"How was the meeting?" Ama asks me.
I look around to be sure my kids are not around. "They are in their room, playing." I nod. "The meeting was with Lucien's company," I say hurriedly.
At that, her eyes widen, and I nod.
"I did not want to tell you because, I did not think he would come since it was rumored, he would not, but he did come today."
Ama looks at me intently, and asks, "Did he get you fired?"
I shake my head. "Apparently, it was his mum who made him to not blacklist me. It was also his mum who told him to pick the company I'm working in. Knowing her, it is obvious that she knew I was working there. He did ask me out so that he could talk."
I look at Ama's thunderous expression, and say, "But I rejected that. So he ended up saying what he wanted to. He apologized, and I told him that I don't accept his apology."
"But you are scared," Ama says stating the obvious. I nod frantically. "Obviously. He is going to be here for a long time, and I am going to work with his company. If he finds out about them…"
"Hopefully, he won't, and he will be home as soon as possible," Ama interrupts me. "Now, take deep breaths, and calm down before you have a panic attack."
I smile and say, "I almost had one in the meeting room when I saw. Again, his face flashed with anger, and I was really terrified he would make my boss fire me because I am sure the company will rather lose me than lose a collaboration with a big company."
Ama rolls her eyes at my anxiety. "Don't be a pessimist. You must calm down or else you might…" What she wanted to say trails off as my babies' shout, "Mummy." I immediately smile and hug them. "How are my babies?'
"I am not a baby mummy, but Gigi is," my son Grayson says.
At that, Gianna attempts to hit her brother, but I give her the look, and she does not. "I am not a baby too mama." I nod and say, "I know. You are my big girl.'
She smiles at that, and smirks at her twin brother who glares at her in return. "How was school?"
They attempt to roll their eyes, and at the same time, they both say, "Boring." I want to laugh at how cute they are, and I know if I comment on their twin telepathy, the both of them will argue that the other is copying them. They both end up to talking my ears off about class, and I listen to them tell me about their classmates. I comment here and there, but they are the ones who mainly talk.
Their stories are okay and lighthearted, until my daughter says, "I wish I had a daddy."
At that,
At that, Ama and I freeze, and look at each other in shock.
"Me too," my son says.
"Who says you don't have one?"
They shrug, and say, "We have never seen him."
"Because he is not around right now," I say.
"Has he ever see us?" my daughter asks.
"Seen," I say correcting her. "And yes, he has. He has seen you both."
"When?" my son asks.
At this point, my heart is hammering, and I struggle to control myself, but I say, "When you both were little, your dad saw you."
"When will he come and see us again?" my daughter asks.
I swallow, and say, "Once he is done traveling, he will see you both. Right now, he is just helping us."
They ponder on my lies, and then seem to accept it because they end up chasing each other. Ama and I let out a relieved sigh, and she says, "They are growing so fast." I nod in affirmation, and reply, "And they will keep on asking questions."
She nods. "Do not worry. At least, you have crossed the bridge for now. I think the reason they are asking is because of school, which is normal so, we will let them be."
I nod. "Hopefully, it will be a long while before they ever ask me that question again. I hate having to lie to them, but they will not understand what hqappened."
"Obviously, they are still five. Do you think you would ever tell him about them?"
"I am not sure," I reply. "I don't want him to reject them. It will honestly hurt more than anything he has ever said or done to me. I want nothing more than for my kids to have their daddy, but does their daddy want them?"
"Do you really think Lucien is the kind of guy who will not take care of his own children?"
I know she is right, but I say nothing. His mother is alone will be ready to take care of my babies, but she has no idea about them, and I am a bit relieved by that even though I know I should not be. The fact of the matter is that Lucien will be gone in two weeks or less, so he does not need to know about Gianna and Grayson.
I will not let him break my babies' hearts like he broke mine.