My heart still holds the hope that you will someday hug me and say "thank you for waiting" I hold this hope everyday that we are apart even though I'm now writing where everyone can read my words I only write these words for you because I can't say them I have yet to earn you in God's eyes and I might never and that's okay as long as you are happy im okay because I know I don't deserve you im simply just not good enough because all I can do is write words and not show action and maybe one day this will change but I'm worried that with that change so will my feelings and I'm not ready for that yet so until I see that I am a good enough man to stand before you and proudly say I can give you everything you deserve i step away and will not call you or text I will not try to meet you but if you call I will be there no question asked I will drop everything and come to you if that's what you need because you are my forever person I am simply at you're every call and some might call me a "simp" or maybe other might think I'm dumb for waiting because you living your life but I just don't care what others think I won't let them influence me I make my own choices and I choose you every time because you are that amazing, that beautiful, that wild and simple perfect and when I say perfect I mean I accept everything about you your flaws, insecurities, love, pain, i accept everything because there's no such thing as perfect I choose to give you my life because YOU ARE MY HEART