It's been three days since I came back from shopping.
… I think it would be better not to buy a coat.
When I got home and looked for it, there were hardly any coats that seemed to match the clothes I had just bought.
I've said this many times, but my fashion sense is next to zero. I just buy clothes that I find on the Internet...
And as a result, I realized that the thing I need to buy now is a women's Burberry coat.
If I were to buy anything else, I'd probably have to buy new pants and some weirdly long boots.
… how can you buy it when it's expensive?
I think I'd rather just shiver and stay in jeans and a T-shirt.
I don't have money to buy that.
After buying clothes, I wear bras and women's underwear faithfully in my room.
Laundry is done by hand in the room. Drying is done quickly with a dryer.
The dorm I live in has a shared washing machine. Just in case I get caught… It's hard to wash it in the dorm and bring it out… .
You have no choice but to wash it by hand.
And after spending some time wearing bras, I was able to come up with one answer.
… It's good to have a moderate chest.
At this size, it's heavy whether I wear a bra or not…!
It's good that it shakes a little less, but… .
These past few days, when my back hurts during the day, I turn into a woman, and when time passes and it gets dark and my chest gets too heavy, I turn back into a man and loaf around in my room.
I don't know if that's why, but I feel like I'm sleeping better than usual.
When I really couldn't sleep, I figured out a way to force myself to sleep by turning into a woman and then turning back into a man.
This was a very useful method for me, as I had trouble sleeping on time.
"What are you doing, Seonghyun?"
"Huh? Are you Taesu?"
As I was waiting for my meal at the cafeteria on campus, I saw Seonghyeon sitting in front of me and approached him.
Seonghyeon, who is in the same grade as me, is in charge of the department even though he is a second year student.
Recently, it seems like the freshmen have been a bit busy with the MT issue, making sure to pay their tuition on time.
By the way, I sympathize.
"What do you want to eat?"
"Oh, I ordered it."
"omg."
"Do you want to eat together?"
"Hey, it's okay. Why are you stealing something I ordered to eat by yourself? No matter what I do, it's not worth stealing a beggar's lunchbox.
"
… this guy and I know each other's financial situation very well.
This is because they often talk about money with each other since they each lent about 500,000 won to a common person.
By the way, I have been urging him to repay the money he lent me for a year now, but I have not even gotten back 20% of it.
"No, it hasn't been that long since you ordered, so call now and order another one."
"Really? Then I... I... um... what should I eat?"
"Just eat anything."
"Then kimchi stew."
When I have nothing else to eat, I eat kimchi stew.
There are quite a few delivery restaurants targeting Koreans around here, so ordering Korean food isn't difficult.
I called right away, added my order, and chatted with Seonghyeon.
"What are you doing these days?"
"What are you doing? You know I failed at registering for classes. Just play."
"But what are we going to do with our homework? Why, Hye-rim and Yeong-ah are here."
"Ah…don't say that."
Hye-rim and Yeong-ah are girls in the same grade as me who have been parasites several times during group projects.
Unfortunately, this time, a group project was assigned to a class that international students had to take, and the four of us ended up in the same group.
"Well, we should just do what we have to do and leave."
Seonghyeon has a habit of stuttering his words sometimes, as if his tongue gets tangled.
… Hmm, I've improved a lot lately and I don't stutter that much when I talk to myself, but strangely, I keep stuttering when I talk to other people.
He said that he gets nervous when he talks, but he says that he feels better because we talk to each other often.
While we were passing the time chatting about this and that, the cell phone rang.
"Oh, here it comes."
As I was about to get up from my seat to go get the food that was delivered, Seonghyeon also got up from his seat.
"I need to go to the bathroom for a sec."
"Give me the money later."
"okay."
I received the food by myself and paid for it.
But since I had left my bag on the desk, the seat I was sitting in was still there… but the chairs were gone.
Looking right next to me, I saw a group of kids who were acting just like high school bullies and whom I secretly called 'Nallaripa' (bullies) taking chairs and placing their bags on them.
"…."
I walked up next to him to take the chair and spoke to him.
"Let me take that chair."
Since no one seemed to care about me, I grabbed my bag, placed it on another chair, and lifted the chair.
"hey."
Then suddenly someone called me.
"What are you doing? Why are you taking the chair?"
"…yes?"
He was a third-year senior and one of the people I hated the most in school.
…a guy who isn't even worth calling senior.
"Hey, why are you taking it?"
"…I'm taking it to sit down."
"Oh, who asked that? Ha! Right... why are you taking someone else's chair?"
"Whose chair was that?"
"Oh, then does an animal sit on the chair instead of a person?"
The other guys sitting around him all laughed at what he said.
… it's annoying.
"I didn't notice because no one was sitting there. And this looks like the chair I was sitting in."
"Oh really? Then take it."
I brought a chair to that place and went over to get another chair for Seonghyeon to sit on.
"Hey, but what did you say to your senior?"
"…yes?"
… it's annoying.
On the outside, he pretended to be naive, but inside, he was filled with murderous intent.
This shit again… He's trying to show off again. What on earth is the point of that… If he ends up feeling bad, he'll just say it was a joke and end it.
Do you think he wants to elevate himself by giving the impression to the people around him that he is a strong person, that he is cool, that guy is a troublemaker?
"Hey, it's okay, it's okay. Just go and enjoy your meal."
… I want to kill you.
I've looked into it myself, so I know what his problems are and what his weaknesses are. I also know who he's weak against...
He is a typical character who whines to those who are stronger than him and pretends to be strong to those who seem weaker than him. I know this because I have heard many times about him whining to his older brother who is rich and powerful.
I think I'm a little twisted, but I tend to not confront or get angry at people who treat me badly, and instead, I try to endure them as much as possible and gather information behind their backs.
It may look annoying, but I think it's better than bumping into things for no reason and getting annoyed.
I don't want to bump into something for no reason and get hurt.
The name of this guy I found out is Kwon Seong-min, he's one year older than me, and his girlfriend is Hye-rim, who's in the same grade as me. It's a case of two people who are good at hanging out together. He's currently playing around all day and playing around, and he's on the verge of getting a warning from school because he's lacking grades. But he's just playing around all day.
He keeps harassing his juniors, and even though he is a third-year student, he seems to be trying to tag along to this freshman MT… .
I cooled my heart by thinking that if by any chance he really did harm me to the point of going too far, I would find out the ID and password for the school internet and if I made up my mind, I could just cancel all my classes on the last day of course registration.
"But I've been seeing you for a while now. Why don't you say hello?"
ah…
I really want to gouge out my eyes….
Ah, I really want to gouge out your eyes and feed them to you, really… .
"…hello."
"Ah, bro, why are you so scary? Hehe…."
As I waited for a moment to say hello, the other guy sitting next to me immediately smiled and said,
Shut up, I don't like hearing you laugh.
This guy hasn't even attended 3 days of required classes this semester. Even though half the semester is already over...
He interferes with his group's work by interfering here and there during group projects, saying it was just a joke, and saying things like, "It's a joke, why are you upset?", "You're petty?", etc., but when it's time to finish the homework, he says he's busy and runs away, leaving it to his group member. This is a guy that the whole grade secretly hates.
Why on earth do we go to school?
I was angry when I took the chair away, but I cooled down and put the chair back in its original place.
"What are you doing?"
I want to smash your head with a chair… .
I resisted the urge and turned both chairs around, then grabbed my bag and food and headed to Seonghyeon's classroom.
"Hey, are you chewing?"
Yes, I chew.
I ignored him and walked to the science classroom.
I heard someone calling me from behind, but I ignored them.
… Anyway, looking at the current state of the class, he'll be expelled soon, so let's not worry about it.
Then I called Seonghyeon on my cell phone and told him to come to the classroom.
"What? Hey, what the hell are they talking about again?"
"Ah, leave it alone… I'm really pissed…."
"Hey, don't worry about it. That kid kept saying he was going to the freshman MT this time, and he hasn't even paid for the MT. He also checked your grades and they're a mess. He's just like that, so just ignore him."
… this good guy…!
I snorted while rubbing Seonghyeon's leg.
"Ahh! Seongeun-ssi! You're so worried about me! Sob, sob, I'm so touched!"
"Fuck, it's disgusting, get out."
Seonghyeon was the winner of the cross-dressing contest we held when I was in the first grade.
The legend of legends, Jin Seon-mi, of our department, who was extremely popular with both seniors and freshmen… .
I felt a little better after eating with Seonghyeon and gossiping with him.
...….
"Hey, aren't you going to say hello again?"
"…hello."
Why on earth are you doing this to me?
Why are you asking me to say hello when we're not even close? I just don't understand…
As usual, after class, I was passing the cafeteria and trying to leave the school when that bastard Kwon Seong-min called me again.
"Hey, are you squeezed?
"…."
I don't even want to deal with it.
Normally, I would laugh and say that I wasn't upset, but that only happens once or twice... If you do this over and over again, you won't even want to deal with it.
I ignored it and tried to leave the school.
"Ah, fuck, are you kidding me? Hey you little shit. Are you ignoring what your senior is saying?"
Yes, yes, I chew.
Do whatever you want, whatever you want.
"Do you look great because the fucking bastards are shy ...."
"Oh, bro, why are you like that… Bear with it, that's just how he is."
"Oh my god…."
"Brother, I'll buy you a club today. Hold on."
"Oh shit, you were the one who was going to shoot that originally hehehe… Hey, what time did you say you were going to go?"
"It's 10 o'clock."
Those guys really won't get expelled... .
With that thought in mind, I returned to my dorm room.
On the way back, I didn't forget to call my brother, who was avoiding me like that, and tell him about it.
Well, if he guesses that I'm doing this because I'm giving him this information one by one, then I can understand his behavior. It's like he's suffering because of me.
If I contact this guy and give him a bunch of curses and threats, he'll probably be quiet for a while…
.......
When I got to my room, I was lost in thought.
What can't be done about that guy Kwon Seong-min…?
What can I do if I turn into a woman?
First of all, as a woman, I am no different from anyone else. That means that no matter what you do, it won't harm me.
To put it really extremely, isn't murder not a problem?
'Well, I really don't intend to kill you… .'
That's just how I thought. I thought that no matter what I did, I wouldn't get caught.
Because I, as a woman, am like a second identity that doesn't exist anywhere.
'Was it a club or something?'
As I thought about Kwon Seong-min, I naturally remembered that he said he was going to the club today.
Come to think of it, I've never been to a club. When I was a man, I thought it was a bit strange to go alone, and I don't really like clubs, but I'm curious. What do people do when they go to a club?
Is it really like in the movies where they do drugs and stuff? It's like a place that seems to be off the law.
'… Shall we go there sometime?'
Seeing girls usually go to clubs to relieve stress, I thought it would be fun. Honestly, I hated dancing because it was embarrassing, but with my body now, I could do any kind of dance, even a dog dance, and it would be fun to watch. Really.
Your eyes will definitely be drawn to the swaying heart.
What should I say, originally, since I'm a man, I don't really feel embarrassed about that. Rather, I feel like I can do things that would be embarrassing more confidently. It's not like I'm not embarrassed at all, but who cares! No one knows that I'm the same.
'Um... club... uhm~.'
Since I've already turned into a woman, I think it would be good to enjoy it as much as I can. I'm going to relieve some stress and experience the club scene.
Eventually I decided to go out and play.
"Okay… I'll just wear a t-shirt and jeans."
There's no need to wear a top. I decided to endure the cold and go to the club. There will be a lot of people in the club, so it will definitely be warm.
The club was definitely going to be the one at the intersection in front of the station. Well, it's a club famous for foreigners. I heard rumors that most Koreans go there too... I've been there once. I went in just once from the entrance and came out. I felt like it wasn't the right place.
To be honest, I was so embarrassed to go and dance with other kids, and I was so shy that I couldn't go, so I ran away. But it's okay now.
'I hope we don't run into each other.'
I think I told you what time they said they were going to leave, but I can't quite remember.
I thought we might run into each other at the same club, but even so, we wouldn't meet at the same place at the same time.
'What should I do with TS Stone?'
As I was leaving the dorm as a woman, I was concerned about the students being checked in the lounge.
I don't want anyone to see me leaving my room, let alone the lounge.
There are a few people I know on the same floor, so if I were to get caught by chance, it would be annoying. They might ask who I am, and if I were to go home, it would be strange that I, a woman, would go into an empty room and come out.
'Should I put it in my bag?'
Even though I have a bag, I only have a backpack or laptop bag to go to and from school. I don't carry anything like a handbag.
But when I thought about it, it seemed too dangerous. What if I took the TS stone outside and lost it? At that moment, I, as a man, would completely disappear. I might not be able to return to being a man, so I was worried about taking it to a place like a club where there are many lost items.
'… I should be careful when I go out as a woman.'
When you go out, you may be a little less concerned since you think that the person you checked in with will have already checked in at the lounge when you came in, so you can pretend to be in a group while following them when several people leave.
After thinking about it, I decided to be careful when I went out, and played games on the computer until it was close to 10 o'clock.