" Julian , I got you a new phone , open the door and take it ." I hear Marcus outside the door say.
" I said I'll buy one for myself , you didn't have to buy it , it's not like if I call him now he'll pick up, he for sure blocked me a long time ago!"
Cara, "And that's what is called love , block..unblock, so if he has blocked you don't worry , he'll unblock you very soon."
"Y'all don't know him so just stop saying anything!"
If they are trying to make me feel better then they should just stop because there's totally nothing they can do or say to redeem my spirit.
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The night goes on painfully slow , last night I tried to call him but as I said he blocked me , my idiotic brother lent me his phone but I didn't wanna call because if he knows it's me he'll end the call before I say anything So I decide to sent just a short message.
°°°Adams am really sorry, I know I should have said something but I was confused and afraid not knowing what to say , but I realise that I should have atleast said that I arrived well , my bad , and about not mentioning you... you got it wrong. Please let me explain everything tomorrow.. I never slept with that girl you were talking about, yes I was with her that day but I didn't sleep with her°°°
Delivered but no reply the whole night!
" Take your breakfast befo..."
"Am fine nanny." I say walking to the front door , putting on black glasses because my eyes look terrible, black lines under them and they are sore , am gonna have to ask paige to do a make up on me to conceal them.
" Then at least let one of us drop you at work, you look terrible . You can't skate in that condition Juls" Cara says .
"Thanks but am fine"
They give up letting me go .
He always comes to the office early in the morning, I'll have time to talk to him before my working hour start... I really regret now refusing the offer of becoming his secretary, he wouldn't be able to avoid me even if he wanted to , I should have accepted that offer.
Just as I get out of the elevator, I see Trina come out of his office , "Just go back , he doesn't want to see anyone."
"It's important " I say still walking towards his office .
"I've told you he doesn't want to see anyone , if you want something just tell me, he said if anyone disturbs refusing to leave then I should just call the guards, don't force me to do that!" She insists .
I turn around and leave .
I know that someone is me !
I go to my desk and everyone that sees me is surprised. "So early today Julian ,, how comes .." Mrs. Henderson says passing by and I ignore her like I've not heard because I have no voice to speak now .
"Dude , did you pee in your bed today?" Bill , one of my colleagues.
I put on a black mask and put on headphones to inform them that I don't wanna talk .
"What up?" That's definitely paige , she has taken off my headphones on my head, sitting on my desk .
" What's with the new look ?" She trys to remove the mask but I stop her .
" What happened?"
" Nothing much."
" Don't tell me you got into a fight again , is your face bruised?"
" wrong"
" Then what's the problem ?"
I take off my mask then the glasses . Her face full of surprise . " OMG! You should see a doctor!" She shouts until everyone turns to us .
I put them back on . "It's nothing to see a doctor for"
" What happened?" She repeats.
" Love problems!"
She couldn't help but laugh at that . "Find another excuse. I mean , since when do you even care about anyone? I would never believe that Julian Wilson here , is in love and it's making him look like a ghost ! Like.. even if you are in love with someone I doubt you could let it bother you to this extent"
" You won't understand, forget it . Can you make these lines under my eyes disappear? do you have your makeup kit here?"
"Always" we go in the bathroom and she does it .
The rest of day she keeps pestering me to tell her what is bothering me because she isn't convinced that it has anything to do with love , so I had to lie to her .
" Am so broke and my parents won't give me money , and you know me with money , I don't feel alive without some." so she transferred some in my account and paid for the meals of the whole day , but I hardly ate them , still I had to force myself to be cheerful around her .
I've been sending messages to him but he has been ignoring me like always.
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Day in day out, a month is almost over without Adam and I seeing each other or talk , I know I said am done with him but it's just so impossible but it seems like he's really over this .
" What a lucky girl! I wish I was her..." paige says sighing loudly and looking disappointed as she sits down on her chair .
" What are you mumbling about?" I ask curiously.
" You can't be serious that you haven't heard."
" Why don't you just go on and say it , asking means I don't know. "
"Last time I checked you were refusing to listen to my stories , acting mature , what happened now?"
Ugh! She's sturbbon, am not acting to be mature , I just don't have energy and the vibe to play around like I used to , I guess am dying inside slow by slow, I don't even remember the last time I went out to party or a club.
" Never mind then." I say not interested anymore.
" Fine , I'll tell you. There's a lucky b*tch out there who is going to spent the rest of her life with the man of my dreams!"
"Seriously? If you dont wanna tel..."
"Mr. Smith is marrying soon , they've already booked a wedding planning, how about you and me work together to plan it , maybe that will help me get over him."
" What are you saying?" I feel the world blur around me as I hear the words. "He's marrying her." It's like they echo, bouncing around my skull in some cruel chant, digging themselves deeper with every repetition.
My hands tremble, nails biting into my palms, and I realize I can barely breathe. I sit there, staring into nothing, trying to grasp onto something, anything, that makes sense. But every piece of it, of him, of us—it's like it was nothing. A story I told myself.
It's as if someone else takes control of my body as I stand and leave my desk. I don't even think about it; my feet just start moving.
Am surprised to see a bodyguard at the door.
"If you have anything to get to this office , it's true the secretary.." he says but I cut him.
" Tell him I need to talk about something important ." I say my anger hanging almost loosening , but I try to talk calmly.
"I've already told you what you are supposed to do."
I walk direct to the door and he holds me back. "Do not touch me!" I thunder angrily. I never knew I could be this angry in my life and am gonna hit someone to death if he messes with me now .
Just as he struggles with me, to take me away like am a crazy person, the door opens .
" Let him go " he says like he cares suddenly . He still doesn't let go of me , looking at him as if confused. "Didn't you hear me , I said let go of him!" Adam repeats.
He lets go of me and the moment our eyes meet I couldn't help wanting to bump into him and hug the hell out him.
He walks back inside leaving the door open , something screams in me that I shouldn't go in because he's been treating me like some kind of lunatic! But another pushes me inside .
Standing infront of him every word that I ever wanted to tell him disappears , he is looking down on some files , but I can tell that there's nothing he's reading in them because he's staring at one point for like forever and his hand seems to be slightly shaking .
"Did you want to come in to stand here and stare?" He finally looks at me asking and averts his eyes almost immediately.
I want to speak but I can't seem to. There are too many words, too many questions burning up my throat.
My fingers are numb, curled into fists at my sides. The silence stretches, heavy, and I feel the rawness of it pressing against my skin. I can't help it; my voice cracks when I finally speak. "Congratulations! I heard that you are getting married soon , I was actually wondering if I could be your planner ? Turns out am the best in that department now and because you are our CEO , you deserve the very best , unforgettable wedding, what do you think?" I ask sarcastically.