what the fuck is he doing here? what the actual fuck. my brain filled up with i don't know what kind of crowded thoughts as soon as i saw him. as if i can't control my thoughts anymore, as if my brain forgot how it used to process.
Christian the absolute motherfucker whose only purpose of life is to chase success , what is he doing here. my hands starts to quiver.
" what happened Andria, you you're so pale all of a sudden?" Sarah asks me teasing, not knowing what's the reason.
i could reply nothing to her as the only subject my brain is focused on right now is him.
Sarah , now concerned, follows the direction of my eyes, " what happened Andria..?" she questioned again until she noticed the disaster. " wait ? is that? …" she also started to hesitate.
"… is that? isn't that your ex?" she says. hesitation is all over her voice.
"Listen! Look. At. Me!" Sarah's voice slices through the haze, her hands turning my head to face her. Her eyes are into mine, full of fire and determination. "Don't! DO NOT! You are Andria Duvall...….Not that helpless little girl anymore." She's almost pleading, willing me to stay on track, to not spiral back into that vulnerable place I fought so hard to escape.
I take a breath, nodding slowly. "I'm stronger now. Not as weak as before," I say, more to convince myself than her. Turning back into that fragile, broken version of myself isn't an option anymore. I refuse to let him or anyone else have that power over me again.
I exhale, shaking off the panic threatening to creep in. I turn around, forcing a casual smile, and dive back into the conversations I had left behind. I will not be brought down again. not ever.
Mr. Barnard takes the stage, his booming voice commanding the room's attention as he talks about his rise to success. The room darkens, the spotlight and cameras all focused on him as he delivers his speech. People clap with every word, hanging on his every line.
"As part of my expansion into the entertainment industry, I am excited to announce our new partnership with Grey Corporations."
Grey? I hear Sarah mutter under her breath, her voice laced with disbelief. My heartbeat quickens. Did he just say Grey Corporations? no way bitch. The room feels like it's closing in, and the lights shift, illuminating the other side of the stage.
And there he is.
again.
Christian Grey. The CEO of Grey Corporations, walking up to the stage as the applause swells. The room seems to hold its breath as he takes the spotlight, girls whispering about how impossibly handsome he is. I can hear the murmurs around me, the admiration for his looks, his success, his charm. they are just exaggerating bcz no way he's so hot. it just seems like it because of his dressing sense. I know better.
Sarah glances at me, her shocked face is so clear . "He's in a partnership with Christian Grey?" she whispers, almost to herself. " calm down bitch" i tell her to shake off bcz she looks way too damn obvious. The crowd around us buzzes with excitement, oblivious to the storm brewing inside me.