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Chapter 54 - Chapter 52. "Fade away."

I hope that this little entry, and this BIG holiday finds you all well.

-if you are one to celebrate that is!-

I thought I would put a chapter out before the year was out, and I figured you all would appreciate a bit more reading material for your winter breaks lol.

I am at work, but I will be okay.

I have bills to pay, and my birthday is just around the corner.

I hope you all have a dope day, and the rest of the year is just as good to you.

I won't keep you waiting!

See you all back here soon enough! 

Enjoy! 

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January 14th, 2013. 

Journal #052.

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It's been a while, but isn't it always a while between entries?

I need to keep up with this.

It keeps my mind from being so full.

I and XXXXX are still together.

That's not bad lol.

A bit strange, but not bad nonetheless.

I can say that I love her -and mean it.-

So why not make it work until it just works or just doesn't?

I can't say that I've been looking any place else, and that not be a lie.

I've no desire to leave or look.

I just yearn for the single life every now and then.

That's just who I am.

I probably will never be able to help that.

Maybe one day with the right mate it will fade away...

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It was always a while between my writing, and I have broken that habit these days.

I tend to write nearly every day that I work, and take the weekends off, although I should record some of those things as well lol, and I do now that I think of it.

Those should be crowd-pleasers in a decade or so lmao. 

-I was with this young lady for a bit if I can recall correctly.

It was weird to me because she was genuinely not my type, but I really cared for her on a level that I had not anticipated. It was something that would come around later to bite me in the ass. 

-I was one to look for love, and in that I was always one to look for people looking for me, you know?

I think that I was struggling with monogamy and I had no idea that maybe my heart wasn't made to love and care for just one woman.

I think that I will always be poly unless someone comes along and just blows my world apart...

I have been through so much at this point that I just can't care to be and project "The best man in the world" anymore. I will love and let love.

I will live and let live.

Love will come to me, or it won't lol

Such is life folks. 

Let's make 2025 a good year, yeah? 

I will see you all back here soon enough, if not?

Happy Holidays, and HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

Stay safe.

Stay healthy.

Stay vigilant.

-Redd.