Everyone is out and there's only me and Jevro left in our room. I don't know how did it happen since I'm honestly out of my mind right now. The fact that Jevro knows my secrets is bothering me too much. My question is since when? Since when did he know that I was the one who helped him during his fight with Hruon? Since when did he know that I also the one who helped him recovered from his injuries?
Aside from that, why didn't he confront me about it? Is he waiting for me to tell him everything? Or he's not yet certain about those facts?
"What are you spacing out about?" I heard him talking to me but I still not answering.
Tomorrow will be the day of our final training. And before it begin, we have to be tested with Gwandys to find our suitable match. And our perfect match will accompany us to do the raid. I'm honestly feel anxious right now. Back in the Philippines, I never been tested for matching.
"Thinking of how did I know?" Again, Jevro spoke.
I finally move my head to look at him. He's now sitting on the edge of the bed with his eyes on me. He looks serious and there's no hint of smiling on his face. And I don't know why I'm feeling more nervous. Is this fear? I don't know, perhaps?
I gently nods without moving. I'm still on the floor and have no strength to stand up. I honestly want to speak but no sounds coming out of my mouth. My body is secretly shaking and my hands is currently sweating. I'm not afraid of monsters but I'm unbelievably afraid of Jevro's thoughts. How strange, why do I feel like that something similar to this happened before? And I'm scared as if my mind and body are already knows what might happen in a few minutes of talking?
"Monsters got your tongue? Sigh.. Come here. I'll tell you how did I know it."
I saw him tapping the bed but just like what I said, my body won't move. My chest is also tightening and I feel like something is choking me. I'm scared, but why I'm this scared? What happened before that I have forgotten? Have we met before? Is he one of my family in the past? Or is he my...
"Yohan.. I'm not mad at you. Come here. We can't speak louder about it since we're not in our country right now. Walls have ears and ceiling have eyes. I know that you don't want anyone to know "that", so come here." Jevro's voice sounds soothing in my ears.
I feel like he's talking with a kid and I'm honestly feels comfortable. However, it doesn't mean that I also regained my strength. And honestly, my eyes feels hot. I bend my legs and buries my face between them. Allowing my emotions overpowered me. My body began trembling and my throat taste's sour. This feeling is somewhat familliar, but why?
"I told you I'm not angry, so why are you crying?!" I can feel that he's worried.
"I.. I'm scared. I don't know why but I'm scared, Jevro. I'm scared that you might turned your back at me and never talk to me anymore. I know it's weird but I'm telling the truth. The day that I saw you fighting with the Hruon, I got the feeling that I have to protect you. And when I saw your wound after your fight with the Sikriya, I honestly wanted to kill that bastard who did it to you. I decided to join the monsters department because of you. I'm straight, man. Don't misunderstand, I even fucked someone before I went to your house. But the thought of protecting you never leave my mind."
Finally! I said what's on my mind. But, why it's quiet? Slowly and gently, I moved my head and raised it up. I gently wipe my tears before looking at Jevro's location. I literally jolted when I saw him squatting in front of me. He's looking... No, he's staring at me intensely. Unbelievable, I can't read what's on his mind.
"So, you joined the team because of me, is that right?" His voice sounds cold and deep.
I gently nodded.
"Then, you have been awakened twice?"
"No." I even shook my head.
"Tell me then." He never look away while talking to me.
If he's angry or what, I have no slightest idea at all. What I know is that, I have to tell him everything.
"I've got my double awakening when the mana stone dropped in our house and killed my parents. I discovered my power after I regained consciousness. I'm.. Able to see someone's rank through their aura. And I'm also able to see their internal injuries like X-rays."
There's no reason to hide anymore. If Jevro wants to tell the world that I'm unique, so be it. I'll hide while secretly protecting him. His safety is my first priority.
"So, You're a Malemyn with the power of Gwandy. I see.." He reached my hand and slowly removed my gloves.
"No, I'm not."
"Not? Then what are you?" He successfully removed it while looking at me.
"I'm.. A purple Malemyn and a crystal Gwandy. I don't need Gwandy to comfort me since my body can heal with its own. I can be Gwandy who can comfort Malemyn, and I can be Malemyn who can protect Gwandy."
Jevro removed his black robe and started removing the bandage from his body. His wound is bleeding, maybe because of the poison that he inhaled a while ago.
"Can protect and can heal. Then why the fuck did you let me suffer with this injury until now without intention of helping me? You said you want to protect me. Are you lying to me?"
Shaking my head is not enough to tell him that I didn't mean to ignore it. "I was just afraid that you'll know my secret and decided to betray me. I want to protect you while I'm near you. Not protecting you secretly."
"Then do it! You knew that I was looking for you, yet you still insists on hiding. I have a hunch that it was you all along but I chose to wait for you to tell me everything. Do you think I'm that stupid?"
"No.. I just.." I gulped when he suddenly pulls me and placed my hand on his wound. "I'm sorry."
"Tomorrow is our training, and the day after that is our final battle. I'm injured, aren't you feel pity on me? I have to fight with this wound? What if I..hah!" Jevro's eyes got widened when he suddenly feels the overwhelming healing energy from my hand.
"I said I'm sorry.. I didn't think of that. I'll pay attention to you from now on so, please stop nagging me. You're making my head hurts for Christ sake.
I'm happy, honestly. My chest feels light. Now that I have nothing to hide from him, I can finally protect him without worries. A smile ripped on my lips and I started moving my other hand. I placed it on his body too and mindlessly pushed him to lie down on the floor. With that, I didn't notice that I'm actually sitting on his crotch while healing him. My healing energy is powerful, but his wounds is deep. The healing seems slow and I know that.
" Yohan.. Don't you remember how you helped me when we were in my private room?" Jevro suddenly spoke.
The smile on my face disappeared. Our eyes locked up and I suddenly feel nervous. That time.. I still remembers it. But that time, I did that because he's unconscious. Our situation right now is opposite to what happened before.
"No, you'll be completely healed within a few minutes, so just wait." I moved my eyes and shifted it to his wound.
Using my mouth to give him more healing is not appropriate.. At least for now. He's not even seriously injured.
"It can speed up the healing though?" Even I'm not looking at him, I can feel that he's smiling.
"I'll do that if you received serious injuries. Stop pouting!"
I flinches when I feel his hands moving up from my legs to my waist. He's touching me which actually helpful for him. My body is now releasing healing energy. However, this kind of touching is quite different.
"Unbelievable, your body feels warm. Is it because you're also a Gwandy?" Jevro is asking me while caressing my skin.
His hands are now on my back and I can't deny the fact that it's making me uncomfortable.
"Come on.. I want to heal faster so I can finally sleep. Why don't you just kiss me, instead?"
I literally gulped. I'm not sure if he's testing me or he's fucking serious. My gaze landed on its lips and I somehow feel the urge to capture them.