Jesse always said well, is not like it is his word because I know he quoted it from the Bible, 

"Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own." - Matthew 6:34.

But, this problem is now mine. I always like donkeys who fall to the same mistake again and again.

I throw myself into an unending well, like I never learn from my mistake, falling again and again, I kinda hate myself for it.

And now, I have to face my problem, the problem that I left for 12 years. I know at that time I was just a kid who wanted to leave.

I still can't control my anger and my words towards him, thinking that leaving is the best decision. I better leave than have to look at him with someone else.

And now I'm here, and I don't know what will happen if I meet him again.