I once heard a story from Zi Yan and in that story, two people promised something to each other but I cannot remember the promise since it has already been a long time. At the end of the story that promise was not fulfilled by both of them, they are both pitiful the man seems to be wanting some kind of authority and power while the woman just wanted someone to accept her as who she is. They both love each other but due to circumstances, they didn't become together.
I wonder if I fall in love will I also be like them? In this age, love doesn't have that much room especially if you born noble or royalty.
Love, even that is a word that even now I don't know but I think I have been receiving that from the person who has always taken care of me.
"Princess, you're a very lovely person" every time I feel down she always made me feel better, then she suddenly left me.
I wonder if love can just bring endless pain.
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I don't really know he is crying but why do I feel like this, it hurts seeing him cry and somehow my eyes are watering.
I've never seen a man cry, it seems like he had experienced something that had really made him break apart.
I'm not allowed to be held like this by a man other than my husband but this person helped me and I think it is my time to help him too.
After I get married I know that my only freedom will be taken away from me. I don't want to hurt anyone that is why I just keep following what they have told me.
I don't want to hold someone dear since there will always a time when they will just leave me.
I hold the man's face and wipe the tears that are flowing from his beautiful dark eyes since this is what he did when I just suddenly cried earlier.
I wonder if it's alright for him to show his tears to me.
Before knowing it, I have already hugged him, I feel like he doesn't expect something like this since he somehow flinched in my arms though even I am surprised by what I have done.
I let out a very soft gasp when he suddenly held me tighter but still his hold is extremely gentle.
When I thought he had finally wanted to let go his face is already in front of mine. He just stayed like that while looking closely at my face.
Wait!
My… my eyes.
Because of the sudden realization I immediately covered my face from him. How come I didn't realize that my eyes can already be seen.
It's alright to show this to the people that I know but it is another story if it's a stranger.
I just stay like that for a while but it seems like the man is not doing anything. I just let some hole in which I saw him still looking at me closely.
Suddenly my arms are being grabbed and then his face is already in my face and it is so near that I can feel his breath.
I don't know why but I suddenly feel feverish and I wanted to hide but what I didn't expect is what he did.
A suivre…