After doing the dishes, I went into my room to grab something. I looked around for it for several minutes. Sensing someone behind me, I turned and gasped.
"You can't sneak up on people like that." I turned and pulled several strands of hair behind my ear.
"I didn't mean to." Kai replied, his voice seemingly deeper than normal. I looked up at him. His voice was so enticing. Like cold lemonade after working in the heat. I exhaled deeply, turning away. "What are you doing in here?"
"Looking for something." I looked at my bookshelf. There was a moment of silence.
"Do you want to be in a relationship?" He questioned. I faced him.
"Yes…. Why? Do you?" I crossed my arms. He slowly closed the door behind him, making my anxiety rise. I dropped my arms, trying to prepare myself for whatever was coming.
"I want you…. All of you." He said in a low voice as he prowled closer to me. His eyes were dark, making my heart pound harder. He slid his warm hands up my arms slowly. "I want to be able to touch you. All over. I want to be able to love you without you shying away from me." Heat flooded my face. I wanted that, too.
"I understand if you're scared…, but you said you would try when it came to being physical."
"I'm…. I'm not scared." I lifted a hand and touched his side. It was firm under my hand. "Not of you." He studied me with his mismatched eyes for a long moment before leaning down and kissing me. My hands touched his shoulders as he slid his hands down my sides, hips, then around the backs of my thighs where he lifted me up. My hands grabbed onto his shirt, a little nervous. He wrapped my legs around his waist then supported me by placing his hands on my ass. He held me like I weighed nothing. He continued to kiss me as he stepped slowly. The warmth from his body soaked into me like I was sunbathing. He moved his lips, kissing down my jaw to my neck. The sensation caused me to breathe hard and squeeze my legs a little. His breath blew across my skin as a deep growl began to rumble in his chest. He bent down and my hands tightened, afraid he was going to drop me. He laid me gently on my back on my bed where he moved one hand on the bed next to my head. Despite this being extremely hot, I began to panic. I kept my eyes closed when he pulled away, trying to breathe. Memories of the past flashed in my head as he slipped a hand in my shirt. The second his hand touched my skin, I grabbed it. My body shuddered as I tried to keep him from touching me.
"Breathe." His deep voice said. He pushed against my hand. He could easily overpower me, but he didn't. "Look at me, Ren. I am not going to hurt you." I forced my eyes to open, seeing his face hovering over mine.
"Breathe." I took a shaky breath. "Now, relax. I won't push too far." As I continued to breathe steadily, my hands relaxed. Slowly, he trailed his hand up my side then across my belly. He paused for a brief moment and I could tell that he felt the scars along my ribs and on my stomach. It took a moment, but I began to calm down and enjoy what was happening. I cleared my mind of the memories as best as I could. When he saw that I had calmed down, he lifted my shirt up to my bra. Awkwardness nearly choked me. My hands grabbed the bed on either side of me gently as his head moved down to my belly. He began to kiss every visible scar, making me feel good and cared about. The tingling sensation that his kisses gave me spread through my body like electricity. I let out a breath that faintly sounded like a moan. Kai paused, his lips hovering next to my belly button. A vibration began to ripple through my body. He was turned on by such a tiny sound. I guess it was loud to an Alpha wolf. He kissed his way back up my body before hovering over my face. I felt ashamed to be breathing so hard. I was sure that he could hear my pounding heart. I stared into his eyes, feeling the electricity coursing through my body.
"I can keep going if you'd like." His eyes sparkled as he smirked.
"N-no. I-I don't think I could control myself if you did." I replied honestly. "A-another time."
"I will wait as long as you want." He kissed my forehead before laying on his stomach next to me. I stared at the ceiling for a long moment, contemplating. I sighed when I decided no to with the reasoning that I believed that he could get me pregnant the second I took my pants off. I began to sit up, grunting softly and pulling my shirt down.
"Where are you going?" He shifted as I stood.
"Well, I'm assuming that you're staying the night, so I'm getting changed in the bathroom." I answered, going to my closet where my dresser was. I pulled a tank top and a pair of sleep shorts with a galaxy theme out. I held them to my chest with one arm while I closed my closet. It was rare that someone saw my exposed skin. Almost everywhere was covered in scars. I was taking a leap by wearing this. I went to the bathroom and got changed. When I was done, I stared at myself in the mirror, my eyes tracing the scars that I could see. I sighed, remembering how Kai kissed the scars on my abdomen. It brought me relief. Just as I grabbed my clothes and was about to leave my bathroom, I cramped viciously. I gasped, bending over until the pain subsided. My period was coming, but I had at least a day before it started. I left the bathroom and dumped my clothes in the hamper outside the door. I looked at Kai, who was still laying on his stomach. I placed a hand low on my belly, making my way to the other side of the bed. I sat down and pulled the three blankets over my legs.
"So, what do you normally do at this time?" He stood and sat next to me. I thought for a moment before pulling a book off of my night stand. 'Does it hurt?' "So, you do read. What's this book about?" I bit my lip, remembering what was happening in my story. I had just started it and stopped right after two characters had hot, crazy sex.
"It's about a girl on the run." I shrugged. He can't know that I enjoyed smut.
"That's all?"
"I just started reading it." I stated. He nodded twice, looking ahead at the door. "What?"
"I think Lucah found his mate." Kai smirked. I focused on listening, hearing moans a moment later. Damn. That was quick.
"How are your senses so strong?" I looked at him.
"I'm always using them." He answered.
"You don't have to…'activate' them?"
"No. It's like second nature for me."
"Doesn't it get tiring? Hearing everything? Smelling everything?"
"It can…, but it keeps you safe." He responded.
"Hmm." I paused for several moments. When neither of us said anything, I opened my book and began to read. "If you want something to do, you can check out my bookshelf. Don't damage my books, grab a bookmark from the jar." I could see him looking at my bookshelf in the corner of my eye. After a few moments, he got up and went over to it. When he plucked a book from the shelf, he returned to the bed and opened it. We read quietly until I laid on my side and fell asleep while reading.
~~~
I woke to intense pain low in my belly and between my hips. I gasped quietly, moving a hand to push on the pain. Something blocked me, though. A hand. That's when I noticed that Kai had me wrapped in his arms and pulled against his chest. I could feel warm liquid between my legs and panic struck my heart. Wiggling out of Kai's arms, I stood up. In the darkness, I could see a huge dark spot on the sheet. I covered my mouth when I realized that it was probably on Kai as well. His eyes opened and he began to sit up. I reacted by throwing the blankets over the spot on the sheet and squeezing my legs together. A mute effort I soon realized.
"What's wrong?" He looked around the room, his wolf eyes taking in everything. Shit! He's a wolf! He can see and smell me!
"Nothing. Just go back to sleep." I awkwardly made my way to the bathroom just as he looked down at his pants. I felt like I was going to die so I closed myself in the bathroom. I turned on the shower and peeled off my shirt and bloody shorts. Of course it had to start now and embarrass me. Of course it had to get everywhere. Now I had to deal with Kai wearing my blood and cleaning up my bed. I felt like crying as I washed myself. When I was done, I got out of the shower and noticed neatly stacked clothes on the counter. My dirty clothes were also gone. My heart seemed to swell in my chest. How had I not heard him come in? He's so… considerate. I got dressed and put on a pad before leaving the bathroom. Kai was in the process of making the bed. He had also changed into a t-shirt and jeans. Embarrassment flooded my veins. Hugo must've brought him clothes. Unless he keeps an extra set hidden somewhere.
"Y-you didn't have to do that." I said.
"I wanted to." He stood up straight. It was different seeing him in something other than a button-up shirt and slacks. "How are you feeling?"
"Embarrassed." I blushed.
"Don't be." He pulled the blanket in the correct direction, covering the bed. "I couldn't find other blankets. I saw that you had three before."
"Yeah…. I get cold." I hugged myself. I can't believe I bled on him. My eyes moved over his clothes.
"I know you're embarrassed about it, but think of it this way. Your scent is all over me. Female wolves won't come near me." He smirked slightly. "It's like you've marked me." I didn't say anything.
"Blood doesn't bother me, Ren. Especially if it's from your…."
"Alright, alright." I put a hand up. "I'll stop being embarrassed about it if you stop talking about it." He put his hands up briefly as if to say 'okay'. I went around to my side of the bed. "Lucah and Kara…. Are they going to get back lash? I know humans and wolves aren't… common."
"I will make sure they don't. They should be able to love each other without the threat of getting hurt." He answered.
"Is he still going to work for you?"
"Unless he chooses not to." He sat on the bed. I lifted the blanket and stuck my legs under. I hugged myself, rubbing my cold arms. "Are you cold?" I nodded and he sat next to me. Without warning, he grabbed me and pulled me into his lap. I felt like a little kid as he pulled the blanket over us then wrapped me in his arms. His warmth soaked into me, making me feel relaxed and comforted. I rested my head on his chest.
"Why are you so okay with me… bleeding?" I questioned.
"Because it's natural. There's nothing wrong with it." He replied.
"What if I was hurt?"
"Then… I would be worried and would do everything I could to help you." He responded. I closed my eyes, feeling tired.
"You're a good person, Kai. I angled my face so that the bridge of my nose pressed against the side of his neck. I inhaled his scent. Leather, spice, and smoke. Maybe it was sandalwood. I wondered why he smelled so good.