The time passed and I just procrastinated without really choosing, I felt so guilty when I looked at Alehandro that even Alehandro noticed my discomfort.
It seems so wrong and makes me feel dirty to even think about actually betraying the person who swore to protect me even at the cost of their own life.
Whenever I thought about betraying him, I remembered Sayuri and my heart would tighten, I'm terrified of Sayuri but I always remember her and I remember why I'm in this situation that can only be described as fucked up.
In the end, I couldn't bring myself to betray Alehandro, my current mindset is too altruistic to the point where my cowardly and selfish self decided to give in to the guilt, in the end the guilt is corrosive and the more I accumulated it during this month, the harder it was to choose to betray Alehandro.
So I decided to stay by Alehandro's side, but telling him became difficult, so I decided to at least use this to buy more time, I'll talk to Yurian and tell him that I'll betray Alehandro but I'll say that I need at least two more weeks.
This way, Alehandro and I can have time to act, now it's night and I'm being called by Yurian to talk.
Obviously, he wants to know my answer, it must be around 9:00 pm, I don't have an exact idea because there are no small clocks to carry, only a large clock in the main area.
In any case, I'll tell Alehandro in three days, which is the time Alehandro said everything would be ready.
I'll go to Yurian's room with silent steps to avoid drawing attention, anyway it's just a quick conversation, I just need to say that I'll be on his side and try to ask for at least two weeks, which is enough time for Alehandro and I to expose the church's corruption.
The reason I haven't told Alehandro yet is because things have become very complicated, and Yurian has been keeping an eye on both me and Alehandro.
They even added two more guards, using the pretext that my safety is at risk.
The two guards are obviously just keeping an eye on me and Alehandro, so I literally haven't had any opportunities to tell Alehandro.
If I told him, it could be discovered, and at night Alehandro is usually looking for evidence, so the only time I can talk to Alehandro is during the day and in the afternoon.
However, during that time there are always people with us, which only complicates talking to him about things that others shouldn't know.
And because of my strange interactions with Alehandro due to my heavy conscience, Alehandro has started to act even more protectively.
At this point, he's obviously the Yandere, but he's not the dangerous type, so I doubt he'll kill me as long as I don't give him a reason.
And I clearly won't give him a reason.
Arriving at Yurian's room, I knock on the door.
"Hello, Miss Saint," Yurian says as he opens the door for me to enter.
"Hello..." I give a simple greeting as I enter the room.
'...Wait...something is very wrong...' I just noticed how stupid I was in something so simple.
'What guarantees that Yurian will keep his promise...besides, Yurian's focus is on Alehandro...what guarantees that there are no more tricks behind it?' I decide to try something to ensure my safety.
"Ow ow ow" I fall to my knees on the floor, pretending to be in pain in my hand.
"Is there a problem, Miss Saint?" Yurian asks with doubt as he approaches.
"A-A spider bit me...I-I think it's poisonous," I say while starting to "cry," I show him the "bite" mark, and he looks surprised.
"...Tsk, stay here, I'll go get some medicine, it must be a common spider, but it's better to be safe..." He leaves the room and goes to get something.
What I did was simple, while falling to the ground to pretend to cry, I used my rosary to make a very small wound that can really be mistaken for an insect bite.
It's a small reddish spot, but without any blood.
'Easy' I get up and start to search the place a little more without moving things out of place.
Soon I go to the door and open it slightly.
'Guards...they weren't there before...this bastard is trying to trick me...how could I be so stupid to trust that he would keep his part of the deal?' Probably he plans to accuse me of treason.
I just realized that it's easy to get rid of Alehandro, just get rid of the saint, if the saint is accused of treason, the templar who protects her will also automatically be guilty.
'THIS FUCKER WANTED TO SCREW ME OVER' I can't fall for such a cheap trick.
"Why was I so blind...it's all the fault of this altruistic and optimistic body that blindly trusted the word of that filthy one" I murmur, blaming my body, this new mindset almost screwed me over.
I decide to jump out the window, it's not high since we're on the first floor, I'm not going to stay here to be incriminated.
'I need to tell Alehandro that everything went wrong...I'm glad I didn't betray him' if I had betrayed him, I wouldn't have noticed that something is wrong with all this.
I jump out the window and start running, trying to make as little noise as possible.
'I don't know where Alehandro is...' I need to quickly find him, he needs to know that everything went wrong and that something bad might happen.
I'm not a saint with powers, so they can kill me without any problems since I only serve to influence the people.
'What a shitty world, why do I have so much bad luck' I thought it would be easier here since Alehandro is unlikely to kill me, but now I'm involved in a conspiracy.
'Is this a side effect of being in another world?' I should have noticed Yurian's clear malice, so why was I deceived so easily? In the world where I was a man, I was quite intelligent and intuitive, so why did it take me so long to realize the flaws in this proposal.
'Wait, is this not the same paranoia from the previous world?' When I was in the room, I was hit by a paranoia that I was in danger, but in this world, I'm not paranoid.
And my normal self isn't paranoid either.
'Did I carry part of the paranoia from the previous world?...wait, can I carry experiences with me without any consequences?...I don't know if that's good or bad...but for now it saved me, so I'll believe it's good'
I run looking for Alehandro while avoiding the patrolling guards.
'Where could he be?' I have no idea, but I know he sleeps very little, so he's still active doing something.
While looking for Alehandro, I think about these experiences I carry with me.
'Theoretically...if I learn to fight, learn magic, and learn various types of things, can I keep all of that with me to use in other worlds?' I imagine that if I learn magic, I can't use it in a world without magic.
However, the experience of it exists, which means I might be able to learn something from one world and use it to my advantage in another world.
'That's true...what's stopping me from using knowledge from other worlds in the world I'm in?...' Nothing is stopping me from doing that, maybe if I accumulate diverse experiences, there will come a point where the Yandere won't be a threat to me.
'Please let it be like this' I think mentally, hoping it's true, if it is, I'll have a better chance of surviving regardless of the world, and the best part is that some bodies already have the experience, so I don't even need to learn, I'll have it from the beginning.
'But...what if Sayuri really didn't notice this obvious flaw...and if...I can only carry memories and feelings, but can't use their experiences...I-I won't be negative...' I decide to stop thinking about it.
It's better to believe I can use everything without limitations.
"Alehandro? ALEHANDRO!!!" I see Alehandro sneaking out of one of the important rooms in the church.
"Miss Shizune? Why are you out of your room?" He asks, confused, as he comes towards me while I'm running to him.
"IT ALL WENT WRONG, THEY FOUND US OUT" I yell as I approach him, for a moment he has a surprised look that quickly turns serious.
He runs up to me and grabs me by the waist, lifting me up as he runs.
'Why am I being carried like a sack of potatoes?' I wonder as he moves super fast.
"Stop there!" Some guards appear from the corner.
"THERE THEY ARE, CATCH THEM, THEY'RE THE TRAITOR AND THE WITCH WHO TRICKED THE CHURCH" The guard yells as the others prepare.
'Witch? WITCH?' They're lying about me now, Alehandro, undaunted, continues running while drawing his sword.
It's a bit difficult to see because of the position I'm in, but even so, it's notable how much blood and bodies are left behind, Alehandro killed them quickly without a shred of mercy, to the point that it scares me.
'Why am I always surrounded by danger and death...' I wonder with fear, I'm so unlucky.
Alehandro continues running through the church, heading for the exit.
'Wait...being killed in each world doesn't necessarily have to be the Yandere...and the goddess said I need to help Alehandro...my curse ensures that I'll always die' I start to think.
'The way the goddess spoke, nothing can defeat Sayuri...so...what if my destiny is to be killed so that Alehandro can use that as fuel to cleanse the corruption of the church?' I find myself thinking.
'And if...since Alehandro is a Yandere, when my death occurs, he decides to destroy the church's corruption because of what they did?...a-am I doomed then? Never had a chance to live in this world?' I think desperately, I know this curse will make me die.
And if in each world the curse adapts to the world just like I do? It means that events involving the world are significantly influential on my death and life.
'How cruel...why is fate so cruel to me' I may have made mistakes, but there are many who have made more mistakes than me, so why am I the only one who has to go through this hopeless hell.
"Alehandro, stop" I tell Alehandro to stop running, he stops momentarily.
"Is there a problem, Miss Shizune?" He asks in a hurry.
"Put me down" I give a cold order, it doesn't make sense to resist when my destiny in this world is doomed, I hate having to die, but I want to believe that in the next world it will be better.
"Alehandro, flee alone, I'm only slowing you down" This is a fact, Alehandro is obviously limiting himself so that I don't have any problems while he runs.
"What? Never, Miss Shizune, you're coming with me" He speaks with total surprise, then with conviction.
"I know how to cleanse the corruption of the church, but I need to be here alone, if you're here, you'll interfere with everything...take this" I hand him my rosary.
"B-But, Miss..."
"FLEE NOW...it's an order" I yell at him, we're just wasting time.
"...Promise me you'll stay alive...promise me you really know what you're doing and that you won't get hurt" He says with a certain harshness.
"...I promise I'll stay alive, I'm a saint, I always keep my promises...fulfill what you promised me in the future, ok?" I say with a gentle smile.
He promised to protect me and cleanse the corruption of the church.
"...Okay" He bites his lips until blood comes out.
"Now go...quickly...we'll meet at the plaza in 15 days" I tell him as he runs off.
'He really believes in me...' He has a lot of confidence in me, I know he's skilled, so even if he really comes to the plaza, they'll have a hard time finding him.
"Haaa...I'm going to die again...I-I hope it doesn't hurt" I sigh while muttering, almost crying.
Soon, guards surround me.
"Raise your hands, witch" I obey the guards who soon come to shackle me.
'I guess this is goodbye...I really wanted to live...'
"Goodbye, Alehandro..." I murmur my final farewell to the person who did everything for my safety.