I manage to part my lips from his, he doesn't resist to let go this time but he refuse to let of my body go , he holds me closely caressing my back , neck and my cheek.
" Ar..thur.. " I say his name in a whisper , with so much difficulty, I didn't mean to call him that , it just came out , I feel his lips curl into a smile on the side of my neck.
He holds me even tighter .
" Thi..s is wrong, please.. let me go.. it's.. really wrong.." I manage to finish my sentence after so much difficulty.
" I love you, I really love you , please tell me of your fears , I'll fix everything.. then we can be together happily." he say in response.
" You don't understand.." I say .
" How can I understand if you don't tell me , my love , please say it , whatever it is , just tell me ."
" You won't love me anymore if I tell you "
" Dare me , my feelings for you are something out of this world , I doubt anything can change them , I've never felt a thing like this , so strong... really strong, tell me of your worries , please"
" I.. am.. am.. I.."
Suddenly a knock comes on the door making us jolt again . Like we've been in another world we come back to reality.
" Brother , are you in ? Am coming ."
His favourite sister.. why is he still refusing to let me go when someone is coming in .
Princess Amelia opens the door coming in , she stops on the doorway her eyes widening after seeing us .
" What is it that you want now , can't you leave me alone?" he ask putting his arm around my shoulders facing the surprised princess, am trying to get away but he's just so strong for me.
" My apologies, I'll come some other time . " she say turning around.
" No.. My princess, I was just leaving, you can stay.. " I say desperately hopping she stays so that I can go away .
" No , you were not g.." the prince say but I cut him .
" Duties.. I have.. " I move away and he let me go.
I don't hesitate , I go straight outside the door closing the door behind me , my legs feel so weak , I stand out trying to get balance .
" Do you have any idea what you've just interrupted?! Goodness! What is your problem? She was gonna open up to me but you ruined that chance for me! You have no idea what I've gone through to get her agree to talk to me!" I hear the prince's angry voice from inside the room.
" Are you still forcing yourself on her ? " I hear princess Amelia ask which really surprise me .
" Am not , she responds to my touches positively , how is that forcing myself on her , I know she feels something for me too , I just don't get why she's refusing it , she was about to tell me when you barged in , what is your problem ?!"
" Am sorry.. if she wants to tell you then she'll tell you.. brother o brother .. you really love this girl don't you ? I've never seen you this desperate. "
" What I feel for her is not explainable, I can't find words to describe it , I don't want to force her , I really hope she just accept me on her own. Do you maybe know how I can convince her ? I mean , You are a girl you must know how , maybe I suck at it that's why she is refusing me . "
" In her case , I really have no idea , many girls are dying to have you even just look at them , but her.. There must be something so serious that is making her reject you."
I walk away down the stairs , completely lost , is there any magic that can change a person's gender? Because I would really run for it without a second thought . ' I wonder as I walk out of the mansion.
There's only one place I can go to now to seek comfort. To Michael,,
"There you are , I've been waiting for you like forever " Michael say immediately he sees me , we're on the narrow empty pathway that leads to the knight's quarters.
" Come on , there's a way out and it's now."
What? He make me enter some old building to change into a knight's outfit.
"Aren't you done yet ? We have no time , we're almost leaving." He say coming in and finds me changed , and I've removed my fake hair and my fake breasts . Standing there , staring at nothing.
"Why are you crying?!" He ask. " You don't want to leave?"
" I.. I.. love him ." I don't want to leave him , I feel terrible, the pain in my chest is unbearable.
" Madin ! What are you talking about?! Are you forgetting that you are a man and not a woman?! Just because he said he loves you thinking that you are a girl, so now it's making you emotional and forgetting that you are a boy ,, no , you don't love him because it's just impossible ?! This is not the time for this , if you miss this chance to leave be sure I won't be able to get you out of this place again , and if you stay you'll have to marry him , and then what ? For him to find out for himself that you are not a girl ?!
Come on , everyone love that man and they wish to have him but they don't have a chance to have him , but they are still alive , surviving. "
" There's the difference between me and them , he loves me ! He doesn't love them !" I argue, refusing to accept that am just a nobody to him .
" Come back to your senses kid! Madin! You are not a female , do you hear me ?! No matter how much you claim to love him and he loves you , you can never be together, do you understand !? "
He yell at me , I should stop giving him a hard time when he's trying to help me .
" Yes " I answer weakly .
" Good , now let's go."
,,,,,,If a person looks closely he would notice me if they have ever seen me maybe thrice or so , but am wearing a hat that almost covers my whole face . We join the many other knights who are going out on a mission.
He said we will stop at a place to eat and that's when I should leave the group, and stay around that place until he come back for me .
We pass the exit successfully, no one is paying me attention because we are so many . As I go away from the palace , my heart breaks even more.
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