Serayah
Dear Diary
I seen him again today. My body craves him. His eyes on me. His hands touching me. His deep voice in my ear. I want it all again.. but I know he doesn't remember that night. The very night he was blind drunk and confessed everything, the night he kissed me and I've replayed it in my mind consistently.
The way his hands gripped my waist, his tongue curling around mine, the groan that he couldn't hold back. And, the very thick, long and hard imprint in his pants that pressed into my stomach. God, I want him. I've always liked him. It will always be him.. Zeke Knight.
I drop my pen and shut my diary annoyed that I keep writing about him. Why can't I just have what I want? Because you're Serayah Knox. You don't get what you want.
I close my eyes and see him so vividly. His tall, muscular body with so many tattoos, his handsome face with unique greeny-blue eyes, his pierced nose and pump lips. God, he's beyond hot.
Shaking my head, I stand from my bed and stuff my diary underneath my mattress.
Picking up my phone, I see a text message from my best friend.
Alyssa: I wanna get drunk. We're going out! X
Me: Getting ready now. X
I drop my phone to my bed and walk to my bedroom window looking out at the neighbourhood I didn't grow up in. This is all new to me. The house, the people around me, all of it. I'm glad I have Alyssa still.. did I mention that Zeke is Alyssa's older brother. But they're all I know in this place I now call home.
After my mum was sexually assaulted and murdered, I went to live with her sister, my aunt Maria who died of cancer five years later.. but by the time that happened, I was eighteen and could take care of myself. So now at twenty, I have more money than sense and a best friend who's borderline becoming an alcoholic and she's fucking not one but two of her brothers best friend and now she can't choose..
Sighing at my thoughts, I quickly change into a little back dress and pull on my black thigh high boots.
Letting my long, wet hair fall down from the hair tie, I massage curling lotion thought it before brushing my edges down around my face. Wiping my hands, I grab my coconut lipbalm and apply some to my plump lips and grab my over the shoulder black purse.
Picking up my phone, perfume, and bankcard, I head out my bedroom texting Alyssa.
Me: Ordering an Uber to where? X
I drop my phone on the kitchen counter with my purse and pull out the bottle of vodka when my phone buzzers.
Alyssa: Come to me. Zeke's having a party X
Fucking hell, Alyssa! I put the vodka back and grab the sambucca and a shot glass. Pouring myself one, and shotting it, then another before I text her back.
Me: Okay hunny X
I hit send and quickly order myself an Uber before taking another shot and putting the bottle back and the glass in the sink.
Grabbing my keys on the way out, I lock up behind me and see my Uber pull up just in time.
Climbing out my Uber, I see Alyssa coming out of the entrance of her apartment in a short yellow dress and silver heels with her long chestnut hair flowing around her shoulders. She always looks stunning.
"Hey!" She calls walking towards me and hugging me tightly.
"Hi babes, you okay?" I ask her and she pulls back smiling.
"Yep! You know Zeke can throw a party" she says when a Addison Lee pulls up and I roll my eyes knowing Zeke sent it.
"Come on, girly" she says chuckling and climbing into the back. I slip in after feeling nervous to see Zeke. Just because I seen him earlier, he didn't see me. God, I feel like a stalker.
"So Zayden and Kol will be there and I'm feeling a little stuck in the middle" she says and I raise my brow at her.
"You said you wasn't feeling Kol?" I remind her and she shrugs.
"Yeah but he text me and said he wanted to see me tonight, I think I pushed him away a little to quick" she says and I chuckle shaking my head. She's clearly in a new faze, denial.
"Maybe. He is the nicer one" I say because Zayden is a bit of a dickhead. Good-looking but still a dickhead nonetheless.
"Yeah, I guess" she says and looks out the window as we arrive onto Zeke's road hearing thumping music the closer we get and I start to feel my stomach knot at the thought of seeing him.
"You ready, babe?" Alyssa asks when the car pulls up and I hum grabbing my purse and climbing out the car along with her. God, I hope he's in a good mood. Party or not, if Zeke's in a mood, I don't wanna be around.
I walk around the back of the car and Alyssa links arms with me as we walk through the people scattered around outside and up the steps.
Heading through the huge front door, I scan the place instantly until my eyes land on Zeke making out with some blonde and I feel my whole body deflate as I turn away not being about to look any longer. What was you expecting?
"I need a drink" I tell Alyssa in her ear and walk towards the open kitchen feeling eyes burning into me.
I swipe up a bottle of cherry vodka and crack the seal before swigging from it and feeling a arm circle around my waist.
"Long time, pretty one" I hear a deep voice in my ear and blink as it registers and I turn towards it to see Zayden and smirk.
"Don't flirt with me, I've known you forever" I tell him and he chuckles.
"Would you rather I was horrible?" He asks, tilting his head and I smirk at him.
"No, obviously. If you're looking for Alyssa she's around somewhere" I tell him and he shrugs.
"I know she's talking to Kol" he says and I raise my brow at him. Oh shit..
"Doubtful, hunny" I just say and swig from the vodka again. Fuck, fuck, fuck!
"So.. I'm gonna talk to you, beautiful" he says and I laugh and walk away with the bottle in hand. I am not about to help him make my best friend jealous. Crazy fucker.
"What did Zayden say?" I hear Alyssa as she comes up beside me and takes the vodka, swigging from it.
"Well, he knows about you and Kol" I tell her pouting and she does it back and swigs again.
Yeah, she's going to need that.
"Fucking Zeke!" She growls and shoves the bottle at me and storms off but I follow suit.. to make sure she didn't do something ridiculous. Like bottle her brother. With my vodka.
She stops right in front of him sitting on his sofa with a different blonde on his lap and smilies sickly sweet at his sister.
"What the fuck is wrong with you!?" Alyssa yells at him and he smirks.
"Who's she?" The girl on his lap asks and he pushes her off him and stands.
"What now, little sister?" He asks smug and pockets his hands in his dark jeans and looks to me letting his eyes trail my body making it heat up but he looks back to his sister.
"You fucking told him!" She stresses and he shrugs.
"You shouldn't try fuck my friends" he says and brushes past her and stops next to me.
"You look good, Serayah" he says leaning into my ear and walking away just like that leaving me with a racing heart and a stressful best friend. Thanks.
It took me a good hour to calm Alyssa and not let her smash up his house like she wanted to. But as we sit outside in his huge back gadden, smoking a joint, I wonder why he'd need such a big place for himself? Yeah, he throws regular parties but when the lights go down and its just him, isn't he lonely here? My chest aches at that though not liking it and smoking a little harder on the joint to calm myself down. He shouldn't affect me this much, but I can't help it.
"Feeling better, sister?" I hear from behind me and then feel Zeke lean on the back of my chair. His scent wraps around me and I feel like I'm floating on a cloud of him. Sandalwood, a little citrus and a hint of coconut. God it's incredible, it makes my mouth water.
"Go away, Zeke" Alyssa tells him crossing her arms over her chest as she sits in front of me and when I feel him no longer wrapped around me I feel bummed, but then he suddenly comes around and sits next to me lifting his leg up onto his knee and his arm drapes over the back of me and my body tingles tenfold.
"Don't be moody, sister. What if I wanted to fuck all your friends?" He says and I bite my lip at the though of Zeke spreading my legs and taking what he wants.
I feel his eyes on me and I swallow the lump and lean forward picking up my drink from he table.
"It's not the same and you know it" she says and Zeke raises his brow.
"What if I like them and I can't choose?" She says and sighs and she's really in a pickle.
"Well you're fucking shit up" Zeke says annnoyed and looks back to me.
"Is she talking shit to me?" he asks me and I shake my head.
"She wouldn't lie to you" I tell him and he stares at me intensely for a moment making me shift in my seat and my heart thump harder.
"What you doing, man?" I hear from behind me and look over my shoulder to see Kol and Zayden behind us. They don't look so friendly.
"Talking, come drink with us" Zeke says and holds up a bottle of whiskey and looks to me again. Why does he keep looking at me?
I watch as they both walk up to Alyssa and sit either side of her making her look to me but I shrug smirking, what am I supposed to do?
"Ain't you two cute together" Kol says looking between Zeke and me and I feel my cheeks heat and thank god its dark out here and lift my glass drinking. God sake Kol.
"Shut up, weirdo" I tell him putting my drink down and shifting away from Zeke who seems to have moved closer.
"I'm serious, I never seen it until now" he continues and I'm wondering why Zeke hasn't said anything, shut him down..
"I don't fuck my little sisters friends" Zeke says and I feel my stomach twist with disappointment and I cross my legs moving further away.
"But we can fuck yours?" Zayden says smirking and I watch Zeke clench his jaw and drop his leg leaning forward.
"You wanna say that again!?" Zeke growls and a shiver runs down my spine. I look to Zayden who's quiet now and Kol who looks at anything but Zeke.
"You're done. I'm taking you home" Zeke demands and stands glaring at Alysss.
"What did I do?" She whines and crosses her arms not moving.
"Ruining my fucking party" he says pissed and walks around grabbing her by the arm and yanking her up.
"Whoa, man. Don't touch her so aggressively" Kol says standing up to Zeke and I look to Alyssa giving her the 'I told you so, he's nice' eyes.
"Don't tell me what to do with my sister" Zeke commands and Kol stands his ground for Alyssa against his best friend.
"If you wanna keep your teeth, I suggest you sit down and shut up" Zeke threatens and Alyssa soon stands up to putting herself in the middle of them.
"Enough! Both of you, shut up!" She yells and looks to Zeke.
"If you want me to leave I will, with Kol" she says and he clenches his jaw and looks to Kol.
"This ain't over" he tells him and Kol nods and backs away with Alyssa and I'm sat here still unsure of what I'm supposed to do.
"Fuck!" Zeke stresses and Zayden grabs a drink and leans back looking at me.
"What?" I ask and he shrugs.
"Just wondering why you're still here?" He questions and I raise my brow at him.
"Because I'm taking her home. Problem?" Zeke says and I look to him seeing him glaring at Zayden and wonder if that's a good idea.
"Trying to get one up on your sister, I like it" Zayden says and I furrow my brows. Is this what this is?
"I'll Uber, thanks" I tell Zeke and stand from my seat a little to fast, swaying before gathering my bearings but I feel hands on my waist.
"I'm taking you home, don't argue" he says and I try to walk away but sway a lot this time on my high heels and I'm suddenly swooped up bridal and wrapping my arms around Zeke's neck.
"I'm not drunk" I tell him making him smirk and walk back into his house.
"And the sky's blue" he says and I furrow my brows.
"Ths sky is blue" I say confused and he chuckle sounding delicious as it wraps around me.
"It's night-time, the sky's basically black, superstar" he says and carries me up the stairs and I'm wondering where he's taking me.
"You said home" I say and he hums and pushes through a door, kicking it shut behind him and sitting me on what feels like a comfortable bed. I blink in the darkness until a light suddenly comes on glowing up the room and I look around unsure of where I am until it registers. I'm in Zeke's bedroom. Oh my-
"Do you like living alone, superstar?" He asks as he rummaged through a drawer.
"Not really, it's lonely. Do you?" I ask running my finger through his soft sheets and how did I guess he'd have black silk sheets.
"Same, parties are fun but they're getting boring. I'm getting older, I want more" he says and I furrow my brows.
"You're not old. You're twenty-two" I tell him and he hums and pulls out whatever he was looking for and pockets it.
"Do you want to go home?" He asks and I bite my lip. Is he asking me to stay?
"It's not a big deal, Serayah. I'd rather take you home tomorrow" he says and I nod slowly feeling the alcohol swirling and my head spinning a little as I look him over.
"You're safe here, you know that right?" He says and I bite my lip as he closes the distance and sits next to me.
"Am I? I've always felt safe with you, but all these people-" I start and shiver at the thought. Every since my mum, I can't trust anyone. Especially random guys, I've known Zeke a long time, he's safe.
"I'll always keep you safe, superstar" he tells me and strokes my cheek and I couldn't help leaning into his touch as I look into his pretty eyes.
"You've always called me that" I say and watch as his cheek lifts as he smiles.
"Because that's what you are, a bright light in my dark fucked up world" he tells me but I don't understand what's so bad.
"Your world isn't fucked up, you have family, friends.. girls, you have it all Zeke. I wish I could say the same" I say and sigh looking away not wanting to see the pitty in his eyes.
"That's what I let people see, Serayah" he says and goes to stand but I reach for his hand stopping him.
"Don't leave me.. please" I whisper and he looks to me for a moment like he's contemplating what to do. His homes full of the hottest girls. And then I'm here..
"I'm not, I'm locking the door and texting Zayden to clear the house" he says and smiles walking towards the door and my heart thumps faster.. he picked me. He's choosing to stay up here with me than go down to all of them. Oh my-
"You tired?" He asks walking back over, typing on his phone
"Not really, but I would like to take these off" I tell him pointing to my boots and he nods crouching down in front of me and slowly slides the first one down my leg and off my foot. I bite my lip feeling my body tingle with him so close between my legs and he's barely touching me.
He suddenly presses his lips to my inner thigh and smiles at me before removing the second boot and dropping them at the bottom of his bed. He rests his hands on my bare thighs and I feel like I can't breathe.
"You can't sleep in this, superstar" he says touching the hem of my dress and kissing my other thigh before standing and walking over to his drawes. Is he about to strip me next, oh my god. What the hell is happening!?
I watch as he pulls out a black tshirt and comes back over, standing before me.
"You wanna change here or in there?" He asks nodding towards the bathroom I assume is behind that door and I bite my lip and take the shirt.
"Bathroom" I say loosing the will to live if he sees me fucking naked.
"I'll be right here" he says and steps out of my way as I slowly walk towards the door.
Shutting it behind me, I quickly remove my dress and underwear because damn, I can't sleep in them, ever.
I stand in the mirror, naked and drunk-ish looking at myself and start to splash cold water onto my face to cool me down.
Dabbing it dry, I run my hands down my curvy body and then turn side to side looking at myself wondering if he'd like what I'm looking at..
Pouting, I quickly pull the tshirt over my head and pick up my clothes walking back out to find Zeke rolling a joint sat back against his headboard shirtless with the TV on.
His eyes land on me and it's like fireworks are shooting from me as his eyes trail down my body, lingering on my legs appreciatively and back up slowly as he licks his lips.
I drop my clothes with my boots and crawl up the bed when he's finished and putting everything onto the bedside table. I sit back against the headboard keeping my eyes on anything but Zeke's naked body, why is he ridiculously hot? Its unbelievable. How can something so delicious be out of reach.
I've crushed on Zeke since the moment I met him, he's always been the older, sexier, mysterious guy but there's always been something about him that's drawn me in.
"You wanna watch a film?" He asks when his phone buzzers next to him.
"I don't mind" I say quietly as he picks it up and types back quickly.
"Everyone's gone home" he tells me and I feel a little bad.
"I'm sorry, I shouldn't of ruin your fun" I tell him guiltily and he lifts my chin to look at him.
"You did nothing wrong, superstar. Pick a film and we'll watch it" he says handing me the TV remote and I load Netflix and begin to scroll. It's been a weird night, but I wouldn't change any of it.