My eyes are heavy but I still force them to open. I try to get up from the bed but I notice a weight on me, I then realize that it's Alex's hand. He grumbles and then pulls me closer to his bare chest.
That's when I realized what position we were in and I remembered what happened last night.
How Alex cane after me like an unrelinquishing force.
He never gave me a chance to escape and some weird part of me was glad. I'm still in shock of what happened and the more I think about it, the more conflicted I get.
As I can't help but feel confused on what's the best path between us now. It's either we'll act like it never happened and go on about our lives treating it like a beautiful mistake or we'll draw closer to one another and just treat it as one of those achievements that make us as a couple stronger.
I honestly hope it's the second one because I don't see myself ever giving myself to another man like I have to him.
I try and shift my body to get properly in sync with his and I notice that my body's extremely sore. Especially a place between..
I breathe out and close my eyes falling back asleep.
~♤~
I wake up hours later and I hear noise in the bathroom, I'm assuming he's taking a shower. Just as I try to get up from the bed, the door opens to reveal a mostly naked Alex with just a bathing towel around his waist.
My face turns red as I look at his body and remember what we did last night.
"Ah, you are awake." he states. I nod my head, run into the bathroom and lock the door.
I can hear he's laughter through it and I watch in the mirror as my face gets even more red.
I planned to take a quick shower but my body was too sore, so I decided to draw a bath.
When I finished my bath, I walked into my room to find the maids cleaning it up whilst giving me knowing looks. The embarrassment I feel is enough they don't need to make me feel so awkward.
Other maids walk in to bring some of Alex's things.
"Why are you bringing those things?" i asked.
"The master said he'll be moving back here." The head maid stated as she walked into the room to over see the maids work. She gives me a disgusted once over and I could honestly feel her hostility all the way where I'm standing. She was hired by his mother and is loyal to his parents. It's due to her outright hostility that all the maids are comfortable enough to be mean and disrespectful to me. I don't know whether I should tell Alex as he's already busy with the company and such a trivial thing shouldn't be something I should disturb him with.
I can handle it on my own, in due time. I've survived till now and that's great.
I get dressed for the day and leave the maids to finish cleaning up the room.
I go to the dinning room, before I could open the door I could hear Alex and someone arguing. I find a well dressed look in a suit and a casually dressed man.
They both stand to greet me as I enter. I'm pretty sure I remember him from the other night at the Thompson Birthday party. I think he's one of Alex's bestfriends.
"Good Afternoon, Mrs. Black." He respectfully says. I'm not sure on how to respond to he's etiquette so I just give him a brief reply.
The whole time I was interacting with him I could feel my husband's eyes on me.
i finally turn to look at him and I find it really difficult to look him on the eyes anymore. I try to act normal in front of our guest but Alex is not giving me a chance.
"You have to attend." the man seems to whine and beg my husband who seems disinterested.
I respect their privacy and don't give mind to their conversations as none of the information will be useful to me.
I finally finish eating and I excuse myself. I could feel Alex's eyes as he watched me walk away.
My day was spent just like that with Alex appraising or checking me out like a slab of game on a butchers table to me running away and avoiding him.
I manage to evade him and only talk to him when necessary for two weeks but I know the only reason I got away with it was because he wasn't around.
My birthday came and passed. It was an intimate affair as I barely have friends or family to invite and honestly even when I was a child it wasn't something we went over the top of to orchestrate.
Alex managed to come back in time for his trip, I won't say he neglected me on my birthday. He was quite attentive and generous having lifted me a car and some amazing books I was hoping to try reading. I guess he was listening when I told him about them and that made me feel special.
The time for our anniversary came. Unlike my birthday which I was able to keep small and private. Our anniversary will have to be big and over the top. Our wedding had been none existent with just us and some witnesses going to the registry office.
I would have preferred something small but it seems his family has something planned. Usually his parents would barely give me a second thought but these past few days his mother has been stopping by our house trying to get some insight on how I would like out wedding to look.
Having felt like it might be a trap or something fishy I gave her enough lies that if she were to try and confirm of they were true from the help they would believe it. When I got married to Alex, I was taught on what his favorite meals are, as such ever since I moved into this house I've mostly eating his favorite food but by lying to his mother that I'm allergic to my favorite foods and that my favorite colour's are colour's I hare the most, I might actually enjoy this party.