Alive but not living
Screaming but silent
In excruciating pain but numb
Loving but hating
I've jumped right off the cliff
Down into the depths of despair
Nothing is ever fair
My heart and hope killed by this rift
Hope whispering lies
Despair shouting promises
My heart as cracked and dry as the desert
My mind flooded with a tsunami of tears
Trapped in this asylum of misery
That slope was just too slippery
Riddled by criticisms artillery
Suffering whiplash injury
Breathing but suffocating
Seeing but blind
Eating but starved
Listening but deaf
Staring at a clock with no hands
Thinking through Landmines of memories
Injured by bullet after bullet of self doubt
The days bleeding into nights into months into years
Each second another lead weight on my heart
The dust of hope fleeting away with the wind
Shadows of darkness closing in
I'm dying dead and then
Nothing