Goldie's hand was on my groin.
It was a vague gesture, not strong enough to be a squeeze, and not straight enough to be an outstretched hand. She ran her fingers over my groin.
"Ugh, ugh."
"Hmph...!"
I tried to stop myself from making a noise, but I couldn't.
Each time, Goldie pulled back, but her hand didn't stop at the sound of a sip.
My mouth felt dry.
I could hear the sound of her swallowing constantly under her chin, as if she were doing the same.
"How did that happen?
There are probably more than one reason.
With an older sister and a younger brother, a brother and a sister living under the same roof, there must have been a decisive trigger.
"So, does Goldie think she's adopted or... me?
Otherwise, she wouldn't do this to her own sister.
The rest is to do with family reasons, going with the flow, following the humour, her curiosity about men's bodies... her own curiosity.
"Her fingers go deeper and deeper. As if she wanted to touch him.
At first, she touched only the palm of her hand, tickling it as if it would never leave.
Soon, her hand was wrapped around his bulging groin and she was rubbing her wriggling fingers against it.
If I push a little harder, it will take shape... Is that too much?
A clear columnar shape, not a vaguely swollen one, almost fell into her hand.
Geumbi stepped back, rubbing his hands together.
"It's the earth."
"Mmm, yes."
"Is it... good? Is that right?"
"Oh, yes. Very... good. Go on."
I was concentrating on my sister's touch when she spoke softly to me.
I felt embarrassed about doing it in bed, so I kept my eyes averted the whole time.
When she spoke, it felt less embarrassing.
"I hope you like it, Earth, but let me know if it hurts."
"I'm not ill, I'm just very happy... it's a bit dangerous."
"Like, that much?"
"Because I've never had someone touch me like this through my clothes before."
Even in a normal relationship, that wouldn't happen.
You would prefer to take your clothes off when you take them off, and who has the patience for a man or woman who has climbed into bed with you to keep rubbing your trousers up there?
So this is something that only happens in a special relationship like ours.
We were like brother and sister, and there was a line that wasn't supposed to be crossed, so it was a twist of fate that was barely fulfilled.
Now that I've sorted it out, it's a big deal, but let's not talk about it. It's embarrassing.
I felt like I couldn't say what I was thinking because it was too strange to speak.
When I finally plucked up the courage to look at her, I realised that she was also looking up, and our eyes met.
"Ah."
"Ugh, huh...!"
We were both too embarrassed to say each other's names.
She took a deep breath and hid her flushed face, tucking her head into the curve of her chest. Her skin felt warm under my touch.
"Why do you avoid his face?"
"Well, but... it's embarrassing, ah."
I hardly said anything, because if I walked away, there would be silence again.
She couldn't look up, but she didn't avoid answering.We stretched out on the bed and spoke in stammering tones.
"You caused this yourself. Shame on you."
"Zee, Terra, you're doing something dangerous because you're... insecure."
"I'm not. I haven't done anything yet."
"Ah, I said 'yet', if you let it go, Crystal... you'd be in danger."
"I shouldn't have said that. I told you I don't think that way about family."
"But what about me?"
In the middle of our conversation, Geum-bi raised her head again.
At that moment, I realised what my real mistake was and quickly corrected what might have sounded strange.
"No, I didn't mean you're not family."
"Are you saying you're different from Earth?"
"No, I'm not saying that. I mean...
"If you're not both... what does that mean?"
I told him I wasn't trying to imply that he wasn't family, but he kept asking questions.
I stopped it, and it hurt me to find out what she really meant.
'It's worse than the other option. If I'm going to be questioned, it doesn't matter what I say... what the hell.
She chose the less suspicious option.
"It's because I'm a pervert, like you said."
"Uh, what, Ethel?"
"That's why you feel awkward around her, even though she's your mate.That's it, end of story.OK?"
"No, I understand. You can feel that way... even about your own sister."
"End of story? Why do you keep bringing it up, sister?"
"Sorry, but it's a bit embarrassing, so I thought I'd tell you..."
I know.
After spitting it out, I thought: what a load of perverted nonsense.
"You're turning into a pervert to avoid my sister's suspicions... I want to die. Do you have somewhere to jump?
I'm on the second floor, so I'll open the window and jump out.
Hmm, is it too low for that? I'll have to climb up to the roof later.
"Ew, ew. Sister?"
"Oh, sorry. I panicked... I'm sorry."
Just as I was about to jump, I felt something press down hard on my bottom.
Geum Bi's hand had clenched tightly without her realising, and she quickly loosened her grip.
But... hmmm.
Honestly, I didn't feel bad.
"Hey, sis."
"Ugh, why, why, is it the Earth...?"
"No, we can't stay like this, you have to go to work in the morning."
"I know, but... you don't think yours is sinking?"
"So you think you can squeeze me as hard as you did before?"
"Squeeze?
"I think if I do that, it'll disappear quickly... No, not if I squeeze, sorry, I've gone too far."
My desire to leave, combined with the pleasant sensations I'd just experienced, caused me to say something stupid.
Quickly regaining my composure, I corrected myself with a wave of my hand.
"It's the Earth."
"Ew, I'm sorry. No, I just got carried away for a moment..."
"If I do that, do you really think he'll leave?"
"Huh?"
"No, but... Terra, you're right, we can't go on like this forever, and if I go to work... I'll have to end it."
As she said this, Geum Bi looked at the crotch in her hand.
At the same time, she swallowed hard, her throat rising and falling, and I could clearly see what she was thinking of ending.
"Can I ask something?"
"Because it's just for today."
Seeing the worry in my face, she stopped worrying and said, "Just today."
But that meant I would run as far as I could today.
Soon afterwards, her hand grabbed my hip and she began to press... slowly and firmly.
"Ouch, ouch."
"If it hurts, you must tell me immediately."
"I'm fine now, actually, it's great."
"Ah, I see... that's about right."
She mumbled as if remembering the count and the speed.
I twisted my waist, unable to resist the comment and the touch.
"Eww, big sister, it's Geumbi's big sister!"
"Ha?!
With Geumbi on top of me, my body couldn't move much.
But the pillar between my legs... shook like an earthquake, soaking my pants and trousers.
"Hmph, ha, ha... ha."
"Ah, off, you've finished, that's it... that's it."
Geumbi didn't take his hand out of his trousers for a while after he'd finished ejaculating.
Luckily, the liquid didn't come out of his thin trousers, but I could feel the warm heat from his trembling hands.
I really fell into Geumbi's hands."
I heard a few words, vaguely.
She felt the same, and her eyes gradually regained their colour.
We turned our faces in opposite directions again and spluttered a few words.
"Ah, it's the Earth... Sue, thank you, thank you, thank you for following me."
"No, the sister. That must have been embarrassing, so thank you for your help."
"Ah, no, I'm pretty... no, not really."
"OK. Can I go to... and get ready now?"
"Oh, of course...! Uh, go ahead and wash up, Terra."
We shared some awkward emotions, which I can only describe in words.
I used the shower as an excuse to get away, and she quickly got up to go to the toilet.
That seemed to be the end of our evening, until...
"Ah, but you know what, is it Earth?"
"Yes. Why?"
"So, after you've cleaned up, shall we go to your room?"
"Um, yeah, I guess so. Why?"
"No, I just... I don't want you to go?"
"Why?"
I would have finished everything: the things I needed to say, the accusations I needed to make, the fortuitous scenarios.
She grabbed me, and I couldn't pull away fast enough.
Maybe I didn't have the courage to run in the first place.
"It's just that... I don't want you to go today... I'm with my sister."
"Where am I supposed to sleep?"
"My room, there's a big bed. I'm feeling a bit lonely today."
With that, she moved her hair to the side and looked the other way.
But her eyes kept looking over there, and I pursed my lips as I slowly turned the doorknob.
Finally, the locked door opened.
Just as I was about to go downstairs to have a shower.
"I'll be right back. If you're tired, go to bed first."
"Oh, I'm not going to sleep, I'll wait for you!"
"You can go to bed first... then."
Taang.
I closed the door gently so that it wouldn't make too much noise at night.
After showering, changing and checking on Soo-jung, I went back up the stairs to the second floor.
I thought, maybe she's already asleep, and sneaked quietly back to my room.
"Oh, wow, you're back, and the pillow... is everything going to be okay?"
Goldie greeted me, leaning against the wall of her bed, hugging the pillow.
It was dark and I didn't even switch on the light, so I looked at her with wide eyes, waiting for me.
"I'm just going to do this for today."
"Yes, of course. It's just for today, yes."
I repeated what Geumbi had said.
She repeated the words to herself and lay down on the bed, looking relieved and happy.
But she wondered why I'd asked to sleep with her.
I decided to assume it was just in case, since Geumbi was the older sister who looked after Soo-jung so much... just in case.
By the way, why did Soo-jung drink all the alcohol he wasn't drinking? Hmph...'
Later, I thought about Soo-jung staying alone in her room.
As I saw her fast asleep, I put aside my worries about the late hour and kept my eyes open.
Unlike Soo-jung and Geumbi, I didn't look at each other.
But the strong beating of our hearts made the room feel warm all night.