I am Ai, and I was senior in college who died after a having some drinks with the freshmen. I'm the typical kind guy every student is jealous of. But honestly, you just cant compare!
"Yeah, as if. It's so shit trying to keep up a personality." I thought to myself, lying in bed.
I kept a nice personality, and took all the dumb thoughts to my head. I'm really not as kind as you think. I may just say some kind things, but I really dont mean it.
One time, my girlfriend kept ignoring me and it was so damn annoying.. Why would she ignore me? Turns out, she mustve fallen for my brother as even his grades to his looks are perfect. So annoying.. annoying.. maybe I should just kill her off? Her exposed small neck makes it even harder to resist the want to choke her.
"Do you like my girlfriend?" I asked my brother at the dinner table.
"You have a girlfriend?"
..makes my blood boil. This thing hangs out with my girlfriend but she never mentioned that we're dating? Why does it even hang out with her?
The kitchen knife looked really beautiful at this point. With the shine it has.. I wonder how pretty it would look if it was covered in my brother's blood. But.. I kept quiet.
"Yes." I said, acting in a calm demeanor, supressing my emotions.
"Are you sure you arent talking about imaginary?" he chuckled, laughing.
At this point, I was really close to grabbing the knife and stabbing him multiple times.
"Yes, its the girl you've been flirting with this past week." I said, acting to have said something kind.
My parents, upon hearing this, looked at my brother. "Hao! Is that true?"
I snicked in my head while I watched him.
"So what?! She never told me that she was dating anyone! It's not my fault!"
My eyes darkened as I kept putting on a calm demeanor, cursing him out and making up ways I could kill him.
"You should be like your little brother, look at him! He's being quiet since he knows that youll only make a fuss if he talks back!" My Mother yelled.
The only reason I'm not talking back is because I enjoy the sight of him getting angry at me.
Soon after, my brother ended up getting expelled from College. Hm, I do wonder how that happened. But I never heard from him ever again.
One day in my college senior year, some Freshmen invited me to go drink, I graciously accepted.
..only to find out that it would be my last day on earth!
After drinking a few cups, I started to feel a little tipsy, so I put my cup down and started to get ready and leave.
"Done already? Cmon, Ai! Lets party until we cant walk!!" A random freshman insisted. Did I even know him? How did he know my name?
Next thing I knew, I was sitting back down, chugging on a bottle of beer.
It didnt take long before I was wasted.
I honestly don't even know what happened next. When I woke up, I was sitting on a cloud. I panicked for a few seconds before I realized I was floating.
"Good, my child, you're awake." A random voice said.
What the fuck?! What the hell is that?!
Before I could say anything, the fog in front of my cleared, revealing a golden gate.
Woah.. how much money could I get out of that if I stole it and sold it? I wondered.
"My Child, may you pass through these gates for we to decide your fate."
...what is that formal speech? Its disgusting. It's like those manhua protagonists who give off advice, always sounding so serious and formal I almost burst out laughing.
Despite me almost laughing, I went and passed through the gates, finding a man who looked.. Odd.
Okay that's definitely the Jesus I heard in stories. What the hell is he doing here? Wait isnt Jesus god's son? Hell, whatever, I dont pay attention to god shit.
"Hello, Child. Do not fear, you are safe here."
I definitely am fearing. I thought this guy was fake. Where's the Satan?
"Good, you seem calm. I just wanted to praise you for your efforts in this life, and I hope you will have a very happy afterlife. May peace be with you, and up to heaven you go!"
Calm?! Im not calm at all! Speaking of which, I just realized that despite all the evil things I thought of, I never carried them on and just kept being nice! Is this serious?! I wouldve rather just became a Demon so I could live freely and act however I wanted!!
Can god see thoughts? If so, why am I being allowed into heaven?! Im really not meant for heaven!