Here I am again, on the same bed, same bedroom, with my face hidden in my pillow crying my heart out. You would think I'm a professional by now about handling heart breaks because this was my 3rd one. Truth be told however, I was sad that I lost myself in this abusive relationship in which I only stayed all this time cause I felt bad for Ying, my ex after multiple threats of suicide and all. However, thinking all this time, I have to love myself & just let him be... even if that meant he was going to harm himself for my sake... I just couldn't do it anymore because I was hating myself and who I have become.
That said, I thought to myself that after 3 terrible relationships, I would just let it be and be single for a while. What other more perfect way to spend time to myself and get over these "boys" than to spend time with my best friend Carina at the yearly New Year Festival.
I didn't think much about going, other than to be myself and love myself again. Who would have knew that by deciding to go to this festival that lasts 3 days, my world would change completely.