Philip always knew that deep down he was different since the beginning of time and it got nothing to do with his sexuality.
At first he thought that he was just antisocial and the other times it felt like he didn't vibe with the crowd but, now? It feels so hard to breath whenever he thinks about letting Aiden down.
He had tried his best and hardest to hide that fact and just blend in with the crowd but, it wasn't working whenever he was with Aiden. The mask always cracks.
While his ears were under noise cancelling headsets, he had a huge beain space to read Aiden better from the passenger seat. He was in luck to find him.
He loved the way Aiden was checking up on him every once in a while and squeezing his hands whenever they stopped at the red lights.
Aiden was surely his Mr Right but, he was afraid, he wasn't good enough for him. Aiden had a way of listening without his ears so, when Aiden moved to kiss him square on the lips, he wasn't surprised.
"Hey, there baby" Said Aiden when he saw Philip taking off his headset. It wasn't his plan but, he couldn't complain. He missed him.
"Where in the world are we, right now?" Asked Philip looking at their surroundings.
"You didn't eat anything since morning" Said Aiden lazily to the confused Philip, "Craving anything?"
"Just you" Said Philip, one naughty fox according to Aiden.
"You have one hell of a dirty mind here, Miss" Teased Aiden nibbling Philip's earlobe. He was at his limits but, knew better than to have sex in public. Philip didn't deserve to have another episode.
"You know you like me like this" Bragged Philip locking Aiden to him. The only man who made him feel normal just the way he was. No mask, no expectations, just be himself.
"As tempting as this sounds, I need to know what you want so, I could place our orders and be on our way" Said Aiden placing a kiss on Philip's cheek before getting up from Philip and to his seat.
"Anything spicy" Replied Philip
"You reckon that's wise?" Asked Aiden concerned. He didn't eat for the whole day only to start with something spicy?
"That's my comfort food, you know" Clarified Philip casually going for a kiss which Aiden avoided but, before Philip could react on that, his phone buzzed.
"Just when it was getting to the fun part" Whined Philip, feeling wronged.
"Saved by the bell" Said Aiden as he passed Philip his buzzing phone but, when he saw the number on the screen, he had to stop for awhile and stare.
"What's wrong? Who is it?" Asked Philip, heart on his throat. He remembered changing the name Hubby for Stanley to Manager Stanley recently. So, for Aiden to stand frozen like that was quite terrifying.
"The suspense is killing me, Aiden!" Said Philip nervously, getting Aiden over his trance.
"Oh, sorry" Said Aiden absent mindedly passing the phone to Philip who accepted just as quick. And when he saw that it was another unsaved caller, he got confused on why that caller mattered.
"I seriously don't know why I keep getting these unsaved numbers to call me" Explained Philip awkwardly.
"What's their deal?" Asked Aiden coldly, not even bothering to look Philip in the eye.
"I wouldn't know because, I never picked up their calls" Replied Philip cautiously. Was Aiden the jealous type? And being jealous is good, right?
"What if it's your family in trouble or your friends or... or... me?" Asked Aiden frustrated. Not sure what he wants to know from that call. Or maybe he do and just don't want to.
"Then it wouldn't hurt to text me up first, would it?" Replied Philip cautiously turning Aiden's face back to him.
"No, it wouldn't" Said Aiden pitifully.
"Okay, why are you making this be a bigger deal than it's worth?" Questioned Philip, trying to understand. Who likes walking on eggshells?
"Because, I'm trying to get why Grayson would call you" Explained Aiden sincerely, allowing everything he was feeling to show.
"That was Grayson?" Asked Philip in shock.
"I can't be mistaken about it" Said Aiden with a sigh, "Look, I know you are your own person and people can't just control love but, can we at least break up before you start with anybody else?"
"Aiden baby. Breathe!" Came Philip's panic voice when he saw Aiden's state. The man looked like he was going to have a heart attack if not vomit.
"How about I call him and we can all listen to him, together" Suggested Philip taking his phone from his seat and dial the last number.
The phone rang like two times before Grayson picked up. Rising Aiden's fear. He can't see being friends with Philip after the break up. He's just different. And for him to date Grayson? How can he navigate past that?.
"You son of a gun. Too hard to find than a virgin in labour" Said Grayson casually from the other side.
"The number is foreign. May I know who I'm speaking to?" Asked Philip.
"Oh, that's valid. It's Grayson Pines from Fun makers company and not only me but, we have been calling after getting your digits from Julia. She said you are one great actor and we have a project that needs your assistance" Explained Grayson briefly.
So they didn't know each other. They weren't fucking on the side. That's a good thing. The best thing. Was all Aiden was thinking about from that exchange.
"Um, You do know who you are talking to, right?" Asked Philip squeezing Aiden's hand. He was vividly shaken up that it was a pity sight. Was he that afraid or just sick to think about Philip and his best friend together?.
"A dude chick Phi phi?" Replied Grayson helpfully making Philip laugh. A dude chick? Really?.
"Well, you are in luck because, we are family in a way so, what's the project about?" Asked Philip relaxing his muscles.
"No offense but, I don't got family that's into acting" Said Grayson thoughtfully.
"Well, you do now because, this is Philip. Aiden's boyfriend" Philip introduced himself.
"Fuck! Then it's my lucky night" Said Grayson excitedly, "You'll do me a solid here because, I'm backed up in a corner and I do need a voice actor to this new cartoon project I have"
"Just send me the deets and we can go from there" Said Philip with a scoff.
"You are not going to discuss your payment first?" Asked Grayson, confused.
"Whatever it is I can get from the contract and we can talk after I revise it" Replied Philip as a matter of fact.
"A contact... that's cool. Expect it first thing in the morning and kiss that idiot goodnight for me" Said Grayson after a pause.
"Will do" Said Philip with a relieved smile before he hang up the phone, "See? You got nothing to worry about"
"That's the problem. I wasn't worried, I just assumed you guys would do that to me. I mean, who does that?" Asked Aiden to nobody in particular.
"You did that and it's okay. You care and you are scared too, who isn't?" Said Philip before kissing Aiden on the nose, "Now, should we go get our food?"
"I totally forgot about food" Said Aiden with a sigh accepting a kiss from Philip.
"Let's go get dinner" Commanded Philip while still on top of Aiden, kissing slow and deep.
"I love you so much" Said Aiden breathlessly, making Philip tense up.