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Chapter 3 - Full woman: Journal 3

'No when you were born l prayed for you,

youre a full woman'

 

That bothered me

And l know what people around me would ask

Arent you a full woman

Why are you offended

How could you be offended

But whats a full woman

Is she

Well behaved

Well mannered

Orderly

Knows when to be quiet

Respects her parents like a fucking good

girl

Bows down to all man around her

Doesnt question your words

Doesnt question your morals

So when you hurt me and smile

When you mock and belittle me

When you know im not strong enough

And you praise me for it

And urge me to continue

To Stay in my weakness

To continue to do as im told

To always obey

It makes me wonder

Makes me not want to claim my womanhood

What should l do

How should l be

Who is to blame

Is it me

Where do l begin