I close my eyes and l teleport
To the place l want
To the people l need
I fantasize about what they would say to me
About what we would do together
About where we would go
About who l could be
And when l open my eyes
L realize how stuck l am
Not because l cant
But because l wont
Why cant l work for it
Why cant l be strong
Why wont l be strong
Is it all pointless
Will they always find me
Should l just give up
Every time l start to try, l quit before l even get far
I always break down
Do l not deserve it
Am l too far gone
Am l too stupid
If l dont fix this
If l dont work hard now
If l dont study
If l dont gain strength
L will never have what l want
I will never be free
I will never be happy