It hurts, I think death is a much easier choice right now. How come these things are happening to me and that curse when will it lose its effect. I want to live but why does the world just let me be happy.
I just want a simple life where I can live peacefully and happy. I don't want any more of this pain.
It really hurts.
Does this pain want to penetrate through my soul too?
I don't know why but suddenly it became so warm and the pain somehow subsided, it feels so comfortable and it feels like I have been wanting this warmth all of my life.
I have pushed myself more inside the comfortable warmth and somehow it also envelops me. I have tried to open my eyes but it seems like I can't but still, I persevered until I have caught a glimpse of light.
When I open my eyes I found out that I'm in someone's arms and I can't get out because of the tightness of his hold.
I cannot see his face but I think he is sleeping.
I wonder if it's already evening. I can't see anything clearly but I think I'm inside of a carriage since the place is moving and I can hear the horses' hooves.
I have tried once again to move but I immediately stopped when I felt very excruciating pain. I have to hold my clothing to prevent myself from making a sound but unknown to me the clothing that I had hold is the one that possesses to the person holding me.
I can feel his grunt and then suddenly I think his head looked at and it seems like he is awake.
I have gulped some saliva because of nervous since I didn't know the person.
"Wan Gouwei tell them to stop the carriage" He suddenly spoke and it almost makes me have a heart attack and that is also when someone opened the door and the light from the moon penetrate inside the carriage and I found a person in white clothes and then someone holding a lamp that somehow someone I already met.
When the person in white clothing looked at me he just stared at me for a second then he just stayed like that for a minute before his eyes turn wide, and he cannot move.
"What's the matter Wan Gouwei?" The person who holds me asked and that is when my attention came to him.
He also stared at me when I looked at him and I don't know why but I feel like I have met this person but I can't remember someone like him.
I just stared at him, and he also stared at me and when the light of the lamp completely illuminated the room that is when I see his face, and then he touched my face, and he let me see my own tears.
Huh?
How come I'm crying is it because of the pain?
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