"I've got no reason to lie about this! You should trust me more."
My friend, Elizabeth, says to me as we eat lunch.
"When have you been truthful? You have a new crush every week."
My friend Mike tells her.
"It's true though, your crushes never last."]
I tell her.
"What do YOU know about love Apo? 17 years on this damn earth, you've never talked to us about girls, hell, even guys."
Elizabeth tells me.
I lower my head slightly, still making eye contacting with her.
"Atleast im not delusional, i dont keep repeating the same mistakes like you Izzy."
I tell her, truthfully, i'm a bit annoyed at having heard this argument from her again.
"I think you're both stupid, its all about the balan-"
Mike tries saying something, but Izzy and i cut him off.
"Shut up, you've had a girlfriend for years now."
We tell him in a raised voice. I'm not sure if i'm jealous of him, but i'm sure Izzy is.
"Well clearly im doing something right here!" He responds with even louder than us, pausing for a second to lower his voice.
"All i'm saying is, i'm clearly doing something better than the two of you."
He says, a smug look on his face. I wish i could wipe it off.
These people... these pointless converstations, i dont enjoy them.
I dont really push them away, but at the same time, i dont attempt to entertain them. They choose to follow me around.
It's more like... i tolerate them.
I believe reliance on other's is a burden on ones self.
I have the oppurtunity, to use these people if i wanted to. But even then, using someone is to expect success from them, i dont wish to be promised something just for it to not come true.
Will i ever find love? It doesn't concern me. I can't even consider the people around me as friends.
School is long over by this point, and Apo is making his way back home.
This town is always so damn loud, i can't even make a sense of a single voice with everyone screaming.
...
I hear that clearly though.
Apo makes his way inside an alley.
I hear a girl crying... a couple of men too.
"I'm not doing anything for you scumbags!" A female voice yells out, she does sound distressed.
"We are just tryna have some fun around here! What's ya problem?"
One of the men says.
Hah, the world will keep moving right?
...
Why haven't i left yet though? It's not like i care.
"Just play along and no one gets hurt!" Another male voice yells out, holding onto her wrists.
I look down im my pocket, a small switchblade burried within. I only keep it around because it makes me feel cool, like an anime character. I'm not even sure its real. Guy i bought it from was sketchy.
Wait, what am i even thinking? This is none of my business. I shouldn't get involved.
Slowly pulling the switchblade out and flipping it open, my heartbeat starts racing.
Shit... im stupid.
Slowly turning the corner, i make a dash for the group of men and the girl. Hands shaking but holding onto the switchblade as if it's my lifeline.
Before i can do anything however, the girl lets out a screech that makes my ears bleed in an instant, sending me tumbling back and making me drop the knife.
For the next few seconds, i can only look down as i make out unidentifiable sounds of impacts and splashes.
Looking back up as the sound subsides, i look in confusion and terror, seeing the girl's warm green hair glowing intensly, her eyes completely blank.
Looking down from the glow, i see them, the three men, all laying on the floor, their throats soared open with seamless openings.
Th.. there's no way she did that right? What the in the absolute fuck?
Shit... i feel my heart beating... run... i have to get out of here!
As i try to sheepishly stand up, the girl turns her attention to me directly.
Shit... fuck! She doesn't think i was with them right?!
"Ah... you..."
she says, looking at me curiously yet blankly.
Fuck...
"You're like me... i think."
She tells me, tilting her head at me.
I... what the hell is she saying?! Fuck this! She"s completely mad!
I quickly tense up my body and turn around, trying to dash away from her, the alleyway. Trying to live.
"Wait! Come back!"
She yells out after me, but not trying to give chase.
"You'll ease the burden on me, wont you boy?"
What the fuck! She's i've covered so much ground, she's not even near me! But it sounds like she's directly whispering to me!
I quickly exit the alleyway, and get lost in a crowd of people.
What the hell is going on?! Why can i hear her?! Its like she's in my damn head!
"Two of them... you'll take two."
"I'll have only half of this tragedy with you around."
"We'll get to know eachother."
What the hell is she saying?! Get out of my head you freak!
She's only getting fucking louder! What the hell is happening?!
Shit... shit...
"SHUT UP!"
I yell loudly, a few people turning to look at me, but the crowd goes on uninterrupted.
Apo clutches his head the entire walk home, making his way to his room and slamming his bedroom door shut, throwing himself on his bed.
I still fucking hear her... stop it... stop speaking to me. I dont understand you.
You're saying gibberish!
"Fuck it... i'll just sleep through her mumbling..." i whisper to myself.
Apo heads off to bed early, before eventually waking up, and making his way back to school.
Well... i dont hear her anymore atleast... but...
Apo looks around.
"I'm being stared at for some reason..." I murmur to myself.
I'm just gonna go to my usual spot, with my usual two freaks.
Making my way to my usual lunch table, Elizabeth and Mike look at me in awe and confusion.
"Woah... what happend there?"
Elizabeth asks.
"Didn't know you were that type of guy."
Mike says.
"What the hell are you guys talking about?"
I ask them confused, everyone is acting strange today.
"Look at him pretending he hasn't noticed."
Mike says.
"You're not fooling anyone pal."
Elizabeth says.
Whatever, they are all just being weird like usual, see if i care.
"I gotta take a leak."
I tell them, heading off to the bathroom.
After i'm done, as i go to wash my hands, i take a look at myself in the mirror.
"W-what the fuck?!"
I yell loudly, the other people pissing cutting off their streams.
Why the fuck is my hair blue?! I didnt do this!
Shit shit shit! Okay... calm down.
Apo audibly sighs, staring himself in the mirror.
"She has something to do with this, doesn't she?" I whisper to myself.