3 of Swords
"Wake up Sleeping Beauty" Drew said while gently kissing me on the forehead. "I'm up I'm up!" I never actually went back to sleep. I just laid there thinking about the cards. Everything was going so good between us. "It's time to go. I have to head home and get ready for a conference." "Conference?" "Yes echo." I roll my eyes. "Where?" "It's In Arizona. I'll be gone for 4 days." "4 days?" "You know your mom really should have named you echo...I'm sorry Zoe." "I don't want to go but all the new residents have to."
"That's means Chelle is going too?" I know I said it in my head but did I say it out loud also? "Zoe please don't like that." Andrew fires back. "Michelle is going too but she is a cardio resident. We may still see each other off and on at the conference though." The tension between us carried over to the car ride home. Most of thé car ride back was in silence, commenting here or there on the scenery just small talk. "Zoe, are you upset because I'm leaving or are you upset because I'll be with Michelle for 4 days?' "Both" I say curtly." Both." "Zoe we are both single adults and can do whatever we want." He goes on to say more but I don't hear him. I must have had another Zoe zone out because right then I heard Andrew scream my name "Zoe! I've never seen you act like this! Maybe the time apart will do us some good." By this time we were pulling around the corner to pull into my driveway. I didn't even let the car come to a complete stop before I opened the door. I grabbed my bags and shot out of the car. "Maybe so." I say. I tried to slam his car door but my hands were full so I ended up dropping all my stuff. Andrew just stared at me bewildered. I gathered my stuff up and stomped off toward my house. I made it inside my garage door without crying. I just sat on the stairs. I keep replaying the 3 words over and over In my head... Both. Single. Adults. They pierced my ears like..three daggers piercing through a heart! I hate these cards! I wanted to tear them up and burn them! But I remembered what Ms.Bea Said. I had to finish. I literally screamed out loud and buried my face in my hands. I tried to get up but I couldn't. My chest felt heavy, I must be having an anxiety attack. I tried to settle myself down enough to get in the house once inside all I could do was make it to the couch. I laid there and cried myself to sleep.