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Chapter 32 - Hmmm

The morning light crept through the curtains, casting soft shadows in my room. I blinked awake, feeling the weight of anxiety pressing down on my chest.

Today was the day of the hearing, and everything felt so heavy—like a storm cloud hovering over my head. I sat up slowly, taking a deep breath to gather my thoughts.

What would happen today? Would the judge understand how much I loved my kids? Would I be able to show that I was the best person for them?

I couldn't help but think of Jake and Lily. They were just kids, and I wanted to protect them from all the stress of this court case. I didn't want them to worry, but I knew they could sense my tension.

I swung my legs over the side of the bed and rubbed my eyes. Today was a big day, and I needed to be strong for them. I stood up and walked to the bathroom to splash some water on my face.

Looking in the mirror, I barely recognized the person staring back. My hair was a mess, and dark circles under my eyes showed I hadn't slept well.

As I brushed my teeth, I thought about Rebecca. She was still in the hospital, fighting to wake up. I wished she could be here today.

I wanted her to see how much I was trying for our family. I took a moment to collect myself, reminding myself of the promise I made to her—to keep our kids safe and happy.

After getting dressed, I headed to the kitchen. The smell of coffee filled the air, a familiar and comforting scent. I poured myself a cup,

hoping it would help wake me up and shake off some of the heaviness I felt. As I took my first sip, I glanced out the window at the bright morning. The world looked so normal, but my heart was anything but.

I needed to focus. I pulled out the notes I had prepared for the hearing. They were filled with reminders of why I was fighting so hard. I wanted to show the judge how much I loved Jake and Lily,

how much they meant to me. I had also written down some points about how Claire had treated the kids in the past, how she had been distant and even cruel. I knew I had to highlight that to protect them.

Sitting at the kitchen table, I reviewed my notes again. "Ryan, you can do this," I muttered to myself, trying to boost my confidence.

"Think of the kids. You're doing this for them." I practiced some of my statements, imagining myself standing in front of the judge. I wanted my words to come out strong and clear.

Just then, I heard little footsteps coming down the hall. Jake and Lily appeared, still in their pajamas but looking cute and sleepy.

Their faces brightened when they saw me, and it made my heart swell with love. "Good morning, Dad!" they chimed in unison.

"Morning, you two!" I said, trying to sound cheerful. "How did you sleep?"

"Good!" Lily said, her hair sticking up in all directions. She had that sweet, innocent smile that always melted my heart. Jake nodded, but I could see a hint of concern in his eyes.

"Are we really going to court today?" he asked, his voice a little shaky.

"Yes, we are," I replied gently. "But remember, we're just going to talk about how much we love each other and how we can stay together as a family."

Lily reached for my hand. "I don't want to be apart," she said quietly. I felt a lump in my throat. I wanted to assure them that everything would be okay, but I knew there were no guarantees.

"Me neither," Jake added, looking down at his feet. "Will Claire be there?"

I took a deep breath. I didn't want to scare them, but I knew they had questions. "Yes, she will be. But focus on us, okay? We're a team, and I'll always be here for you both."

They nodded, but I could see the worry on their faces. I quickly decided to shift the mood. "How about we have some breakfast? I made your favorite pancakes!"

Their eyes lit up. "Pancakes!" Lily squealed, and suddenly their worries seemed to fade away. I felt a wave of relief wash over me.

As I cooked, I told them silly stories about the time I tried to make pancakes and accidentally spilled the batter everywhere. They laughed and giggled, and it felt good to see their smiles.

After breakfast, we cleaned up together, turning the chore into a little game where we raced to see who could put away the most dishes.

Once everything was tidy, I reminded them that we needed to get ready.

"Let's pick out something nice to wear today," I suggested. They eagerly agreed, and we headed to their rooms.

Jake chose a blue button-up shirt that made him look sharp. Lily picked out a bright yellow dress that twirled when she spun around.

They looked so cute, and I couldn't help but feel proud. I wanted them to feel good about themselves today.

As we finished getting ready, I looked at the time. It was getting close to when we needed to leave.

"Okay, let's grab our stuff and get in the car," I said. We gathered up a few snacks and toys to keep them occupied while we waited at the courthouse.

Before we headed out, I knelt down to their level. "Remember, no matter what happens today, I love you both so much," I said earnestly.

"You're my everything, and I'll always fight for you."

They both nodded, their expressions serious but filled with trust. I took a moment to hug them tightly, feeling their warmth against me.

It was the best reminder of why I was fighting so hard.

Once we were in the car, I turned on their favorite music to help lighten the mood. We sang along, and I watched them laugh and smile.

It made my heart swell with hope. We were a family, and together we could get through anything.

As we drove toward the courthouse, I felt the nerves creeping back in. The building loomed ahead, tall and imposing.

I parked the car and took a deep breath. "Okay, team, we're here," I said, trying to sound brave.

I could see the worry in their eyes again. "Let's hold hands," I suggested.

They reached for me, and together we walked toward the entrance. The heavy doors swung open, and we stepped inside.

The courthouse was busy, with people moving around and talking in hushed voices. I felt a bit out of place, but I focused on Jake and Lily, keeping them close. "Stay with me," I reminded them softly.

As we reached the waiting area, I spotted my lawyer, Mr. Thompson. He waved at us and came over with a warm smile. "Good morning, Ryan! Kids, how are you?" he asked, kneeling down to their level.

"Good!" they said together, still holding my hands tightly.

Mr. Thompson nodded. "I'm glad to hear that. Are you all ready for today?"

I took a deep breath. "Trying to be," I replied honestly.

As we waited for our turn, I could feel the tension in the air. I watched other families come and go, each with their own stories. I wondered how many of them were facing challenges like mine.

Finally, it was our turn to go into the courtroom. My heart raced as I led Jake and Lily inside. The judge sat at a high desk, looking serious and focused. I knew I had to make a good impression.

We took our seats in the front row. I held Jake and Lily's hands tightly, wanting to give them comfort. I could feel their little hearts beating fast, just like mine.

The judge called the hearing to order, and my lawyer stood up to present our case. I listened closely, nodding as he spoke about how important it was for kids to feel safe and loved.

I felt proud to hear him talk about our family and how much I cared for Jake and Lily.

When it was my turn to speak, I took a deep breath. Standing in front of the judge, I thought of Jake and Lily.

"Your Honor," I began, trying to keep my voice steady,

"I'm here today because I love my kids more than anything in the world. I want them to know they're safe and loved."

As I spoke, I could see Jake and Lily looking at me with trust in their eyes. It made me feel strong.

I shared stories about our family, the times we had spent together, the laughter we shared, and how I always made sure they felt supported.

After I finished speaking, I felt a mix of relief and nerves. I glanced at the judge, hoping I had made a good impression.

I was determined to show her how much my children meant to me and how much I wanted to keep them together.

The hearing continued with testimonies from my brother Mark and sister Emma. Their support made me feel stronger.

They talked about how I had always been there for the twins and how much they loved being with us.

As the hearing progressed, I noticed Claire sitting with her lawyer, looking confident. I could feel the tension rising, but I focused on Jake and Lily.

They were my priority, and I would do anything to protect them.

When the judge began to ask questions, I felt a wave of determination wash over me. I would fight for my children no matter what.

As the day unfolded, I knew I had to stay strong for them. I was their dad, and I would always be their champion.