Chapter 10 - How do I

How do I tell the world I'm not alright?

How do I tell my lover I don't feel his light? How do I speak my truth in a room full of lies? I want to be alright.

I want to be alive.

I want to live my life.

So how do I tell the world I'm not fine?

How do I tell my lover our light faded out?

I snuffed out the flame with a simple blow.

It lost its oxygen when the ground swallowed it whole.

I dropped it in the ocean when I reached in to save someone else, that someone else then dragged me under.

Now I'm flameless.

Now I'm loveless.

Now I'm hopeless.

I speak my truth to an empty room.

And in this empty room my words do echo, they echo with great force that make me feel at peace with my suffering.

I told my truth.

I told my lover.

Now I tell the world.

Help me.

For I am sinking.

Help me.

For I am fighting an endless battle with myself.

Help me.

For I cannot help myself.