Leonardo
seeing Lyxaria on the same bed that I am makes me want to hold her close to me. but I know that if I make any move right now she's only going to push me away. I can already hear her deep breathing which means she is asleep already.
I have not felt this comfortable with another woman in my bed for a long time. I won't deny that I've slept with women. all made men have. that was part of the job description I guess. I lost my virginity at the age of 14.
that was the year before I got initiated. my father said that I can't be a made man and still be a virgin that no one is going to respect me that way. he took me to one of the night clubs that the Demarco's own and took me to an inner room that had a single bed and red lights everywhere. the room looked so eerie and degrading. like where men who don't respect women spend their lives. he made me fuck two women while he sat on the couch and watched me. I wondered how many people had fucked on that same bed.I knew the women were embarrassed on my behalf but they did not say anything, probably because my father paid them a huge amount of money for fucking a little boy. well after then I ceased being a little boy. I became a man. when my mother found out what father had done she was furious. That was the first time my mother had ever stood against my father and that's when I knew why she hadn't done that before. My father beat her up and he made me watch while he hit her mercilessly. he also made me watch as he raped her right in front of me regardless of my mother's constant begging and plead not to do it on front of me. he kept on saying this is how you treat women that are not obedient and like to go against you. that women are worthless and are meant to be treated as whores. nothing more. when It felt like I could not watch anymore I quickly excused my self and went into my room. I shut the door and I cried silently. I knew that men don't cry but I couldn't help myself. I wonder why my mom still stays in this worthless and painful marriage.
later that night while i was curled up in my bed I heard a knock on the door. I knew it was my mother because of the softness of the knock. I stood up and unlocked the door and let my mother in.
I could still see the bruises all over her face and she did not bother to hide it from me this time like she always did. probably because I was there when my father turned her into a homemade punching bag. she sat down on my bed with me. I looked around the room trying to distract myself from the wounds on her face. my room was dark. it has dark blue walls that matched the color of my eyes. that's why my mother chose it. my bed was covered with dark bedsheets and blankets. the blinds of my window were closed shut. I loved the darkness it always gave me a sense of comfort in a weird way.
"I need to tell you something, Leo" I heard my mom speak after sometime. I turned my head to look at her and I stared into her dark blue eyes. thank God I inherited most of her features and not my father's.
"what is it about Mom?" I inquired.
she sighed and came closer to me putting her hand around my shoulders and holding me close.
"I need you to know Leo that there is no honor in hitting women. Just because your father does it does not make it good. I don't want you to grow up to be like him Leo." she whispered into my ears. I could hear the plea in her voice. like I ever want to turn out like my Father.
"I won't be like Father mom." I whispered back with affirmation in my voice. I don't knwo if I was trying to convince her or I was trying to convince myself or probably both.
"no Leo I want you to promise me that no matter what you will never rsiss your hands on a woman. that will just make you less than a man." she continued.
I took a deep breath and looked into her eyes. something in me knew that I will never break this promise I've made to my mom. " I promise you mom. that I will never raide my hands on a woman to hit her." As soon as i had finished uttering those words I saw her smile. genuinely. I haven't seen her smile in a long time. " remember this day Leo. you made a promise to me as a made man not a little boy okay?"
" yes mother" I affirmed. if she had made me use the blood oath that all made men use when making a promise I would have done it. because I'll do anything to make her happy.
BACK TO THE PRESENT.
I did not even realize when Lyxaria had rolled to my side and wrapped her hands and legs around me. I had to admit the softness of her body drives me insane and in a good way. I quickly wrapped my hands around her waist and drawer her closer to me. This is the best feeling ever. I can feel her soft breath on my neck and it's making me hard. I have to pull myself together and stop acting like a fucking teenage kid that hasn't had s*x yet.
I pulled her closer to me, took a deep breath and closed my eyes. I knew this was going to be a long night and she will probably mad tomorrow but I don't give a fuck right now. all I really care about is feeling her soft body against mine.