X was right. No matter what happened to me I had to get up and keep moving forward.
This pain is the kind of pain that only I can solve myself. I don't know how to do it, but I will trust X's opinion on it since all of my idea's have just lead to me feeling worse about myself in the long run.
I try to put a smile on my face, but I just can't do it easily right now, everything about happiness feels wrong to me so I won't try to force it, I will let it happen to me as naturally as I can. Maybe soon I will be able to smile again, but at least when I'm in a dungeon I don't have to pretend like I usually do.
There is nobody here to judge me, I can not smile as much as I want and nobody can say anything about it.
On the other side though there is nobody here for me to interact with, and that sometimes helps my mood.
I stand up from the hard ground and look around me, I hadn't even noticed that I left all of the goblins dead bodies here, it makes for an even more grim sight. What would people even say if they watched what happened to me here?
I killed a bunch of things, then after killing them I started talking to myself as I had a mental breakdown, then I cried for a long time, before I finally started talking to myself again.
At least I found another cliche in this world though, right? A character having a mental breakdown?
I'm glad it didn't turn out like it usually does though, generally the character would kill themselves or would go onto a killing spree.
Granted I am going to go on a killing spree, but it will be with monsters so that I can beat this damned dungeon. Not because of mental breakdown, because I want to beat this dungeon. That is an important point.
I start walking around and putting all of the bodies and weapons into my inventory so that if I find a use for them later I can have them ready.
I'm ready to grind out my blacksmith skill by forging a shit ton of daggers from these scrap weapons, I have plenty of experience from video games which definitely translate to real life.
That's why I should be able to double jump like some other video game characters, right?
Also I break every pot that I come across to see if there is money in it, but I feel that is common logic in real life.
See, I can still be funny even I don't feel like laughing, eat your heart out X.
Hm, no response. I guess X wore itself out trying to help me, I won't bother it for awhile.
After collecting the horde of goblins I head to the next boss room, I may not be emotionally ready but I do feel physically ready.
I open up the door and slowly sneak in, then I put a small pile of the swords down so that the door isn't able to slam itself shut... I hope.
[[Hide(Novice)] has reached level 5]
After getting about 20 feet in and very close to the goblin in the center, about 5 feet away, I feel a lot better since the door hasn't slammed yet, but after another foot it slams shut and the goblin jumped to face me where I was crouching.
Hm, I look at it's stats and just like the swordsman and dagger goblins, this guy is a spear-man goblin. His stats are focused on Dexterity and Strength so there's no use showing the same creature 20 times over since they're all just variants.
I move forward towards him and he lunges at me with his spear, I move to the side with a step then use my dagger to hook the spear near where he was holding it, and I pull.
The goblin, not being able to hold onto his, now that I look at it, rusted spear drops it, making it clatter onto the ground.
[Skill Acquired [Disarm (Dagger)(Novice)]]
This will come in handy if I grind it out I think. I mean imagine disarming someone who is the most renowned swordsman across the land with a dagger. I think that'd be pretty funny, especially if I parried his attack beforehand, I can already sense just how humiliated he would be.
After knocking his spear away I follow up with a quick stab to the heart, I've cut off enough of their heads recently and just want to end them quickly. Also I did learn from some goblins that I killed that their heart is, in fact, pretty much where ours is.
There's is a bit more to the left of their chest though, but it was close enough that I was able to stab where our's was and kill them.
After the light faded from the goblins eyes I collected everything in the room, the shattered remnants of the swords I tried using as door stoppers, the goblins body, and his rusty spear.
This spear is the worst weapon these goblins have had yet, and I think that is saying something considering their swords are broken in half.
The shaft of the spear is made completely out of wood and the tip is so rusted that if I was back in my world I would think this was from before Mesopotamian times. It's a miracle it is even held together, it's as if someone glued rust flakes together.
I sigh and put the piece of shi- rust. Rust, it's a piece of rust. And I put it away.
I walk towards the stairway to the next floor.
"I hope I'm doing a good job of moving forward, if I'm not, then well I guess I'll just keep going anyway and hope for the best."
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Status:
Gained 4 levels, 44 status points, and 5 skill points
John Arthur
Title:
Level: 17
Strength: 40(+0) [Up 6]
Cunning: 40(+1) [Up 6]
Intelligence: 40(+0) [Up 6 ]
Dexterity: 40(+0) [Up 6]
Endurance: 51(+0) [Up 17]
Luck: 40(+0)[Up 3]
Equipment:
Head: None
Chest: T-shirt
Arms: None
Legs: Boxers, Jean pants, Boots
Misc: None
Weapon(s): Knife
HP: 153/153
MP: 120/120
SP: 98/102
XP: 5543/1073