I used to be able to speak, I can still speak but I choose no to after that incident. When I was young I've had abusive parents, they gaslight me, call me worthless, and slowly ostracized me from society.

There was this one time I wanted to try cola so badly, but I never got a taste of it even once. I try to eat meat but they tell me that it's bad for my health.

The only thing I eat are these leafy greens, it still tastes the same like when it first did "tasteless..." I wonder what the life of those kids were like being able to do what they want to do in such a young age.

How I envy them... I wish I could swap bodies with them or just kill them myself out of jealousy.

I can't even escape my pain in school, they would be bullying me for being too quiet or scold me for being too noisy. I can't seem to fit in with the others I don't know how to properly bond with those people.

The noise they make when they're laughing annoys me, to the point that I started wearing noise cancelling headphones in school even if the teacher scolds me I would simply tell him to fuck off and mind his own business.

To be honest, I envy everyone and everything I just want a great life but life doesn't want me what if I just di-

I forgot I can't say that since its against terms and conditions, anyways! Why do they hate me? Because they are loosers who can't vent their problems to anyone!

I'm just a looser who records everything I do, I don't care when, where, or why I record well I do kinda, I want to publish these tapes after I commit roping myself! Just so they would notice how huge of a piece of shit they are!

Well, I'll see you later or tomorrow? Or maybe when the next chapter releases Yuma out!