Nine Of Swords
I have never experienced anything like this in my entire life! It's been two days since I have seen or talked to Andrew and I feel physically ill. I took a sick day from work because I can't seem to get myself together. I can't sleep, I don't want to eat. I just feel really empty or longing. I can't explain it. At least I have Villain to keep me company. My purse is still on the couch where I left it. I grabbed the box and picked the card for today. There is a lady with her face in her hands sitting up in bed and she had swords going through her. It looks very disturbing. I can definitely relate. Just then there was a knock at the door and then I hear someone come in. Villain yelps and jumps off the couch and barrels toward the front door. It's Meeks to the rescue. I just wanted to be alone or Andrew. I'm not even sure but on second thought I am glad she came. I need a second opinion.
Hey girl I got canceled for the rest of my shift tonight so I thought we could... She walks in my den and her jaw drops. She just stares at me in silence.
"Oh hell naw! Zoe!"
Just then she dramatically drops to her knees "Lord if I get some dick that makes me look like this I don't want it." "Take it away Lord!" Then she hops up "Wait! on second thought. let me think about this"...I mustered up a laugh.
"Meeks!" I said shaking my head. "Zoe what is going on!" "Last we texted you were on a romantic get away with the Good dDr." "Then I don't hear from you for two days?" "Now I find you looking like Janet Jackson when she was ziggity boo crazy and wet in that Tyler Perry movie." "What happened?" I start to cry. Through my tears and hyperventilating I explain everything to Meka, what I found out about the cards, The night at the cabin, How Andrew is my twin....everything.
Meka and I sit in silence. I assume she was taking in everything I said. Anybody that knows anything about silence knows it can be uncomfortable when you just said something crazy. I feel like I just unleashed a bunch of crazy. Meka... before I can say anything she turns and gives me the biggest hug. "Zoe I feel like you needed that." "Secondly, I believe you. I'm the one that told you about Ms. Bea so clearly I'm a believer in other worldly things. A twin flame?" "I have never heard of that?""Girl maybe he couldn't handle y'all being related." She bursts into laughter. "Meka we aren't birth twins" I laugh too. "So... explain." I go into detail about twins and how it works. "Well see some believe that everyone is connected to someone because we all were created together. Twin flames are two people that share the same soul." "Think of Adam and Eve." "Eve was created from the rib of Adam. So I believe in this sense we all were created in this manner, maybe not physically but spiritually". "There is someone for everyone. Your true mate is out there and according to Ms. B we don't meet them until the time is right."
"Once you come in contact with your twin the feelings are unexplainable. It doesn't have anything to do with sex. You just feel a complete oneness." "Wow. So this explains why people feel the way they do around you guys." "So... Do you think Andrew is going through this too?" "I don't know Meeks". "One I didn't tell him and two talking with Ms. Bea, she told me one twin is the runner and one twin is the chaser." "Until the one stops running and identifies with their feelings you can truly be one." "So did she give you a reading?" "How does it turn out?"
"Girl we have bigger fish to fry! I give her the skinny on these stupid cards."
"I only have a few more days left to draw my cards before my fate is chosen. At first it was kind of fun but now…"
"Now because you had a few bad deals you don't want to play anymore?" "That's life. Literally." "Some days are good some days are bad. You have a few bad days so yougive up? No you keep pushing and see what tomorrow brings." "You have a leg up because you kind of know what's coming." "Maybe that's why your creepy neighbor gave you the cards not to hurt you but teach you a lesson about life...show you you're stronger than you think." "Zoe Miller you're a strong woman and you have been through a lot. You can get through this." "Finish the game." She goes to reach for the cards and I quickly smack her hands away. I remind her of what I said earlier and tell her she can't touch them.
I pull the card from the top of the deck. It's a picture of a woman in a robe. She looks happy, almost smug. She has her hands on her stomach. I look up my chart with Meeks and it says "The empress". Meeks googles the empress and reads the description. The empress is often depicted as being pregnant...she didn't have to read anymore. I already knew what this was about. I sat back on the couch when it rains, it pours.
Not even five minutes go by and I get a phone call. It's Angela. She wants to know if we can meet to talk.
I agree to meet Angela before work tomorrow at the coffee shop by the hospital. "It's probably a good idea Zoe." "You never faced her, you never talked to her. Maybe it's time to clear the air." Sure. Why not. I thought. What else have I got to lose?