Shan POV:
it's been 2 months since my mom died,I'm the only child from the first husband of my mother and I had this 3 siblings from her 2nd husband.My life is not so normal at all unlike any other kids,I grow up differently,Independent,and at the same time I never talk about anything to my mom,inshort I'm not open.He died at the very young age(cardiac arrest the most traitor sickness as the doctor explained to me)
of course I'm still in the shocked era of my life.after my mom burial I'm like dead,I don't think about anything,it feels like my world stops also🥺 you will never understand how painful it is.unless you got to experience this kind of pain.I didn't even eat good or sleep good,I lost my job!
evryday I keep asking God why? why? my mom!am I bad that you let me live alone! I only have 1 person beside me!it's my mother!and now what!You take her! you want me to suffer like this!(sounds so dumb ryt? but yah!I say like this I'm out of my mind 🥺I'm dead from inside🥺)
I used to talk to my bestfriend Ana evrysingle day just to atleast forgot anything .until one day I keep scrolling and scrolling in my Facebook and there's like this dating site appears on my newsfeed.I open it and see what's inside it.I was like oh it's like worldwide maybe Im gonna do passed time in this page.Evryday i enjoy reading comments Nd posts in that page. Until there's a post like I'll guess ur age base on your selfie ! so the crazy me I was like oh hahah okay let's see!!!!🤨 so without any hesitation I put my picture in the comment section!🤷
after few hours commenting my photo there.i Got so much messages saying hi..hello..where u from! I open few and of course I view their profile🤷 I don't mind them at all.i keep scrolling Nd ignore those messages.until next day I open my messenger Nd replied hello to the top person who message me.
messenger convo:
him:HI 🙂
Me:hello
Him:where you from?
Me:P**********
And you?
Him:P*******
Him:you look so pretty
are you a model?
Me:huh? hahah me? model!
Him:Yahh I saw your picture in the comments in that page.You look so attractive.
Me:oh okay..it's just normal picture.im not a model I'm just normal hahaha
Him: Can we be friends?
Me:sure! I love to have a friends from different country.sharing thoughts,knowing their cultures etc
Him:Oh nice.🙂what are you doing right now?
and that's how we end up our convo that day.O didn't reply to his chat but instead I stalked him.yes!I'm a stalker 😅 I always do to those who message me,then i was like huh.His like a model his so tall but his thin 🥴..I was thinking for a while and I said I'm gonna if ignore him.but my messenger never stop notifying me.ting ting ting ting
convo again👇
him:Hi?are you still there?
Him:did you eat?
Him:hi good morning
Him:hi what time there now?
I totally ignore him honestly 👀 because I'm not in the mood to talk all the time also🤷
until I get annoyed on him Nd I replied
convo again👇
Me:hello
Him:oh finally
Me:haha why?
Him:nothing,finally you replied to my messages.
Me:sorry I'm just busy
Him:oh sorry am I disturbing you?
Me: nope.
Him:what are you doing?
Me:I'm about to sleep
Him:oh sorry.hehe what time there now?
Me:it's almost 1am
him:oh we had 4 hours time difference
Me:okay
Him:(send photo)
Me:🥴
Him:hehe
Me:goodnight
Him:🙁 you gonna sleep now?
Me:yah of course🙂bye.gudnyt.
Him:okay talk to me tom.
I was like ihh?? why he says that haha as if I'm gonna reply ..