I park at my usual place when I get home and enter the house , everyone is in the living room.
We really do have family dinners on Fridays, wasn't lying but I was lying about getting here on time because I actually never care about that staff.
"8pm? What a surprise? Too early for you to be home." Mom says after seeing me. Everyone turns to look at me.
They are watching a movie, they usually do that on fridays , my brother comes home every friday with his wife and child , my sister got engaged but still leaves at home , so they are all here.
"O o.. he is not looking so good , what a surprise, I've never seen you this down , you are always happy about something, high all the time, so spill it." Marcus , my brother says.
" Hey guys.." I ignore him , I greet and head upstairs to my room.
" Hey , everything okay?" Mom asks.
"Am fine" I say still walking but the way am feeling doesn't allow me to go any further , as I had told you before, I never have stress , and this is the first time am experiencing something so disturbing .
I just wanna let it out already even if they are going to scold me . I don't care what they'll think of me , dad's cousin is gay and he's even married and they accepted him. I've suddenly remembered him.
Dad, "What's family for if you can't let them help you whenever you are stuck.. you can talk to whoever you feel comfortable with."
" I did something so stupid at work today." I blurt out.
" What did you do again?" Cara asks knowingly.
"Made out with a wrong person." I don't know how to say it .
"Oh my g*d , someone kill me please" marcus says. Making it sound like a joke. "What else? I refuse to believe that Julian Wilson here is stressed because he made out with someone." He adds.
"Didn't you hear the part when I said 'wrong person?' " I ask feeling so mad at him.
"Julian , the last thing I remember is that you do more than just making out with everyone and you never give a shit about it." Why don't he just shut up!
" You don't get it , forget it." I say walking to my room but my mom stops me .
" Honey wait ! We are confused, why don't you tell us more clearly, who did you.." she drags the last word as if she doesn't wanna say it .
" CEO " I say.
They are still looking at me as confused as before.
" What about him? " cara asks .
"Ugh! Man , I made out with him and I initiated it."
"What?!?" That's the reaction they give me , and those who haven't given me 'what?!' their mouths are open , covering with their fingers in surprise.
"Tell me it's a joke!" Cara heals first from the shock and says.
Marcus, " You..! unbelievable! What exactly is your problem with that thing of yours , you sleep with different girls everyday and now you think it's not enough so go to your Boss , you've started with men , you have a serious problem , trust m..."
"Marcus! Don't talk to your younger brother like that , you don't know yet the whole story." Mom says , speaking up for me, she always does.
" Mom , you keep praising him even for the wrong things he does and you gonna regret it one day ! He sleeps around and you think that is funny? What happens when he comes back here with that incurable disease? Will you still be happy ? Julian, tell me .. have you suddenly become gay or now girls don't satisfy you so now you want to have both gender?!"
" I didn't have s*x with him !" I argue feeling really terrible.
" But that's what you are after , isn't it ? " I've never thought of that!
" No ! I honestly think am in love with him!" I say it , something I've been dreading to admit.
Cara, "You what? Aren't you the one who kept complaining about him day and night here? How much you hate him. Speaking of loving him,, you said you don't think it exists at all, so what's changed?"
"Everything changed ." I say.
"He must really hate you right now , first playing tricks on him and teasing him around and now you just did that!" Cara adds.
"I have no doubt he hates me now." I say a lumb choking me in my throat.
" Serves you right." Marcus says , he isn't making me feel any better , I shouldn't have told them.
" What was his reaction? Did he hit you ? Or push you or anything? Did you tell him how you feel about him , or how did you come to the point of making out , did he fire you?" Mom asks looking like she is still trying to process everything she has just heard.
" He didn't do anything of that." I answer .
" Then doesn't that means he wanted it as much as you wanted it? Because trust me he would have broke your bones." Cara suggests , okay it might be true that he wanted it but still how is he gonna think of me .
"He has been acting weird with me lately, giving me compliments that have been giving me headaches, so today he just wanted to talk but I turned that into a perverted act, what's bothering me more is what he's gonna think of me , especially with the fact that he knows my reputation."
" You are probably overthinking , he didn't hit you nor said anything that showed he was mad about it , and he has been giving those signatures , he might not be thinking about it like you are thinking." dad says standing up and heading to his room.
Marcus, "Dad, just because that man was giving compliments doesn't mean he is into that , he might have been just joking around , everyone plays around at some point , don't make him feel good about what he just did."
"So honey , what you are saying is that you are gay?" Mom asks.
"I think Bisexual, I don't know." I say.
" Of course you are bisexual, you can't survive with one gender." Marcus says heading to his room.
Mom, "Marc , stop it!"
" Okay mom." He says raising his hands in surrender.
I don't say anything more as I head upstairs too.
As am climbing the stairs , my phone vibrates and when I look at it , it's H.H
"Oh shit!" I slip , falling.
"Honey , are you hurt?" Mom asks coming to where I am.
" No mom , just my knee but not that bad it's okay , my phone .. I think it's dead." I say sitting on the stairs looking at the phone that looks like it's been chewed by a hungry lion.
Mom comes with the first aid box .