Moonlight just make me remember about you,
remember about a love without returned back
And the beauty of moonlight will never belong to me
because it only exists in my mirage.
Li Jun Jie
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I take my deep breath. I always remember about her, indeed. Remember a name. that name is Jia Ming Yue. I think this feeling will never end. I realized Jia Ming Yue's heart is not for me. I know Jia Ming Yue has someone else in her heart and that person is not me. I know I will never forget her in this lifetime.
I still remember when snow dropped on the street. The cold being enemy at once. I am still ten years old. Too young. That time, I had met her on the crowded street. I was always curious why she was alone. She had been wearing a beautiful dress but her hair had looked so messy. She was cute with two hair buns at her head. I saw her looking at a bun seller. I had known that she had starved so I had approached her who stood in front of the seller then bought two hot buns then given to her.
I will never forget her first smile. So pure. So beautiful. Without any word, she had been bitten by the buns. That time her face had carved into my heart.
"Where are your parents?" I asked.
She had been chewing the bun. She had been biting the bun again and acted like no one in front of her. I had bought two hot buns again for her then she smiled again. Perhaps since that day I am falling for her.
"Young Master?"
Yu Wen makes me come back to reality.
"Yu Wen, this is so beautiful." I looked up and saw the shining star illuminate the dark sky and deliver the serene and peaceful.
"Uhm."
This scenery makes me remember about her because after I had brought her into Li's manor Ming Yue never smiled again. Even though I had approached her, she never gives me the same smile like our first encounter ever again.
"Yu Wen, do you have any information about Jia Ming Yue?" I asked.
"Young Master. I am sorry because until now, I still cannot find Miss Jia Ming Yue."
I take a deep breath. Yu Wen's answer makes me sadder. I don't know where I have to look for her right now. She had disappeared almost four years ago and I am really missing her. I still don't understand why she has to go?
When I see the beautiful lanterns hung on the street makes me remember about her again. Jia Ming Yue likes to see the lanterns. I hope she can see these beautiful lanterns also.
All about Jia Ming Yue just appears in my mind suddenly. Her shadow is fulfilling my imagination right now because across the street I can see Jia Ming Yue is walking alone with her beautiful dress. I am startled but happy. Jia Ming Yue always makes me curious so I decide to follow her. Alright, I just want to make sure that she is really Jia Ming Yue.
"Young Master, how come she is appearing here?" Yu Wen whispered.
I just realized. This is real. Jia Ming Yue is here. What is she doing here?
I think she is waiting for someone at the riverbank. She looks so calm standing up alone with her lantern in her grip. Four years makes her look more beautiful in a pale purple dress and her red lips so tempting. I realized she was so beautiful when she put her makeup on but I realized she is not her for me but for other men.
"I don't know but she looks beautiful."
"Young Master-"
Yu Wen stared at me.
"Alright but that is the fact. She is so beautiful tonight, right?"
We are waiting behind a tree and grass a bit longer. Jia Ming Yue is so beautiful and her eyes so vibrant look like she is waiting for someone in her heart. I have never seen Jia Ming Yue so excited like this before, even though I can see how happy she is when she is smiling at the riverbank.
"Someone come."
I see a man come to Jia Ming Yue. He looks familiar and yes...he is Cheng Sheng Lin. I never know if Jia Ming Yue knows him. Jia Ming Yue takes a bow to him. She looked so happy when Cheng Sheng Lin stood in front of her. To be honest I envied him. During this time I lived with her but still can't reach her heart.At this time I know someone in her heart is Cheng Sheng Lin, not me. Man who had killed my father.
Cheng Sheng Lin looks more casual. His long hair just tied with white tape remaining, another loose hair being exposed to the air. I can see Mei Hua is accompanying him with a sword in her hand. She looks so vigilant.
"Young Master. Why do you want to meet me?" Jia Ming Yue looks so bright in the moon's ray.
"This is the last time I see you make a mistake like that!"
Cheng Sheng Lin looks more calm but his words are so rude to her. I never thought if her bright face became so gloomy in seconds after hearing his words. Soon she kneels down in front of him. What mistake did she make?
"Young Master please forgive me!" She begged.
I still don't understand until....
"Miss Jia, I never thought you had killed Li Jun Yang when I did operations in his manor!"
"Young Master please forgive me. I know I was wrong. Young Master knew if he had killed all my family. I don't have a choice except to live in his manor during this time. I had held this hatred and when that time came why could I not kill Li Jun Yang?!"
What?! She killed my father? How can she be the villain here? My back feels hot and burning but I refuse all. I want to hear their conversation. I want to know everything. I have to know all? Did Chen Sheng Lin order her to do that? But...
But... What mistake did I commit to her? Did our family always treat her as a family member? Why did she kill my father?
A lot of questions in my mind right now but in this situation I have to hold all in my heart. the pain comes again and I know I have to be Jing Er. I shut my mouth with my palms so they don't know about me.
"Young Master..." Yu Wen keeps his low voices.
I cannot give him an answer because of the pain that I feel. I don't care if I have to endure these pains. The cold sweat drops all over in my body. At least my body will fully change and become Jing Er.
"Young Master..."
"Yu Wen don't worry, I have to know everything."
"Young Master..."
"I know. Yu Wen you have to come back first. Don't let both of them see you are here with me."
"Young Master."
"It's alright."
"Who is there?!"
Just in a few seconds a sword is flying through the grass and almost slash my neck if I am not avoid it soon. A girl beside him threw her sword towards me. To be honest, I never knew a girl like Mei Hua could be so creepy in a seconds. This just about time they will find me here.
"Come out now! If I find you, I will drag you!"