Chapter 15:
The sound of fists pounding heavy bags echoed through the gym as Jack wrapped his hands in worn tape, preparing for another training session. But today wasn't just about his own practice. Lena had introduced him to a new routine—a new purpose. One that went beyond personal training and stepping into the cage.
Across the gym, a group of teenagers hovered awkwardly near the corner, their postures tense and defensive. They were the new recruits—young, troubled, and drawn to the gym for reasons far deeper than a love for MMA. For most of them, fighting wasn't about sport or competition. It was survival. An outlet for the anger and pain they couldn't express anywhere else.
Jack's eyes landed on one of them—a boy no older than 16, standing apart from the group. His face was hard, jaw clenched, as if daring anyone to talk to him. Jack recognized that look. He had worn it himself once. The boy's name was Leo, and according to Lena, he had been in and out of trouble for years, using his fists to cope with a broken home and a world that seemed hell-bent on breaking him.
"Alright, everyone, let's get started!" Lena called out, her voice cutting through the noise. The teens moved toward the center of the gym, still unsure, still guarded. Lena gave Jack a nod, signaling him to join them.
Jack took a deep breath and approached the group, feeling a wave of uncertainty himself. He had never seen himself as a teacher, but Lena had insisted that working with these kids might give him a new perspective. After weeks of wrestling with his demons, the idea had appealed to him—a chance to give back, to help others find the peace he was still searching for.
He stepped into the circle, feeling all their eyes on him. Some looked curious, others bored, but Leo's gaze was sharp and hostile.
"Alright," Jack said, his voice steady but calm. "I know why you're all here. Fighting is what brought you to this gym, but we're not just here to learn how to throw punches. MMA isn't just about beating someone in the cage. It's about control—of your body, your mind, your emotions. If you don't have control, you don't have anything."
A few of the kids nodded, but Leo crossed his arms, his eyes narrowing. Jack could sense the challenge in his stare, the unspoken doubt. Who are you to tell me what control looks like?
Lena jumped in. "Jack's right. MMA isn't just about aggression. If that's all you're bringing into the ring, you'll lose every time. Today, we're going to work on focus—on staying grounded even when your mind wants to rage."
She gestured toward the punching bags lining the gym. "Partner up. One of you will hold the bag while the other practices strikes. But the goal isn't just to hit as hard as you can. It's to hit with intention, with focus. Controlled power. Let's go."
The teens shuffled to the bags, pairing off with each other. Jack watched as Leo reluctantly grabbed a bag, standing off to the side, clearly not eager to participate.
Jack walked over to him, keeping his tone casual. "You want to go a few rounds with me?"
Leo's jaw tightened, but he didn't refuse. He shifted into position, bracing himself against the bag as Jack took up his stance.
Jack threw a few measured jabs, hitting the bag with controlled precision. "The key is to strike with purpose, not anger. If you're just swinging with rage, you'll burn out. You'll lose your form, your focus. It's all about balance."
Leo watched him for a moment, then shrugged. "What if I don't care about balance? What if I just want to hit something?"
Jack stopped mid-strike and turned to face him. He could see the hurt beneath Leo's bravado, the walls the boy had built to protect himself. It was a familiar feeling—the need to lash out, to hurt something or someone just to release the pressure inside.
"I get it," Jack said quietly. "I used to feel the same way. But you know what I've learned? Hitting something only helps for a minute. After that, the anger's still there. The only way to really deal with it is to face it. In here." He tapped his chest, near his heart.
Leo scoffed, clearly not convinced. "What do you know about it?"
Jack looked at him for a long moment, then stepped back from the bag. "I lost my brother. He was killed in the ring during a fight. For a long time, I thought the only way to deal with that pain was to fight. To get revenge. But all that did was drag me deeper into the anger. It wasn't until I stopped fighting for revenge and started fighting for myself that I realized what I was really looking for. Peace."
Leo's eyes flickered, his expression softening for just a moment before the hardened mask returned. "Peace? Sounds like a load of crap to me."
Jack smiled, not offended by the boy's skepticism. "Yeah, I get that too. But trust me—if all you're doing is fighting because you're angry, it's going to eat you alive. You're better than that."
Leo didn't respond, but Jack could see the internal battle playing out in the boy's eyes. It reminded him of his own struggle—how he had resisted Lena's words at first, unwilling to admit that fighting could be about more than rage. It had taken him time to understand that MMA wasn't just a physical outlet—it was a way to heal, to channel the pain into something constructive.
Over the next few days, Jack continued to work with the teens, helping them with their technique but also talking to them about the mental side of the sport. Slowly, the walls began to come down. The gym became more than just a place to train—it became a refuge, a space where the kids could release their anger in a controlled, safe environment and start to rebuild their confidence.
Leo, though still guarded, began to open up, asking Jack questions about Ethan, about fighting, about life. Jack didn't push him but answered honestly, sharing his own struggles and the lessons he had learned along the way.
As the weeks went by, Jack found himself looking forward to the sessions with the teens. They reminded him of why he had started this journey in the first place. Not for revenge, not for victory, but for healing. Watching them grow, seeing them gain confidence and control, gave Jack a new sense of purpose—one that had nothing to do with winning fights in the cage.
It was during one of these sessions that Lena approached him, watching as he worked with Leo on a grappling technique. She smiled, her eyes full of pride. "You're doing good work, Jack. These kids need someone like you. Someone who gets it."
Jack glanced at her, then back at Leo, who was finally starting to loosen up. "I'm just trying to help them the way you helped me."
Lena chuckled softly. "You've found your purpose, Jack. It's not just about the fight anymore."
Jack nodded, a small smile playing at his lips. For the first time in a long time, he felt like he was on the right path—one that wasn't fueled by anger or pain, but by a genuine desire to make a difference.
He wasn't just fighting for Ethan anymore. He was fighting for himself, and for the kids who, like him, were still trying to find their way.