These scars will make you remember there is something that you learned from the past.
Li Jun Jie
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I don't understand why that General always gives me headaches. I think I never looking for problems or provoke him even if I am as Li Jun Jie or as Huang Jing Er. These two identities make me confused but what can I do?
After I'd met with Cheng Sheng Lin, I knew he really wanted to kill me when he met me as Li Jun Jie. I take a deep breath. I am walking as Huang Jing Er but what I am thinking about is always Li Jun Jie's matters. I have to solve the father's case. I am so tired because trapped in this body brings me into distress plus I have to think about my family.
I don't want the Huang family to get involved in this matter because it will make them dangerous. They help me and give me and Yu Wen a place to stay, I am so grateful. I don't want to be greedy.
"Jing Er?"
Wait? Is it Cheng Sheng Lin's voice? I am so shocked and curious so I turned to see who called me.
"Cheng Sheng Lin, why are you here?" I asked since I don't know why this General pop up here now.
"I will accompany you. Since you are alone."
"What?! General, I am fine. You don't need to accompany me. Don't you have a lot of business right now?"
I took off all the personas and masks that I used to wear in front of Cheng Sheng Lin before. I don't want to be a kind girl in his perception. He cannot fall in love with me as Huang Jing Er because I don't want to hurt him because I am Li Jun Jie not Huang Jing Er.
"Yes and my business now is to accompany you." He smiled.
"Cheng Sheng Lin!"
Now I understand. He wants to catch me as Li Jun Jie. That's why he follows me like this. He doesn't trust me!
"Jing Er, you are a girl and I don't want something to happen to you."
What?! His excuse just makes me nauseated because I know his passion is to kill me.
"I trust if you tell me that you want to kill me rather than you don't want something to happen to me."
Cheng Sheng Lin looked at me. His face so tense. I don't know what is in his mind.
"Jing Er, I am serious."
Cheng Sheng Lin stared at me while his sharp gaze intimidated me. Cheng Sheng Lin makes me tremble when I realize he is really serious.
"General, don't worry. I will help you. I will bring Li Jun Jie in front of you because you ever helped me once and we have a deal as well. Listen to me I promise to bring him but I don't want you to treat me as a criminal like this." I said.
"Jing Er, I am..."
Before he completes his sentence, I turn around and leave him who is still standing in the same spot. I don't want him to follow me. Cheng Sheng Lin cannot treat me like this. He makes excuses that he worries about me. Does he really think that I will trust his words? Sorry...I cannot.
I left this place as soon as possible because I have to come back at Huang manor and meet Yu Wen. I think to investigate this matter from now on seriously. For the first step, I have to find Jia Ming Yue but I don't have any clue about her.
A lot of thought in my mind right now and I don't know how I start?
Suddenly...
That pain comes again. Why do I have to feel the pain right now? I am alone here. My legs tremble before I fall on the ground. Now I am surrounded by trees. I wish Cheng Sheng Lin would not follow me but when I hear Chen Sheng Lin's voice called Huang Jing Er. At that time, I was so scared and bit my lower lips to hold my scream out from my mouth. I insist on holding this pain by myself.
His voice nearer and nearer. In this situation, I try my best to crawl then infiltrate between grass and big trees. I don't want Cheng Sheng Lin to see me change into Li Jun Jie. I decided to take off all the girl layers from my body before I come back to Li Jun Jie because I don't have a lot of time. Even Cheng Sheng Lin meets me. He has to meet me as Li Jun Jie, not when I transform into Li Jun Jie.
I prayed in my heart, I hope Cheng Sheng Lin cannot find me here in this state. I keep crawling until I find a small gap between two roots of two big trees. I stayed here until I finished my painful transformation. I am so weak because change into Li Jun Jie is not easy for me besides a lot of severe wounds in my body.
I almost close my eyes when I hear a familiar voice from the outside. That is Yu Wen's voice. I cannot shout because I am worried if Cheng Sheng Lin still follows me. Why am I so excited? Yu Wen is looking for me but I cannot shout right now.
I come out from this gap slowly then look for Yu Wen's voice carefully by crawling. I don't want to take a risk. I am not ready yet to die in Cheng Sheng Lin's palm. I am just thinking about Cheng Sheng Lin but how can this man just pop up in front of me now?
"Chen…"
"Sssst…"
That man put his index finger in his lips as if he gives me a sign to not say anything. His gaze looked so serious. I don't understand what happened until he guided me in a direction. Where I see Yu Wen is talking with a girl. I almost called Yu Wen if Cheng Sheng Lin doesn't use his right palm to cover my mouth.
"Shut up…" He whispered in my ear then let me go after I nodded.
He let me take a breath before I saw a girl who was talking with Yu Wen. That girl looks so familiar to me then I realize…She is Jia Ming Yue. I never knew Jia Ming Yue and Yu Wen were talking.
"Brother, why did you have to help him yesterday?! You know his parents had been killed our parents! Why did you destroy my plan?!" She shouted.
At that time…I don't know what I was supposed to do. My heart aches. I feel so uncomfortable inside.
"Ming Yue…Don't you feel satisfied? Li Jun Yang had been died. Now Li Jun Jie is alone. He is not dangerous. He is a kind man."
"Brother! I never knew that you are on his side now!"
I am shocked when know that Yu Wen has a sister and his sister is Jia Ming Yue and now what of their secrets? I hold my tears because there is Cheng Sheng Lin here. I don't want to cry here.
"Ming Yue, Li Jun Jie is falling in love with you."
"I know that! But I am so disgusted when I think he is Li Jun Yang's son." Jia Ming Yue said with fire of anger in her eyes. She holds her tears, I know Jia Ming Yue must hate me the most. "Brother, why do you help him! He deserves to die!"
"Ming Yue. I did my best to help you take revenge to our parents. If it's about Li Jun Yang, I will do everything to kill him but Li Jun Jie is different." Yu Wen said.
I am shocked with their conversation. I feel so alone right now. I cannot trust anyone. Even Yu Wen does something like this to me. Do they really want me to disappear to appease their resentment?
"That's not enough! Brother you have to kill him! I will stop when I see Li Jun Jie die in front of me!"
Jia Ming Yue's words make me feel worse. I love her. During this time, I don't know why she didn't accept my affection towards her but now I understand. Why…why it's so hurt? I know, I slept with a lot of girls because I cannot erase Jia Ming Yue from my heart. Now…I just want to forget about everything.