Delete Me!
By: Illumi
Part 4
The therapist sat silently for a moment, then spoke in a serious and gentle tone.
"But because of the way your family treats you, you can't raise your self-esteem, and you constantly stay in that loop of low self-esteem and hopelessness, right?"
The therapist paused for a second, maintaining eye contact with the main character.
"I understand. So basically, your family makes you feel horrible all the time, and that makes you feel like you're not good enough, and it's just a constant cycle of low self-esteem that causes you to not get a job and feel like you have nothing going for you, which makes your low self-esteem even worse, right?"
The Eden nodded silently, and the therapist continued to speak.
"So would it be fair to say that, with the way your family treats you, you can't fix your low self-esteem, and you're just stuck in this hopeless cycle of being unable to do anything because they make you feel worthless?"
The therapist studied the main character carefully, then spoke with a concerned tone.
"That's understandable. So your family makes you feel shitty, and that just makes you unable to get a job, and as a result, you feel like you can't do anything because of your low self-esteem, which only makes you feel worse, and then you start to think about suicide, correct?"
The therapist sat quietly for a minute, watching the main character's reaction carefully, and then continued.
"So because your family constantly makes you feel inadequate and horrible, you're stuck. You feel inadequate and hopeless, and that makes you feel like you don't have a future and like you're a total failure, which makes you feel like you should be dead, correct?"
The Eden nodded, the therapist taking in the main character's response.
"Right, right. So you're stuck in this cycle, and it only gets worse and worse. Your family's treatment of you makes you feel lower and lower, which only gives you more reasons to want to end it all, correct?"
The therapist maintained eye contact with the main character and continued to speak.
"Alright, and from what you can remember, the way you've been treated has been like this since you were young, correct?"
The therapist continued to look at the main character, who was sitting silently.
"Your family has been treating you this way for essentially your whole life. So it's just been an endless cycle of being told that you're not good enough, that you're garbage, and that you're worthless, correct?"
The therapist intently observes Eden''s reaction.
"Okay, so what it sounds like is that it's been a long time since anyone has treated you nicely, and it's been nothing but constant verbal abuse for as long as you can remember."
The therapist continued to study Eden, expressing his sympathy.
"No kindness or support, no one giving you any encouragement, just being made to feel useless and like nothing ever since you were little."
The therapist maintained eye contact, and Eden nodded once again.
"And that's how you've always been made to feel, right? And it's just been getting worse and worse over the years. No one has ever told you that you're good enough, that you can do it, or that they believe in you, not even once?"
The therapist looked straight into his eyes as if he could see through all his failures and doubts he had about himself and then spoke in a serious tone.
"Never been told anything positive, nothing. Only ever been told you're a good-for-nothing worthless loser, correct?"
The therapist paused for a moment, taking a breath, then continued to speak.
"And they've been getting on you so much in recent times that you can't take it anymore, and you don't see the point in living any longer. Is that right?"
The therapist nodded to his own statement, thinking and silent for a moment, understanding the situation, before speaking once again.
"Okay… So it sounds like your family's emotional abuse, for your entire life, has led to you believing you're not worthy of anything, that you're nothing but a worthless loser that can't do anything right, which has pushed you to the point of wanting to die, correct?"
The therapist looked at him intently, showing his understanding towards him through his eyes.
"So it's basically the way your family has treated you, the words they've said, and their constant attitude towards you that have caused you to feel so hopeless and unworthy of living, right?"
Eden nodded once more, the therapist's face showing sympathy.
"I see. So the way your family treats you has made you feel like nothing. You've been made to feel bad about yourself your whole life, to the point where you think it'd be better to die than keep on living, correct?"
The therapist maintained eye contact and continued to speak, expressing understanding.
"Okay. Basically, the way your family has treated you has made your whole life a living hell, and you've given up on being able to fix your situation. Basically, the way they've treated you has forced you to feel like ending your life is the only solution, correct?"
Eden nodded; the therapist then spoke calmly.
"So, you wouldn't be thinking about suicide at all if your family didn't say the things they did and treat you the way they do?"
The therapist observed the main character carefully, then continued to speak in a gentle and serious tone.
"Alright. So, what I'm getting is that if your family treated you normally, like most families do, you wouldn't be suicidal and all that, correct?"
The therapist watched closely as Eden thought.
"In a hypothetical situation, if your family treated you normally and kindly, and you never heard all that negative stuff, do you think you would be suicidal right now?"
The Eden listened and nodded silently once again.
"So, essentially, right now, the reason you want to die is the way your family has treated you. If your family said and did nice things for you, you wouldn't feel like this. Correct?"
The therapist maintained eye contact while continuing to speak in a calm and serious tone.
"Right, right. So you wouldn't feel like ending your life if your family treated you nicely to begin with and never made you think you were worthless and a failure."
The therapist silently observes Eden, waiting a bit before speaking.
"So essentially, because of the way your family has treated you, you've lost all hope, self-esteem, and any drive to do anything at all."
The therapist continued to gaze at Eden; his tone became more compassionate with the next sentence he spoke.
"And on top of that, they've made you feel so bad that you think dying would be a better option than living."