I knew I would be blacklisted, but the amount of rejections I had gotten were probably than I have sworn in my entire life on earth. Lucien did not take it slightly easy on me. I sigh looking at yet another rejection when they know fully well why I was not accepted even though I was well skilled for the job. Ama and I are going to check out our new apartment. It is the only thing I am excited about. My only saving grace is that I saved a lot, but those savings will not last me I awhile. I sigh and continue packing my things since we will be gone by the end of this week. Most of our furniture are already back there. The moment Ama comes back from shopping, she takes one good look at my face, and asks, "Another rejection?" I nod. I put my braids in a bun and continue surfing. Ama comes to my side, and says, "You need a break. Let us eat."
She brings out the pizza she brought, and a genuine grin comes on my face. I was starving. I had not eaten for a while since I had been job hunting, but with pepperoni pizza in front of me, I put my laptop on sleep. "The apartment will be ready this week. Are you sure you want us to leave immediately?" Ama asks. I nod. "He has already blacklisted me. It will be hard for me to get a job from a reputable tech company, but I will continue trying my best. Right now, I will just freelance so that I can at least have some cash."
Ama frowns. "I never knew he could be so cruel," she says disdainfully. I sigh. "He could be if he found out you betrayed him. He does not take betrayal lightly, but it is quite annoying because I did nothing. I am innocent. I tried explaining via text thinking that he would have calmed down, but he had me blocked," I reply.
"He is such a heartless asshole. Well, I am happy we will be far away from him."
"Maybe, I will be able to get a job there, and Ama, thank you for doing this with me. I know you love here, but you are ready to move for me."
She shrugs her shoulders. "I do love here, but I love it because of you. We both came here while I was battling with the loss of Ben. I did not think my life was worth living anymore." With tears in her eyes, she continues, "I tried to push you away so many times, but you refused. You stayed with me instead. A lot of people gave up on me, but not you. You are my sister, not just my friend. If moving will make things easier for you, we will move. After all, the hospital I work at, increased my pay, and their headquarters, is where we are moving. It is the least I can do for the sister who saved me." I hug her, and we both cry. Ben was the love of her life, and they had known each other since they were kids. In college, Ben died of cancer. When he died, a piece of my friend did as well. She tried to end her life, but she has come a long way. We finally separate to eat.
Ama and I finally arrived at Connecticut. It was a relief, and breath of fresh air. Somedays, living without Lucien was hard, but Ama was there with me. We finally arrived at our apartment, and I almost sleep, but I decide to check out everything instead. We opted for a three-bedroom home, and it was beautifully styled. We decide to sleep out of exhaustion. Life was good, and I already had some companies I wanted to apply for a job. I was happy, until I checked my period calendar, and realized that I hadn't seen my period in over a month. I start hyperventilating. I am never this late. I have only ever been a few days late. But over a month? Maybe, it is hormonal imbalance. Maybe, it is due to stress. I have been very stressed with my occupational life, and everything.
I become very agitated and go to the mall thanking the Lord that Ama has a shift at the hospital today. I end up buying five pregnancy tests. I am shaking when I go back home, and head straight to the toilet. I pee and wait for the results to come. It felt like years, but it was just a few minutes. I notice the double line, and I break down in tears when all pregnancy tests confirm I am pregnant.
I want to call Ama, but I decide to wait. The moment Ama comes home, she looks at my eyes, and asks, "What is wrong?" I show her the pregnancy tests, and her eyes widened. "What am I going to do?" I ask desperately. She sighs and says, "It is your choice. Do you want to raise the baby?"
"Not really," I say.
The next day, I book an appointment in the hospital Ama works at. "I want an abortion," I tell the doctor. She nods, and we get ready for the procedure. She decides to check the fetus, and she asks, "Are you aware that there are twins in your tummy?" My hand begins to tremble because I had assumed it was just one. When she tells me they are twins, I remember my twin sisters, and how I told my mum I wanted to have twins. I break down in tears and tell the doctor I'm not sure I want to go through with the abortion. She nods, and says, "I understand. Take care."
I call Ama, and she looks at me. "You didn't go through with it," she says. I nod. "I'm having twins." Her eyes widen, and she nods. We both talk a little, and I say, "I have enough to cover for rent for a while. I will take online freelance jobs, and after I give birth, I will find a job."
"We will figure this out together. Just calm down," she says.
I nod and think about how I will tell my parents. I told them about how Lucien and I broke up. I also know that my parents will support me in this pregnancy, and my mum will ask me to tell Lucien. I will not tell him. He blocked me everywhere, and if he could not believe I am innocent, he will probably ask me if the kids are his, or if I want to baby trap him. Well, in my case, babies trap him. I giggle at that and notice the way Ama is looking at me like I'm crazy. I go back home and think about how I will tell my parents about their upcoming grandbabies. Once again, I giggle at that.
'Stop acting crazy Genevive,' I tell myself, and look at my savings account. At least, the outrageous time I spent in Lucien's company is worth it. I plan how the money will be spent, and mentally thank God that Ama and I paid one year of our rent so, I am free for a bit. I am thinking about how life will be in the next eight months, and I am terrified. I have already confirmed that Lucien won't be present in my children's lives. I tried calling him, and even when his assistant realized I was the one, I was blocked. I sigh at that and think about my future. A kid is hard enough for me, two, will be unspeakably difficult, but I have my family here, Ama is also here. My support system will be right here, with me.