CHAPTER NUMBER 6
The Room which was giving a calm and soothing vibe until now got shifted, the air was starting to get thick and as the day was passing by and the sunlight was getting dimmer, the atmosphere was changing drastically.
The Lady who was sitting beside my couch, showed no expression of concern which was scary on its own, no sign of emotion whatsoever, I only saw a slight smirk on her face, she then said this.
"From what I have heard up until now, the main root of your problem seems to be the thoughts you immerse your mind in before going to sleep and due to you making unnecessary assumptions, you have put immense psychological stress on your mind, making you think and assume all sort of things and your friend suggesting Metempsychosis elevated those thoughts."
After hearing her say this made me feel less tense but the things I was about to tell her would make even her go in disbelief.
I went silent for a while, thinking what would happen if I continued telling her, would it help me in any way, I would have to recall the past memories of the last two weeks, the mere thoughts of remembering them scare me.
With me going silent the room got filled with silence, my expression which was already screaming a dead man, changed into something even more horrific, as I recalled my memories of the incident my expression and actions got worse and worse.
I said with a trembling, deep, weak voice, stuttering, with hesitation
"I have only told you about the first three days of the whole week, the thi... the incidents of the remaining da... days that I am about to tell you are something even the devil himself will get scared of hearing!"
***
After I collected myself, I cleared my mind and went on with my daily life. I had another part time job which I had taken, I stood up from my seat and walked out of the class, leaving the college.
While I was walking to my next part time job, which was a short shift at a fast food restaurant, the pain which I was feeling since morning but went away when I started having a conversation with Jack started to come back, the same process was happening to me like it did yesterday.
It was not that bad but if it was going to be the same as yesterday I knew it was going to get bad very soon.
I went to a pharmacy which came along the way and grabbed some vitamins to help me through the day, in case the pain returns, which for some reason in my mind I believed that it would and it did!
As soon as I arrived in front of the restaurant, the immense pain in my leg which started the day before and the gunshot headache both came at once.
I was standing outside the front door when the pain returned, it was started from the leg, the pain I deemed as a mere cramp came to me as of my whole leg had broken into rice grains, I immediately grabbed my leg, I was so close to screaming my lungs out from the pain but seeing the people around me I held back!
I was confused yet somewhere in my mind knew how, why and where is this pain coming from, my brain was hinting at one thing only, which would be the roots of these problems.
while I was thinking how to get rid of this pain, it hit me, the bullet, my head felt like it would burst at any moments, the pain was so much that I was about to pass out, my eyes were getting blurry, the surrounding was become invincible, the world was spinning for me (doesn't it for everyone).
I somehow opened the door and walked to the back. The way I walked was as if I had been drinking since last night. I grabbed a water bottle from the employee fridge and immediately took the vitamins I had bought, dropping some in the process.
Few moments later the pain had gone down drastically, it was still there but, in an amount, I could bear. The manager came through the door and told me to hurry up and take my shift, it was a busy day.
Manager
"Hey, Ainmosni, could you hurry up, there are customers, we need any help we get, this is a business I am running not a charity come on and work!"
He left after saying this to make me grab haste.
My already exhausted voice, as if I had done hundreds of shifts already,
"It seems there are a lot of customer, considering his tone of voice, he sure does get anxious real fast"
I stood up fairly slowly and finally started my shift.
Amidst this whole scenario, my mind was finally fully realizing that something is not right, there is something which should not be happening but is, in the way that I am spending my nights should not be spend, there is something that is making my life change and in two days this has happened, I don't know what will happen if I don't control it.
***
Jack in the college library, going down aisle after aisle in the phycological section, trying to find a certain book,
"Ah, where is it? I remember one of my friends talking about a book related to dreams or nightmares."
After a while I found it, "oh, finally! here it is, The Bridge Between Dreams And Reality."
I sat down at one of the back seats in the sitting area of the library, so nobody would see me and make fun of me or think that I am actually studying, this will ruin my reputation.
I opened the book and started to read," Alright let's see what this says."
'If you are reading this book then it may be that you are experiencing events, incidents or something that is disturbing you, it might me that you
have really vivid dreams, or you get immersive thoughts, or it could be that your imagination is so powerful that you cannot distinguish it with reality or it could be completely different.'
"Well, I think this book might be it, it said all the things in the first paragraph, this is exactly what is happening to him, let's read further."
'If it is that your thoughts are immersive or your imagination is good, the solution is to make yourself drown in reality, meaning that you should do more work, you should think less, hang out more, spend time with others, avoid spending time alone, dive deep into the real world.'
"Haha, see I knew that it wasn't something that serious, this all links up with him perfectly, he should just spend more time outside, he should be flexible that's it, ah that guy, worrying for no reason and making me concerned also, I had to read so much thanks to him."
I closed the book after reading up to this point, how I wish I had read more.
'but if it's the other thing that I fear, then fear you must also, the thoughts become so real that it seems like they are dreams, the dreams becomes so vivid breaking through its own definition, the situations feels so real the actions are transferred to you, coincidence starts to happen, adding fuel to already lit fire, there will be moments of reliefs but it comes piercing through like how light comes when the sun rises, they are no mere thoughts, they starts as them but end with real terror.'
***
The pain had gone down drastically, quite some time had passed since I started my shift, I was in charge of the register today.
The swarm of customers had also gone down, I was standing in front of the register, thinking what to do now. I knew that everything that I am experiencing is related to the thoughts that I let my mind wander off to at night, even if I knew this I was not ready to accept it.
I mean how is this possible, the events I experienced are somehow happening in real life or I am experiencing real life events, there has to be something else.
Then suddenly I went into a daze, a deep one, it felt like I was physically transferred into my mind, and I started having vision, blurry vision, I would see faint images of something which seemed like my memories, I knew after seeing those vision that I already had those conversation or have already done those actions.
All of the visions had something in common, they were all related to the things I am experiencing, the moment when I first got to know about making yourself daydream at night when I hung out with Jack and his friends, the first night when I was driving a car, everything that had something to do with my Thoughts before sleep, I had vision related to it.
But there was one thing that was bizarre. In all the sudden visions I had, the memories that were being played out to me, there was a faint voice of someone laughing, a creepy voice, a laugh as if someone was enjoying my situation, mocking me.
In each and every thing I saw there was that disturbing laugh, which was pissing me off immensely and making my anger build up because the laugh was quite familiar.
A faint, distinct voice,
"hey, excuse me, can you hear me, heyy!"
I clenched my fist in anger and unconsciously abrupt this sentence, while that laugh was playing out,
"This is Pissing me off."
Then the distinct and faint voice turned into a loud angry voice,
"EXCUSE YOU!"
"Ah, what? what happened?" I forgot where I was standing, I looked around as if I had just woken up from a slumber, there was a customer standing in front of me."
My mind finally grasped the situation, the sentence I had just spoken would seem as if it was pointed at her.
Rightfully angry customer,
"What do you mean by pissing you off, I am the one who has been waiting, while you don't seem to reply to me, I called you dozens of times but you!"
The loud voice of the customer made the Manager come out.
Manager,
"What is happening?"
Manager comes outside, sees the customer being angry at me and walks toward the customer.
"Mam, please calm down, tell me what happened, I am the manager, I can help you."
The angry customer looked away from me and started talking to the manager,
"Oh, you are the manager, your employee seems to be pissed off for some reason, and is not paying attention to his job whatsoever. I have been calling him restlessly, so much of my precious time is wasted but he doesn't seem to care."
The manager took a glance at me and dealt with the customer.
"I am extremely sorry for your time, the employee will be disciplined, for your loss I will give you a special never made meal from us for free."
customer calmed down,
"If that's the case then please do it, I am already late for my appointment."
Manager "certainly!"
After a while the customer got his special and left, The Manager looked at me with concern and signaled me to come to the back.
I went to the back thinking that the manager is about to give me an earful but to my surprise,
Manager.
"Is there something wrong, Ainmosni? Is there something that is concerning you? bothering you?"
The manager was showing concern for me.
Manager,
"I know all of the employees and the part timers, you work the hardest compared to the others, you are proper in your work, never have I seen you make a mistake, if there is something wrong you can tell me, or you want a day off or two ask for it."
I was surprised and happy that the manager cared for me. I replied, hiding the events that I am experiencing, making up some lie.
"No, it's just that, I have been feeling pain all over my body, seems like I overworked myself, I will take you on those days off and I am extremely sorry for my behavior, I should have been attentive at work!"
Manager,
"No problem, go ahead and take some time off and you don't need to apologize, making mistakes is in our nature, you can take the rest of the day off too."
I nodded my head, while gesturing a thank you and left after changing.
I started wandering aimlessly, pondering on what to do now, the pain still lingering on, not as intense but still there informing me of his presence.
Then I heard a voice calling me, I turned around to see that it was Jack running towards me, bearing an expression of wanting to tell me something good.
He reached in front of me, trying to catch his breath from all the running,
"Hah, hah, panting up"
"Slow down there, what happened? Why were you running? What is the hurry about?"
Jack bent down, raised his index finger, telling me to wait a minute.
After he caught his breath he stood up properly and,
"I have something important to tell you, really important!"
When I heard Jack say this, I was pulled in, he doesn't usually talk in this manner, which made me feel quite concerned, I replied feeling anxious.
"Go on then, tell me what is it?!"
As he was about to say something, a growl, from his stomach.
I looked around and saw a nearby cafe.
"Let's go over to that cafe and first eat something, then we'll talk."
Jack and I then walked over to the cafe and sat outside, while we walked to the cafe I knew that it was something related to my current situation.