out in the wilderness. I am not afraid of Cheng Sheng Lin or his armies but I am afraid to face the reality.
I know, with my condition like this. I just laughing stock if people know about me. I am not the same Li Jun Jie anymore. I lost my family, I cannot marry anymore. Who wants to marry a person like me. This spell is cursed to me. I am not proud anymore. My pride just broke. My reputation was distinguished. I am just a criminal for people even if I never do something wrong.
"You don't have any right to say about her!" I stared at her. I don't know why I am so angry because of her true word. Perhaps deep down in my heart I cannot accept Jia Ming Yue wants me to die. Jia Ming Yue who made my family died.
"Young Master, look at you now. Can you accept that you were never be the same because you are the real heir from this family."
I am trembling when I hear her words but I cover all my emotions with laughter. I am laughing even though my body is in discomfort right now. I just cannot accept it.
"That's impossible because I am a man! Do you hear me! I am a man! The real man! I had slept with a lot of girls!"
"Then prove it to me.", She said with her gentle voice. I never heard Xiao Ran talk to me with such voice intonation. Just barely she can be wild and fierce but in another seconds she seduces me. What is she? Why does she want to seduce me? Why does she do it?
"I don't need to prove anything to you."
"But I want to show you something."
As she is approaching me then makes me shocked when she kisses me. Her kiss is sweet. Her moist lips are full. Her moves like wants to tease me to open my mouth and give her access to explore more but…but…something weird happens.
My body trembled because of the great pain that exploded from my veins. The scorching sensation makes me remember about my first change in my chamber. The pain is so unbearable and I cannot hold it anymore so I push Xiao Ran away while she kisses me like nothing happened. We can see how my body changes into a woman body. She can see when the twin lumps appeared and ripe away my pride as Li Jun Jie. The fire inside makes me so frustrated because I knew what was going to happen.
Arrrrrgh!
"Xiao Ran!"
I am so angry but can do nothing. My voice became gentle. What she does to me exactly! How come I feel the same pain?! She pledged to be loyal but what is it?
'Young Master, I want to show you this.'
What? She is talking to me through my mind? She does telepathy to me.
"Xiao…Ran, what do you want? Why did you curse me with that spell?!"
My bare top body exposed in front of her because before changed she undressed my layer. Oh…God I turned my body around to avoid her and hold the pain by myself.
'Young Master, I never cursed you with the spell. I just want to show you that you will never be the same because the spell is working on you.'
The pain makes me unable to speak but I have to ask her no matter what so. I try to ask her through my mind. I still don't know if it will work or not, at least I try my best.
'Xiao Ran, tell me how to break the spell?'
'As I said before, the spell cannot be void. The spell will find the way to make you give your life voluntarily.'
Arrrrrgh!
Again the great heat attacked me. My body is now full of sweat and wet. I can feel my manhood shrink and mold into a cave inside. I am growling because it torments me. Still I don't want to give up. I don't want to die through this way…
"I don't want to die. I don't want to die…please help me!" I shouted loudly but Yu Wen doesn't come.
'He cannot hear you. There is a bearer in this chamber so he cannot see or hear what happens inside except if he is a chosen one.'
'What…the chosen…one?'
Then the emptiness surrounding me. I don't have any energy.
***
Somewhere a man can hear…
'I don't want to die. I don't want to die…please help me!'
He can hear a woman's voice vividly but he doesn't have any clue about the voice. Accidentally, that man sees a jade pearl hairpin between the rocks on the riverbank then he takes the hairpin from the ground and observes it carefully.
Few seconds later…
"Report! We cannot find him!"
"Searching again! We will be looking for him until this late night!" That man ordered his subordinate officers fiercely.
"Yes! Understand!"