" This is a lot , I need to go ." I say staggering again , I think this information has made me drunk again .
When I turn around to leave my eyes land on Arthur standing at a distance staring at us. I don't know how long he has been there and if he heard our conversation.
" Madin" he calls and I flinch to the sound of his voice .
He looks irritated. And I definately look guilty, as if I've been cought doing something wrong. I walk to him and when I get there He holds my hand pulling me with him to I don't know where..
We enter a certain room that I have no idea what it's for !
" Really now? Jeremy ! What were you doing in his arms like that ?!"
"Am drunk, he was just helping me " I say brushing off the topic . I don't even know why am explaining this to him , I mean, It's Jeremy ! His bodyguard, can't he help me when am in need ? I guess am feeling guilty because of what Jeremy has just told me , that's why am explaining myself to Arthur.
" Why are you drinking like this until you can't even walk steadily ? Do you know what impression of you it will leave ?"
" Am going to rest " I say walking away but as always he pull me back , why does he like doing this to me everytime, he's gonna pull off my arm one day .
"You keep walking away everytime I try to talk to you , what's the meaning of that? "
" Your Highness , why don't you go back and continue enjoying your marriage ceremony with your new wedded wife , I really have no energy and mood to have a conversation with you right no...!"
Before I finish he pin me on the wall smashing his lips on mine , I really miss this feeling but right now am not in a state to stay still and feel it , am a confused walking corpse , I don't know what my position is , I don't know where my life is coming from and where it's heading to so I pull away , he just kissed her and now he's putting his lips on mine .
" You are jealous and you were pretending to be fine with everything!" He say annoyed probably because I pulled away from the kiss .
" You didn't except me not to be jealous , did you ? I mean, it's obvious that I'll be jealous , you were looking all happy and satisfied with everything when talking to her , how can I smile and still say everything is okay? You love her , I can see it and yet you pretend not to !"
"Madin , Have you ever realized that all we do is fight ?! We are okay this minute and the rest of the day we're fighting, don't you get tired of that ?! Because I really do ! You allowed me to do this although I know we had no choice, why are you giving me a hard time then ? " he say holding my hands in his . " I already told you, my feelings for you are not something that can just vanish in a thin air , so stop worrying about me loving lady Catherina, you will always come first , and that will never change , I really do love you so much ." he say almost in a whisper.
All the hurting feelings in me vanish and I find myself hugging him tears flowing down my cheeks . He just assured me of that and I guess that's all I needed . Love can really make someone blind.
"I love you too ."
" Okay c'mon , I'll take you to my room so that you can have a rest." he say taking my hand .
" I want to go in my room ." I say .
"Why , don't you Want to spend the night with me?"
" Aren't you supposed to sleep with Catherina? I mean, she is your wife , doesn't that mean you will be sharing the same room?"
" No , she'll have her own room , she can only come when she has something important to do . " he say making me a little more happy .
" Okay then " I say smiling broadly.
When we get to his room he opens the door only for us to be met by a presence of a woman with only underwears sitting on Arthur's bed seductively. I couldn't help but gasp in disbelief, Arthur is looking at her without even blinking once .
His expression is not readable, as if he's taken aback , as if he is flustered , as if he is confused, as if he is nervous.
"What are.. you doing.. here ?" He ask stuttering.
" What do you mean by what am I doing here? It's our first night my dear husband, don't you know what happens on the first nights of married couples? Mmh.. look at you , so innocent. " Ugh! I feel like strangling her , doesn't she have any shame or even self respect?! She is totally beautiful with a very adorable body shape but her behaviour is rotten.
Am out of here .
I take my hand away from Arthur's and turn around to leave because apparently this woman is trying to make me feel bad because of the way she is looking at me while rambling a lot of nothing!
Arthur looks at me leaving , he doesn't say anything . In my room I pace around, my mind refusing to let go of the thought of what they are going to do.
I try to repeat what Arthur told me earlier several time." he loves me , he is with her because of a heir , I will always come first and that will never change!" I repeat several times and take a deep breath which help me relax .
I sit on my bed but within few minutes I couldn't stay still anymore ! I think I need something that will knock me off until tomorrow .
I walk back to the hall where the event took place hoping to find some alcohol .
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