Chapter 20:
Jack sat alone in the dimly lit locker room, heart beating steady but soft. The final match was creeping closer, just a few hours away. It was quiet now, that chaos in his head he'd been living with for months seemed to have calmed down. He wasn't sure if he was ready or not, but for the first time in a long time, he felt... still. Like the eye of a storm.
The air felt thick, heavy, like something big was about to happen. And it was. Jack had been chasing this moment since that day, the day Ethan died in the ring. Rico "The Beast" Martinez took his brother's life with that brutal, illegal hit. It was all so quick, so unfair. Now, Jack was about to step into the cage with the man himself. The state champ. The guy who Jack had come to see as the villain in all of this.
But as he sat there, hands moving in that familiar rhythm, wrapping the tape around his knuckles, something felt... different. The rage, the adrenaline—it wasn't there like it used to be. Instead, something quieter had settled inside him. It wasn't fear, but it wasn't satisfaction either. It was just... weight.
Jack thought about Ethan, like he always did before fights. His brother had loved this sport. Not for the violence, but for the challenge. He'd never cared about winning or losing; it was always about pushing himself, finding his limits. Jack used to think it was crazy, how Ethan talked about fighting like it was some kind of art form. But now... maybe he got it a little better.
Still, the big question hung there: What did this fight mean? Was facing Rico going to give Jack that closure he'd been chasing? Would it stop the nightmares? Or would it just make things worse, open up wounds that never had the chance to heal?
Jack leaned back, eyes drifting up to the ceiling, letting out a long breath. He hadn't seen Rico since that day in the ring. The day Ethan didn't get back up. Jack still remembered the look on Rico's face—cold, like Ethan's life didn't matter. That image haunted him for so long. But now, sitting here, so close to facing him, Jack wasn't sure anymore. Had he been putting all his focus in the wrong place?
"Is this even what I want?" he muttered to no one.
He thought back to the training, to the long hours in the gym, and to Lena, always steady, always there. She'd told him time and time again, MMA wasn't just about fighting. It was about control, about mastering yourself—your mind, your emotions. She saw the rage in Jack when he first showed up, saw how lost he was. That's why she took him under her wing, to help him find something more than just revenge.
Jack sighed, dragging his hand through his hair. He wasn't the same guy who walked into the gym all those months ago. He was "The Ghost" now, a fighter in his own right. Not just Ethan's brother, not just a guy fueled by anger. He had something more to fight for—himself.
But that didn't answer the question: Would beating Rico make it all better, or was it just another way to dodge the real pain?
The locker room door creaked open, and Lena walked in, her usual calm self. She didn't say anything at first, just sat down next to Jack, like she could sense the storm inside him.
"You ready?" she asked, her voice soft but strong.
Jack hesitated. "I don't know."
She looked at him for a second, eyes reading him like always. "What's goin' on in your head?"
Jack dropped his head into his hands. "This fight... Rico... I've been so focused on gettin' here, but now that it's about to happen, I'm not even sure I know why I'm doin' this anymore."
Lena nodded like she understood. "You think fightin' Rico is gonna balance things out. Like it'll somehow make up for what happened to Ethan."
Jack's jaw clenched. "Isn't that what this is about? Making it right?"
Lena shook her head, just a little. "Fighting Rico ain't gonna bring Ethan back. You know that."
Jack's fists tightened, frustration bubbling up again. "Then why the hell did I do all this? Why come this far if not to make him pay?"
Lena reached out, placed a hand on his shoulder. "You didn't come this far for revenge, Jack. You came this far for you. To heal. I've seen it. You've grown, not just as a fighter, but as a person. You've learned control, patience. You found something beyond just fightin'."
"But Rico—" Jack started.
"Rico's part of your past," she interrupted. "He don't have to be part of your future. This fight ain't about him anymore, Jack. It's about you."
Jack just sat there, taking it in. He knew she was right. This journey had turned into something more than just revenge. It had become about finding a way to live, to move forward, without letting the anger eat him alive.
"So what do I do?" Jack asked, voice quiet, unsure.
"You fight," Lena said. "But not for revenge. Not for justice. You fight for yourself. To prove you can get past this. That you've already won the hardest battle—the one inside."
Jack stared at her, her words sinking deep. He'd spent so long imagining this fight, thinking that beating Rico would fix everything. But maybe it was never about that. Maybe it was about finally letting go of the pain, the anger, and finding some peace.
He stood up, feeling the weight on his shoulders shift. He wasn't backing down, not now. But this fight wasn't about Rico anymore. It was about closure. His closure.
Lena stood too, giving him a small smile. "You got this, Jack."
He nodded, feeling more grounded than he had in months. As he walked toward the cage, the storm was still there, still coming. But now, Jack wasn't running toward it for revenge. He was walking through it, toward peace.
And win or lose, that was what really mattered.