Kieran starts quietly, "Whenever he's around, there's this pull_ like gravity shifts just to keep him close.
I don't know why, but I always feel the need to protect him, even when he doesn't ask for it, even when he doesn't want it.
I catch myself searching for him in a room before I even realize what I'm doing. And when he's gone, it's like something is missing, like I've left a wound open and it won't stop bleeding.
I think about him all the time. Even when I don't want to, even when I know I shouldn't.
I hurt him, and it kills me that I did, but I don't know how to fix it. I don't know how to undo the damage.
And yet, despite everything, I slept with him again_ without the manipulation of the bond.
I wanted to.
I needed to.
I wanted to hold him, to feel him in my arms like he belonged there. And yet after I did, I heartlessly walked away, pretending like nothing happened!
