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I'll tell you a story. People love hearing stories. Some hear one or multiple and set out to create their own story to tell. Their own telltale. I loved my killer once before she went psycho. There was this big pandemic around the end of 2019. Covid-19 was the virus spreading around the world. People began to quarantine and schools began to go online. 

I was a lonely, reclusive kid. I could be outgoing at times but I never shared too much at school. No one really knew me and no one cared. She broke my shell. We talked 24/7 throughout the pandemic. Whether it's texting each other or calling each other in discord. We were happy. 

I asked her out and to my surprise she said yes. I had this gut feeling like I'd made a mistake in asking her out so I asked her again to make sure and she just kept saying yes for being in a relationship. It's funny, a long distance relationship. I have a habit of doing long distance relationships. I don't seem to know why. It's weird I know, don't question me. 

That's when we started talking to each other more. Talking about our days, sending good morning and goodnight texts, and talking to each other when we're down. I enjoyed every moment because I have never felt this way. It felt so good just talking to her, knowing her more and her doing the same to me. I felt wanted, needed, like a person actually wanting to get to know me and loving me forever. I felt so happy. I was happy. I never wanted this feeling to go away yet I always felt this feeling in the deepest part of me that something bad was going to happen to me. I ignored it though cuz "love." 

Nothing could go wrong with that, can it? That was the second best moment in my life. That whole month taught me a lot but broke me at the same time. If you asked me would I go through that again? I would reply yes a million times. Not because of being with her, nooo, it is the experience I've gained from the fallout. 

Telling you the story of our breakup will come in another day. Maybe in an important moment in their story. I will enjoy the moments of you trying to find out who I am. And when I reveal myself to the world, they'll be in shock. 

Sorry for getting sidetracked. She was my first "girlfriend." I had to climb out of hell to get back to a normal state. Everything came crashing down on me. The words she said broke me. I tried to get back to her. I tried and I tried. She said no everytime. I said sorry to her. I don't know why but I never experienced a breakup before but only read it in books. 

How could she do this to me? I loved her with every being of me. I told her, you had a person who loves you with all his being and you'll never have that from someone else again. I was going through shit and I posted stuff about being sad and shit but I couldn't tell anybody because I didn't know who to talk to. Yet when I did most of my friends checked up on me. Asked if I was okay. I told them I wasn't. And said I needed someone to talk to just talk to them and I was like okay thank you and for sure for sure will. 

When she responded though, she asked, "Are you okay?" 

I replied saying "No, cuz you broke me." 

She texted back, "I'm sorry'' and proceeded to say "You should find a therapist." 

I replied back, "Fuck you, I wouldn't have been like this if it weren't for you." 

And then she blocked me everywhere. You should see her bullshit response. It's funny ass fuck about why she blocked me. But I won't. It'll reveal too much. I need to get everything setup so please enjoy the story. I'll say something here and there. Teenage love, am I right?

Oh sorry, wrong book.