We have our own seasons.
Dreamians
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I have to deal with this great pain. Fortunately we can get in the carriage on time. Some chariots are still chasing us on behind. Their horses almost reached us.
"Young Master, maybe they are still chasing after us."
"Let the driver go. Don't let him get in trouble because of us. Just drive as usual." I said with tears on my face.
"Yes, Young Master." Yu Wen replied.
Yu Wen's alertness increases when hear the sound of chariots approaching us. Yu Wen still does his best to stay away from them. Until we can enter the forest then they gradually get away from us.
This body turned into a woman again but this time my endurance during change is getting better.
I comb my hair and tie them with my purple long tape. My body is still weak and the cold weather is piercing my bones.
The carriage suddenly stopped. I know we are still in the forest. I got out of the carriage to know what happened. I was totally shocked when I saw my siblings bodies on the ground. They were all dead.
"Please help the baby."
I hear my sister in-law's voice. I looked for her in the fog and rainy night. I found her. She was so pale and full of blood in her body. I held her body and I realized she used her body to cover the baby from rain. She doesn't know if I am her brother in law. Soon, Yu Wen takes the baby from the ground and puts her in his embrace.
"Please save this baby. Let my family take her. My brother in-law is Li Jun Jie."
"Yes, I will take care of this baby, Sister in-law." I can't help when tears and rain drops mix together on my face." Yu Wen, please take the baby on the carriage.
She is still calm without panic or confusion. She just gave me a smile. Looks like she knows if I am her family member.
"Jun Jie? Is that you?" She asked and I am nodding.
"I will bring you to-"
"No." She cuts my speech. "Don't go to the North because they were waiting for you over there."
"What?"
My body is trembling. I never thought that the chariots know about this plan.
She gives me her beautiful jade pearl hairpin from her hair. I know she always treasures her hairpin and now she puts it in my coiled hair. Her trembling hand reached my face. From my nostril, I can smell the blood mixed with wet soil.
"Jun Jie went to the Southern area. There is my own manor. No one knows about us there. Jun Jie, you must hurry. Somebody will help you when you arrive there. Please use that hairpin and the baby. They will help you." She said in agony then she blows away her last breath and it makes my heart break again. I am so sick when I see my family member corpses scattered on the ground. They take my heart too when I see no one still lives here. They all died and now just me who still remain. I am alone now.
Tonight I decided to bury and give them my last regard for them all. I Hope they can forget what happened in the past and start a new life.
"Yu Wen, we will go to the Southern. They knew we would go to the North. We will stay at Southern. Do you remember when my second brother brought us over there?" I asked.
"Young Master, don't worry we will go there safely."
I put the baby in my embrace to make her warm. She must have been under my sister in-law's body. I change her sloppy clothes with dry clothing from my box.
"Baby, be good alright. From now on I will take care of you."
Yu Wen still drives the carriage. This dawn we passed through the forest. I couldn't sleep last night. The shadow of my family members death has become my nightmare.
Southern area is still far away and we need to take a rest for a while but we can't stay in this city because the armies still chase us. We still need to buy milk for the baby.
"Yu Wen, we need milk and food."
"Yes, Young Master."
On the crowded street, we take a rest to buy food and milk. Fortunately Jin Er doesn't have a problem with the milk. She looks calm, maybe she knows this time not for crying.
Yu Wen looked so tired after driving along the night. As usual he always brought his sword to protect us. We didn't talk a lot, just hearing issues about Li's rebellion thwarted by great general Cheng Sheng Lin.
"Young Master do you want me to kill them?" Yu Wen looks so calm but I know he will if I said so.
"No. We have to stay calm and don't make any moves. We just need to go after it is finished."
"Yes."
We continued this journey after buying some fabrics for me and the baby. I keep her in my embrace. Sometimes I have to deal when she does pee. I almost panic but after changing her clothes she will calm again. I know Yu Wen tried to hold his smile when see me take care of the baby. He knows that I never took care of a baby before and with this body and appearance no doubt if they think I am her mother.
But who are the baby's parents? I don't know her name either. Should I give her a name? My sister in-law wants me to take care of this baby so I will take care of this baby.
We have to deal with hot weather during the day and cold weather when nights come. During two days we were going along and this time we arrived in the Southern area but the problem was I forget where the place that my sister in-law meant in her last words.
We got out of the carriage. Southern area is almost like a small city. People are walking on the street but I don't dare to talk with them. This place is still strange for me. We keep walking silently until a man comes after us. He looks at my sister in-law's hairpin that she puts on my hair.
"Lady please follow us." That man said.
Yu Wen sees them. "Let my lady get into the carriage. She is with the baby right now."
Yu Wen helped me to get in the carriage. I still couldn't sleep during this trip. I don't know these people. I think they are my sister in-law's people. They know her hairpin but how about my identity? Let them know me as a lady. This is more safe for us.
The carriage stopped and Yu Wen opened the curtain then helped me get out from there. We arrived at a manor. Some maids and servants help us to unload the stuff from the carriage.
I still don't know these people but they are so welcome to us. An old man approached me and now his body. I reply to him like a lady giving greetings to the oldest.
"Lady welcome home. Let's take a rest first."
"Home?"
I'm still confused, maybe it's because I don't know a lot about my second sister in-law. I just know my second brother loves her so much and doesn't want another wife for him although at that time my sister in-law was not pregnant yet for years after their marriage. He loves her so deeply. She never mentioned her family to me. I just know she is so humble and helped me to approach my first love.
But why does that old man mention me as a lady? And… home?