After those long few days of being sick and lying on bed went by, I was fit enough to attend school again. But unfortunately the day I was ready to go to school, that particular day was declared as a holiday. Normally any kid would be happy to have a holiday but not me, atleast the me of now. I was so overwhelmed at the thought of seeing 'him' again and observing 'his' weird traits. I was weirdly missing him for some reason, albeit I don't have the right to do so. I was missing every bit of him like seeing his adam's apple move up and down as he drank water, seeing his smile and observing every wrinkle on his face as he smiles, seeing his genuine skinny figure which is still hot enough to attract girls and observing his weird trace of moustache in the face that makes him look somehow 'manly' I guess. Puberty was hitting me so hard that I lost control of myself. The game was all of hormones,according to google some hormone called oxytocin is being produced in my body. I couldn't help but think every bit of him and daydreaming about what-ifs. What if he ever gets to know that I like him, what if we can get together and be a thing, what if he asked me out for our dance event and what if we love each other forever and get married and have a happy ending? I was called off to my real world again by my mother. She was asking me to get up for my music lesson. Usually I have to go to my music teacher myself but today he was coming over himself at my home. Music is the only passion that I really have atleast, what I have realised till date in my life. Somehow music has been supporting me through my hard times like whenever I would cry I would either sit near the window and sing or I'll go off to the terrace with my guitar and sing. And whenever I'm crazy happy I would run and sing, ride a car and sing aloud, that's how crazy I'm. Today my music teacher was in a good mood so he made me learn a romantic song. It was too retro for my taste but somehow the song hit me hard me at some point; like with lyrics like:
"Patience is hard for me to keep up with//Seeing you smile with someone else,//Breaks my heart like shattering glass,//But your smile makes it worthwhile//I'll wait for you for an eternity//I'll reach to you through those endless lanes//I'll catch a glimpse of you everyday//Until my eyes are shut for this lifetime"
The song was written from a man's perspective but somehow I felt myself on the man's shoe. Maybe unconditional love is really tentative...