Hiraeth
"Javi don't tell me you already mailed my agent"
I turned and looked at him sitting on the couch, he peaked from the other room, which was a guest room, attending a voice call with his assistant Lucy. I know because he said a million times, he was talking to Lucy. I wasn't even blushing huh? I mean why would he say that it was Lucy for just the confirmation that it wasn't any other girl? I am still not blushing, there is no warmth spreading on my cheeks. Besides, I feel more exhausted now, heavier than ever. Vomit maybe 10 times a day, my head spins most of the time, and walk as slowly as a turtle, still Javi says I look beautiful, and I don't even blush huh? Not at all. NOT AT ALL
He looked at me, smiling, showing his little curved dimple. Warmth spread against my limbs as I blushed as hard as possible. What is happening is I used to never blush just by seeing him.
He ended the call in a second as he came to me. Stop making me feel so special now, Javi.
"Yes, and the agent loved it… guess what he wants the rest of the work by the next 3 months and I am sure you have already written the ending. So I said of course."
I got up and couldn't even control the smile that curved around my lips.
" I told you to not do it, you still had to do it"
I said, hardly controlling the huge grin around my lips. He came forward as my heart raced, god what is this thing? Why is my heart racing now? Out of nowhere. Huh. I don't feel anything huh? No. nada.
I am on top of the world now, I never felt this much happiness with anyone earlier, he talks with me, understands me, my dreams, and my works, reads my drafts every day asks and bits every second, he almost stays in my house now, he barely leaves my house, he takes me to the doctor every week now because it's the 6th month of pregnancy. He wakes up at midnight and comes to check on me every hour, sometimes lying on the couch right near my bed. To just let me feel secure a little at night. I don't cry on nights now, the heaviness is still there, but I barely get time to think about anything, Javi reminds me to write umbrella every day for two hours, and then he takes me to the dining to make me eat, and he told the cook to not come from now on as he cooks me regularly. He feeds me 6 times a day, I become full to the brim every day, and I eat my favorite foods, and cravings every single day. Sometimes I read books and he listens while braiding my hair. Sometimes he talks to me about his work, about Milan, about his mom. I hold his hands whenever he talks, he carries me to the bed and never leaves until I am asleep, and he wakes up early to work as he finishes before I am even awake. He swiftly handles his work and me. Genius. He makes me feel good about myself.
Just like now, I honestly wanted to publish this book. It makes me feel giddy all over. These days I am breathing just fine, I am eating just fine, and talking just fine and he is making me short picnic trips where we go to big libraries and sometimes museums. He makes me eat in the car and tells me to take a nap. I nap and I don't know what he does when I am asleep, but when I wake up from sleep, I see him looking at me intently every single time. This man never gets enough of looking at me. He makes me feel happy
UGH
"Javi"
I screamed as he came running towards me, his joking face turning serious as he looked at me with fear
"What? Are you feeling any pain?"
I graced my belly with my palm as I felt again. UGH
"Javi COME HERE, TOUCH THE BELLY"
He frowned his brows as he touched my belly with his giant hand and thick fingers.
He gasped as he looked at me. I nodded already feeling the tears in my eyes
"She kicked. Javi kicked"
"YES YES. OH MY FU…I MEAN OH MY GOD"
I laughed as he stopped himself from cursing as if the baby was already out hearing him.
We felt again. The baby was kicking, my skin was stretched. I could feel Javi's finger trailing against the baby's legs. I looked at him as he was so fondly looking at the belly. Oh my god. I might. I did.
I burst into tears as he hugged me. He is always there to hug me. My cheeks flushed as he hugged me, these days his touches make me feel tingly all over. I feel ticklish all over, my heart out of nowhere beats like racing a marathon. He kissed my forehead as we attached our forehead. Never been this close to anyone other than him, for these 3 months. I feel good. I feel happy with whatever is happening. Our eyes matched. I know our eye contact has become something else these days, but we are very afraid to say anything.
"Are you hungry?"
I felt my stomach growling. How did he know?
"Yes, I want.."
"You want chicken fried rice but the chicken should be grilled. I know"
How did he know? I felt warm all over again
"How did you know?"
I asked, widening my eyes. He laughed as he ruffled my hair. Leaving me in the living room as he went to the kitchen to make me food. How did I find this man?