As my yesterday became the present and my today the past I was like a time variant drifting through space,it was literally a nightmare, everyone had that look in there eyes of pity and said those words of lies as comfort which only made things worst, they said "don't worry if you need anything ask me" like they were done providing for themselves,some of them could hardly look decent.As the disgust of there words reach my thoughts it became a boiling water that could no longer be kept in,i said too them in a low tone "give me back my mother" and then they said again "she has gone too a better place" as dough in my head I said "you all will go to a better place" and someone then replied me saying "this is not our final ground its just a stepping stone, a test set by God" immediately I realized I'd spoken out what I thought I was saying in my head, the mood changed after that but the hole that was made in my heart hadn't been filled it was like cutting out a circle in the middle of a cake,or like finding water in the middle of the desert I couldn't explain how I feel but I knew my breathe was as thin as winters air when viewing the north lights,such collusion of emotion and expression like being tickled when your air line is thin,nothing has made me feel so empty.
The man responsible for my birth had already been phoned and was on his way done to land as he was sailor,not captain hook or jack sparrow I mean the boring kind, the drama was about too begin my emotions where running out of control, my demons where ready to strike as the man who owned the house was on his way we prepared to give him a welcoming like never before.
The sound of the bike I could hear from afar ,my hearing was enhanced by my emotions which was the opposite of love but not hate, coming down from the bike was the Man,average height,skinned head, with a corporate outfit along with a brown bag,my demons whispered into my ears "the drama is about to begin" like a child that runs toward attention he looked at me and I at him the words of welcome escaped my thoughts as I could feel what was intended from his expression.
Coming home he say the crowd gathered and it all began the act that could have won the best actor of the year award for 2021 there was only one problem he wasn't on camera.
Wiping as if he had feelings toward my mother the neighbors saw him and where enchanted by his decite for the "Man" I called "Daddy" was the God of lies and mischief. Knowing who he was I went straight to his phone to check on his message it was as if an erotica was being acted in form of text messages the words I saw there made me wonder why my mother didn't cheat on him so at least I'd be the son of someone who have value to the society, all the messages I remembered but the one that made me wish him dead in place of my mum was this;
Some random girl:- you said you are back
The Man:-yes my wife just died
Some random girl:-sorry for you lost
The man :- don't worry I'll find time to come see you .
After seeing this I knew he should have died instead he was nothing but a cheat and a fraud but he was already winning the battle, seeing him made me want to try out what the word murder meant,so in form of a peaceful surrender to my emotion I used the door out of the house to my neighbors place to rest my head their until the night came to run me out and back to the building I called home...
This was going to be a long night again.