"Are you completely sober now?" I asked, but he didn't answer.
"Are you sober now?" I tried again, still no answer. Does he even hear me?
"Are you-" I cut myself off. Eh, I'll let him watch. Since he wasn't noticing anything anyway, I decided to take my chances.
I leaned over, reaching his hair and gently running my hand through them. I don't understand why he likes my hair, when his is probably much better.
After a bit, I withdrawed my hand, slightly disappointed he still didn't notice me. Basically like I wasn't even there.
Trying to not be annoyed, because it isn't logical to be annoyed, I got up slightly sleepy because of all the carbs.
I walked to my bed, picking up my book that I've not read in forever, and sitting down to read. I'm probably being too needy, I concluded. Soon enough, I was lost in the plot, completly immersed in the horror fiction.
I don't know how long i'd been reading, but after a while I felt a hand on mine and freaked out, screaming.
"What the fuck?" I said panting, realising it's just Matthew. He was leaning on the bed, wide eyed, probably not expecting me to be screaming.
"It's movies over, it was so goooooood." He cooed finally shaking it off, smiling fondly. Nvm, I'm not annoyed in the slightest. How could I be when he looks like a kid who saw an amazing dream.
"Are you completely sober?"
"I don't get drunk that easily, I'm just tired." He muttered getting in the bed beside me. Almost immediately his eye lids started growing tired.
"Wait don't sleep yet..."
"What is it?"
"You watch all those uh romance movies and such, um do you not...."
"Hurry up Liam." He stuffed his head back into the pillow.
"Wouldn't you prefer a girl?" I finally said. It's been troubling me for a while, if he watches all those romance movies, doesn't it mean he wants a normal family, with kids?
Aren't those the Happy endings in those clichés? What if that's what he really wants...
"Hmm?"
"It's just, I can't make a child."
"I know that."
"Don't you want like a normal family?"
"What are you talking about?" He finally looked at me.
"Look you watch all those sappy movies, wouldn't your ideal happy ending be with a girl?" I said, even though it was hard.
"I still can't understand."
"Oh my god, can't you be serious for literally once? "
"You're saying shit and you expect me to be serious?"
"I'm not! I just- Look I hate saying this so don't make me repeat it. Im scared you're not gonna be happy because I can't give you a normal family. I'm a male, yes, we can adopt but what if you don't want that? I wouldn't blame you if you'd want a girl over me."
He didn't say anything for a bit. "Yes, you're right. I did want a normal family."
I knew it. I sat up, playing with the bed sheet under my hands.
"And honestly, I never thought about it till now, a girl would be better huh?"
Fuck. I asked but I wasn't prepared for this.
"But-" he pulled me back down beside him, wrapping his arms around me.
"I prefer you."
" not sure how you didn't notice but I don't like kids, so don't mind if there aren't any. I guess my view of a normal family is different that before." I laid there, shocked at what I was hearing.
"As long as I can snuggle with someone I like after work, a normal family can go dig a hole and bury itself in it." A familiar warmth filled up my body, as tears I didn't realize I was holding back welled up in my eyes.
I freed my self, looking at him.
"You're not shitting me?"
"Nope."
"If you leave me for a girl you'll be a-" I thought about it for a second.
"You'll be a clown for the rest of your life because you lied."
"Is being a clown really that bad?" He chuckled wiping the tears off my cheeks.
"We aren't even together yet." He said as I looked at him disapprovingly, my eyes probably Niagara falls or something.
"Jesus stop crying. I wouldn't leave you for a guy either, well once we are dating y'know?"
"Can't you talk like a normal human being? You're enjoying this aren't you?"
"What? It's the truth, we both like each other but we never started going out!" He defended.
"And I do enjoy seeing you flustered and well teasing you, but not you crying."
He wiped my tears still.
"So stop crying." He leant in, resting his forehead on mine.
"I hate that I'm crying because of this."
"It's cute."
"Shut up."
"Will you be my boyfriend?"
"Fuck o-" my eyes widened as I realized what he said.
"You had to do that right now." I said, blushing enough to make cherries look pale.
"Answer it."
"Why would I say no?"
"Li-"
"Yes."
"I knew you'd say yes, but I was still nervous. I'm happier than I thought I'd be.." He chuckled then leant in to kiss my forehead.
"Now sleep." He yawned, pulling me behind, my back buried into his chest
He wrapped an arm around my waist, pulling a blanket over us, making it the most comfortable place on earth.
He was out almost immediately, as I stared at his arm around me. He must be tired huh?
Sighing contently, I fell asleep soon enough, because today really happened or do I need to wake up?