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A black void was all I could remember at first. There was nothing but darkness that surrounded me, leaving me nothing but emptiness, sadness and loneliness.
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Time began to past as I questioned myself. "Where am I? Who am I? Or rather what... am I?" That was when my consciousness came to me but it didn't give me an answer on how I was able to think and... perhaps talk? Maybe I wasn't talking and it was all in my head. And yet this feeling of me... forgetting something really left a bad taste in my... stomach?
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Later I found out that words that I have never seen or known before came at me. Words like "love", "family", "travel", "plane" and one word that made me... emotional was "forgive". It seems like I had no body, only my consciousness and yet I couldn't help but tearing up whenever an emotional word hit me. It saddens me because I wasn't able to shed a tear through it all...
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After a while, I almost had everything back. But, I felt like I was still forgetting something important. It was a big gaping hole deep inside of me and my memories. With no goal in mind, I kept wandering and wandering for days, weeks, months or even years have gone by with no noticeable difference. Or rather time might as well be at a standstill and I hadn't move a single step! Maybe... Just maybe...
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"Family... Family... Family..." I kept on muttering those words as if they were of importance to me. They seemed to be at least if I kept doing it while I walked... Wait, how could I move if I were just a consciousness? So would it be safe to say that I was floating? These questions kept appearing like "How am I not hungry or thirsty?", "Where are my legs?", "Am I a human or an animal?", etc...
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I wandered aimlessly for who knows how long now. There it was again, that feeling of emptiness I couldn't get rid of was suddenly getting bigger. Words suddenly disappeared from my vocabulary, I couldn't remember some words and their meaning anymore. "What is this?" I asked myself. The more things I forgot, the more empty I felt. Wait, I could suddenly feel something... Something falling, racing or dripping down my... my... face as that one word, what was it again?
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Soon after that, I couldn't think or speak or walk. It was as if I was back at the start. But it was not too long after I lost everything that a bright white light shown at me that I regained some part of my consciousness back but only a few words. What I could see before me was a straight white line laid in front of me, a... road if you will. I didn't notice at first but after I stepped onto that line, my body shrunk but it didn't occur to me at all because I was being carried by someone.
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My movements were limited and it seemed like I was being carried, I could only tilt my head to the side. I saw someone walking with me. But I couldn't tell who it was when I looked at their face, even the person who was carrying me.
It all somehow felt like a dream... Dream? I don't know why but that sounded correct to me. Not too long after, the person holding me was looking at me and... have a rather happy expression on their face and said... something "You... my son... name... will be... Jake..." I didn't understand what they were saying but it seemed important...
Moments later, I seemed to be on the ground on all fours crawling. The path was still the same as ever so I kept crawling with little to no thoughts in mind. There was a... box... A um... Crib! Yes! That's right! A baby crib! So... Was this how I was born? I started to connect the dots together with little understanding that I had at the moment. Is this the afterlife? And what I am seeing now is... What did they call it again? Seeing your life flash before your eyes? Does that mean... No, it can't be. I need to get to the bottom of this!
As I crawl, I keep seeing baby stuffs like playing blocks, milk bottles, robot action figures and errrrr... dirty diapers.
There were two people waiting at the end of the road in front of me, one has long hair and the other has short hair. They both were giving out their arms in front of them. One of them said "... to Mommy!" The other said "No!... to Dadda!" As if calling out to me. Wait... Mommy... Dadda... Mom... Dad... Something clicked inside me, my parents. Memories started flooding in as my body instinctively crawled and acted on its own.
"Mommy!" The word came out of my mouth were my... "Yay! He chose me!" "Wait honey! Did he just say his first word?" "What?! Wait! Oh my gosh, I was too excited! Wait wait wait, dear! Get the camera!"...
After that, my mom and dad walked me in a baby carriage down the long white road in the dark void. I couldn't see their faces but I just know that they were happy. As time goes on, the thing I was in disappeared completely and I was back to crawling or rather I was walking with both of my parents holding my hands. There were no talking. It's different to when they first reacted to me crawling to them. I didn't notice it at first but now when I looked back, their faces were all detailed smiling all happy. Instead of that, their bodies were covered in light, I couldn't see anything but I only managed to see their mouths. I look to my mom and dad seeing that their mouths are curled up, I'm glad that they are still happy.
Not too long after that, I began walking on my own. The comfort and warmth from my parent's hands started to slowly disappear as well as the path behind me.
I began to take in what had happended. That I'm now in the after life. Nothing will change if I continue to worry, all I can do now is face whatever is head on!